Love Lessons

C H A P T E R S E V E N T E E N|| J E S S

|➳| I HAVE MY MOMENTS|➳|

Blinking back my tears, I looked around nervously, praying there wasn't someone lurking. It would just be my luck to be a victim of a horrendous murder. The small area wasn't surrounded by any houses or any public places to give me a type of security. The wind picked up and the trees whistled in response, making my heartbeat pick up.

Fucking asshole.

Shoving my hands deep in my pockets, I realized I didn't have my cell phone on me.

What were you thinking?

Everything was in Cole's car and I knew if something happened to me, I would be dead. Taking a shaky breath, I carefully walked along the way we came, hoping that something familiar would come into view before I turned into a popsicle.

I'm an idiot.

Taking deep breaths, I continued thinking about my night and less on the fact that I was walking alone. I would soon have a panic attack and eventually pass out on the road because Cole is a fucker.

I didn't know what to think about him anymore. Clearly, my original thoughts were wrong. I had some twisted idea that he would be a hopeless romantic and that love and all that shit actually mattered to him. I just learned the hard way that nothing mattered to Cole. Wiping my tears on the back of my hand, I tried to keep moving ahead.

I didn't know where I was going.

I couldn't fake date Cole anymore. If his comments weren't enough, leaving me alone on the side of the road does the trick. Who does that to someone? I don't know why I was so surprised; it is Cole after all. I didn't know what set him off and I knew I would never get through to him. Cole had a mind of his own; nothing I could say would change it.

I wondered what it was like to be loved by someone. Loneliness crawled inside me again as I thought about my future. I doubted I would ever find someone to spend time with; no one ever gave me a chance. Tyler and Jerry had this amazing connection and I wanted to have it with someone as well. I guess life is funny that way.

When I started bawling my eyes out at the feeling of fear, loneliness, and overall disappointment, familiar headlights filled the dark lonely road. Screeching to a stop on the side of the road, he rolled down the window. Looking at the car, the lights blinded me as I watch a tall figure run out of the car.

"Jess, don't ever fucking scare me like that again." I couldn't see through my watery tears and I heard his quick footsteps. His hazards flashed, lighting up the road as he stood and hugged me tightly in his arms.

"I'm sorry." He murmured. "I'm sorry." He repeated over again. I didn't notice my trembling body until I felt his warm body wrapped around mine. His hazel eyes looked glassy and filled with guilt as he cradled me in his arms.

"I never-I'm so stupid."

"You are." I sobbed. "I hate you."

"I know."

"You're an asshole."

"I know." He mumbled. "I'm so sorry."

"You came back." Cole froze and wiped my tears away with his thumb.

"Of course I did." He mumbled. "I know it was unbelievably stupid taking off like that, but I wasn't going to leave. I just took off around the block. It's wrong, I know, but I was pissed and really close to strangling you. I came back and almost sent out a search party when I didn't see you there." He rambled.