Recovery

Chapter 28

The next morning Jacob woke up to take me to school since my car was left at the school. Once I went to my locker Jacob walked off I didn't even ask where he was going I was still on what happened last night. Jacob walked down to the Spanish room and looked inside to see mr. Johnson getting his stuff together for the day.

Jacob cleared his throat to let it be known that his presence was in the room. Mr Johnson looked up at him. "May I help you?" He asked.

Jacob walked all the way into the class room "yea in fact you can. I'm sure you know lyric right?" Jacob said as mr Johnson face quickly turned serious which caused Jacob to smirk.

"We'll of course she is my student." Mr Johnson answered

"Yea but I bet you want her as something a little more right?" Jacob asked.

"Look I have no clue what your hinting at but I have to get ready for my first period.... Show your self out." Mr Johnson shot.

Jacob chuckled as he walked towards the door he quickly turned around and walked behind the desk where me Johnson stood. He snatched him by his collar and aimed his pistol at his head. "Enough fucking around. I know about the shit you tried to pull last night and I'm just letting you know right now if you ever even look at her in that type of way I'll blow your fucking brains back. And I mean that shit." Jacob growled.

Mr Johnson swallowed with fear.

"The name is Jacob. I'm sure you heard about me." Jacob said before letting mr Johnson go. Jacob backed up looking at how scared he was. "Bitch nigga." Jacob said with a chuckle as he walked out of the classroom. Of course Jacob had no intention on actually killing mr Johnson. He just wanted to scare him because Jacob is still trying to change. But don't get it twisted if it actually came down to it Jacob would pull that trigger with no hesitation.

He saw me still at my locker. He quickly pecked my lips.

"Have a good day baby." He said calmly as he walked out the school with a smile. I started to wonder where he went I guess I'll ask him later. I went to my first period class and sat down ready to get this day over mean while Jacob headed over to will's house.

"Jakeeeeee" they all cheered as he walked through the door. He smiled giving everybody dap.

Lesley passed him an already rolled blunt and lit it for him. Jacob sat down joining the rest of his friends as they counted their money and smoked their weed.

"Where lyric?" Nina questioned.

"She at school." Jacob said.

Nina nodded.

Ron came from the back room pulling his mask over his face. "Ight, y'all ready?" He asked.

They all nodded except Jacob.

"What y'all bout to do?" He asked.

"We bout to go handle them niggas from the west side. " Lesley said with a smile.

"What niggas?" Jacob asked confused.

"Remember when we was at the beach and we killed three of they homies? " white boy asked.

"Oh yea." Jacob said nodding.

"We'll they came over in englewood the other day, people say they was looking for us. So now we bout to go give them what they asked for." Will said with a smile.

"So you down?" Nina asked Jacob hopeful.

"Nah I'm just gone chill here." Jacob said turning on the tv.

They all looked at him irritated.

"What?" Jacob growled.

Nobody said anything. Will shook his head then grabbed his mask and walked out the door as the others followed.

Jacob sighed as he sat back on the couch. He knew him not wanting to kill anyone anymore was making his friends mad but he didn't care. He was changing for him. It was something he wanted and he wasn't ready to throw all his hard work down the drain just to go back to his old grimy ways. Of course he wasn't no saint but he was a big improvement from where he was before.

Jacobs phone ringing from an incoming call knocked him from his thoughts. He looked down at the screen seeing it was a call from his dad. He pressed ignore as he stood up leaving out the house going home. By the time he made it home he realized his dad wasn't going to stop calling so he finally answered. "What?" He spat through the phone.

"Jacob." His dad breathed out in a weird tone.

Jacob scrunched his eye brows together in confusion.

"Dad?..... What happened?" Jacob questioned

A short paused filled the line until his dad was finally able to speak.

"Your mom..... She's in the E.R at st James. she's having heart problems. " his dad explained.

"What the fuck?" Jacob growled. "don't you ever play like that!" Jacob screamed he was becoming furious that his dad would even play about something so serious.

"Jacob I-"

"No, no just shut the fuck up!" Jacob screamed.

"Jacob you have to listen to me!! I am not lying your mom is in there fighting for her fucking life!"

"Fuck you." Jacob spat as he ended the call. He knew for sure that everything coming out his dad's mouth was bullshit. He knew that because he just recently checked on his mom right before he drove me to school.

He angrily stomped up the stairs opening his moms door to find her room empty.

And at that moment his heart dropped. He stood there staring into the room. He told himself that his mom just went out to run errands. He refused to believe that anything happened to her. Jacob shook his head as he thought back to the phone call he just received.

He went downstairs sitting on the couch staring at the front door he was going to wait for his mom to come home he turned off his phone just incase his dad decided to call again with more bullshit.

But after hours of waiting he started to actually think more about the phone call. He clenched his teeth as he got up off the couch heading out the door. He got into his car driving to st.james.

10 minutes after arriving to the hospital Jacob stepped in the waiting room to see everybody sitting around will,Ron,white boy, Lesley, Nina me and jacob's dad. The only person who didn't bother showing up was angels mom she felt like what was going on wasn't her problem....

"Where have you been?! We blew your phone up like crazy." Nina said

He ignored her looking over at his father who sat there with his head in his hands.

"Where the fuck my mama at?!" Jacob screamed getting everybody attention in the waiting room.

"Jacob just calm down I-" I started but to only be cut off

"Nah fuck all that. What happened to my mama?! " he screamed again.

The doctor walked over to us "sir I have to ask you to please lower your voice." She calmly.

" then tell me what fuck happened to my mom. " he demanded.

She looked at the rest of us realizing we were the same family she talked to just a few minutes ago. We all knew what happened but none of us had the guts to tell him.

The doctor sighed as she looked back at Jacob.

"We'll, she was brought in earlier by one of her friends. She was having heart problems. " the doctor explained.

"Why?" Jacob asked rudely.

"Because she has congestive heart failure." The doctor said

Jacob scrunched his eye brows together.

"Heart failure?" He repeated. "Nah my mama didn't have that it was just a cold. That's what she told me." Jacob said. He knew that it had to be more wrong than just a little cold but he refused to believe it.

"Sir if you want to know what happened then you have to believe me. I am not a liar." She said calmly.

Jacob clenched his teeth.

"Okay so she had heart failure. But is she okay now?" He asked

Doctor sighed again.

"We'll sir this isn't the first time she has been on edge from her heart failure. We have treated her with chemo about 5 times and each time she bounced back but this time she didn't recover like before. We did everything we could." The doctor said truthfully.

This was all coming down on Jacob too hard. He had so many questions like why didn't his mom tell him that she was having heart problems and he was so confused as to how he never noticed her being in the hospital getting treated. He felt like all of this was a joke.

"I'm extremely sorry for your lost. her heart gave out on her just a few minutes ago. I'm truly sorry... I promise that I am." The doctor said lowly.

And at that point it was like everything in Jacobs world came to an end. His mom meant everything to him and without her,his world was nothing.

And just like always Jacobs anger got the best of him. He punched the wall with all his might leaving a huge hole. And right at that moment Jacob went against everything him and his friends stood for. He broke out into silent tears. All of his friends looked at him surprised that big bad Jacob Perez was crying. But I knew that it was only natural.

The doctor held her heart from the site...Jacobs dad looked up in tears as we'll. I wrapped my arms around Jacob allowing him to cry on my shoulder. He let out 18 years of crying. Everything sad that he ever witnessed he let it all out. He cried for his sister, he cried for wills older brother James, he cried for the lost of his grandparents and most of all he cried for his mom.

Of course all of his friends were just as sad as him. They didn't have a mother figure or nobody to even love them. But Anna showed them all love and care as if they were her own. So her dying took a major toll on every last one of them. But crying was out of the question for them. They just couldn't do it.

After sitting in the waiting room for another 3 hours Jacob finally got himself together a little bit. He stared off into space angrily. We all remained quiet as a nurse walked up to us. She passed Jacob a white envelope. "This is for you, your mother made me promise that you received this note.... She really wanted you to have it." She said slightly smiling before walking away.

Jacob opened the envelopes taking the note out which read.

Hi Jacob, it's mommy. If you got this letter that means my time is up. Your probably really confused right now but that is what this letter is for.... As you should already know I have congestive heart failure. Iv had it for about 5 years now. After your dad left us i was stressing way to much. I had to work 2 jobs and that still wasn't enough to care for you and lexi. And that lead to lexi's death which only stressed me out even more. Once I finally found out about my condition they said stress is what caused it. I knew I wasn't going to live much longer but turns out I lived 5 more years longer than they expected thanks to chemotherapy. I planned on telling you but I just couldn't bring my self to do it. So that's what this letter is for and even though I'm gone do not let this break you honey, your strong and independent in need of no one. I love you so much I hope you know that. And I gave you everything I could, it just wasn't enough. Stay strong for me. I'll always be here with you... Whenever you miss me just talk, I'll be there listening.

Love mom.




Jacob dropped the letter as he looked over at his dad with cold eyes as he stood up charging towards him he grabbed his dad by his throat holding him up against the wall. " this is all your fucking fault! It's your fault! You killed my mama and my sister all to be with another bitch!" Jacob screamed as his father was loosing air.

Will, Ron and white boy all stood up prying Jacob off of him " chill out that's yo pops man!" Will shouted.

" get the fuck off me" Jacob growled as he jerked away from them. He continued to look at his dad with cold eyes as he bent over tried to recover.

" you wasn't shit 12 years ago, and you still ain't shit now. Fuck you and stay the hell out of my life and I mean that shit cause next time I see to ass I'm blowing yo shit back." Jacob growled.

He turned walking out of the hospital leaving us there speechless. I never saw Jacob like this before but his friends wasn't the least bit surprised. when Jacob got real mad he always got crazy like this.

I looked over seeing his dad cry. We all knew he wasn't crying because Jacob choked him he was really crying because he already lost Lexi, angel and now Jacob. He had no kids left and his wife ain't been the same either. It was like he had no purpose anymore.

"We bout get out or here... You need a ride?" Will asked me.

"Nah.. I brought my car." I said.

He nodded as they all left.

I turned to Jacobs dad to say one final thing. " I'm sorry things turned out this way." I said he continued to cry.

I let out a deep breath and got into my car. I thought about going home but for what? I had no one to go home to. My parents were out of town again and chres disappeared ever since the whole incident nobody even knows what happened to him.

I drove to Jacobs house letting my self in with the spare key under the mat and went up in the room to see him sitting on his bed with a bottle of 1800 drinking it straight from the bottle. I sighed

"Jacob you really shouldn't drink all of that like that it-" I started but was cut off by Jacob holding his hand up indicating me to stop.

"On some serious shit. Not now, don't start with me. My nerves is bad at this point and I got a lot of anger I need to get out so just stop right there lyric. I'm a grown as man and I chose to drink this. So you can get the fuck out my face."

"Just because your mom died doesn't mean you have the right to be mad at the whole world, I know how you feel I-"

"No the fuck you don't know how I feel! Is your mom dead?" He asked

I stayed quiet.

"Is she?! " he asked again.

"No." I said lowly.

"Okay then don't sit here telling me you understand because you don't." He growled as he continued to drink out the bottle.

"You ain't got shit to worry about in your perfect little wonderland. Your fucking rich." He scoffed.

Wow just because I have money he thinks I don't have problems?

"What you even on the side of town for? Why are you even fucking with me?! You should have listened to yo stupid ass brother. I'm no good lyric! I'm nothing but a cold blooded murder! " He shouted.

I shook my head.

" that's not true... Your just saying stuff now....and I don't care what you say right now I'm not leaving. I love you and i will never leave your side especially at a time like this." I said taking off my shoes getting into bed with him.

He chuckled as he continued to drink.

"I don't get you." He said.

I wrapped my arms around his torso while he sat up drinking.

He glared evilly at the wall. "Everybody wanted me back to my old ways.... Well now they got they wish. I'm back but this time..... I'm 10x worst. Just wait." Jacob growled through clenched teeth I remained quiet hoping that it was just the liquor talking..