MIRRORS.

Love 2 Remember

Chris' POV

It's been a week since Kairo's funeral, and nothing has been the same.

Everyone's sad and depressed. Everything in my world seems dark, gloomy, and just downright fucked up.

When I said I couldn't live without her, I only said it figuratively to express how much I loved her, but now I see that I really can't....

Before I came here, I suffered from depression and anger problems. That's exactly why I moved; to leave my past behind.

Meeting Kairo was probably the only thing that kept me sane. She kept me calm. I was finally happy and felt like I had a purpose.

Now that she's gone, who do I have?

No one...

I can already feel my depression slowly setting in, and it's only been a week.

Some people may think the last infraction we had was her fault because she thought I was intentionally cheating. I now realize that she didn't really have anything else to believe. I mean, why would she not get the idea of me just up and cheating if she witnessed it?

"I’m tryna make peace babe. These tears run down my face, so I close my eyes, but we both cry. And you say this is it, baby. She said she tired of my shit, she wanna quit, but funny thing, I’ve been good to her, not doing shit, but she think that I’ve been fucking with Keisha – Latoya and Lisa, Dirty Diana, Nicki and Amber. Gotta be out yo damn mind!"

Some people may call it dumb to let a bad relationship drive you to the end. I disagree. If you agree, then maybe you haven't truly been in love. I was, and still am, deeply in love with Kairo, but no matter how hard I try, I can't reach her.

The fact that I can never talk to, touch, or see her again makes me regret every argument even more.....

"Why do we argue? Why do we scream? I wish it was better, I don’t want you to leave... So sick and tired of drinking this bottle, contemplating the pill; overdose. I think that one shot, will stop the pain, and now I’m sleeping.......

I just wanted you to love me....."

Everyone is clueless as to why Kairo took that final plunge. They know of our argument, but aren't fully convinced that it drove her to kill herself. I am one of few people who know why she did it. I know of Dre raping her.

On one of the very few days that I decided to go to school, I heard him admit it to someone else. This, of course, had to be before he knew of her death, otherwise he wouldn't have been so proud of his actions.

Instead of going to the law like any other sane person, which I'm clearly not anymore, I let my anger get the best of me and took matters into my own hands....

Do I feel bad? No. I think that he deserved it. Yes, it was a sin for me to play God's role and take a life, but all I can do is pray for forgiveness.

I was completely merciless when I did it.

*Flashback*

It was the same day that I found out that he raped Kairo. My blood was boiling and I felt the need to get revenge -- not for me, but for Kairo.

I went into his house late at night. I slowly crept up the stairs and to the bedroom door that I knew as Dre's. I slowly twisted the doorknob and pushed it open just as slow to avoid it creaking. I gradually made my way over to his bed. He was laid up with some random ass chick, but that didn't make me contemplate anything in the least bit.