Is this how it ends? (Negovanman)

Chapter 7: Saturday morning

I woke up by something I knew very well. Feeling four little feet on my chest and stomach and a dog nose tickling my neck. God I loved Charlie so much. It was Saturday morning, the birds were twittering and I heard a few kinds play outside. Nothing was more peaceful than a morning in the late summer. Warm air touching, petting your skin, the sun tickling your nose. The only thing that made start off a day even more beautiful was Charlie. He was the perfect dog.

As I was laying in my bed I was thinking about my day. What should I do?

I hadn't heard from Elise for half a week, so I texted her.

Hey Baeman! I laughed a little. I remembered how we discovered someone named her like that and the way she made the situation super cute. Her blushing was always adorable. Oh no, I couldn't write that.

Hey! That would be my super awkward text. ‚Hey!' Should I delete that exclamation mark? Probably.

Hey

I sent it before I could make myself even more crazy about it. „It's okay Nat." I said to myself. God I didn't like being called Nat and I was doing it myself. What the heck was wrong with me? I felt like those weird kids in movies that were socially awkward. But I had friends. And I wasn't that bad at social situations. For usual. But this was different. I was able to ignore my little crush on Elise, but her hiding something from me, being weird in front of me, made me sad. I knew that I was giving our relationship to much thoughts but she did really mean a lot to me. Before I was even able to end my process of thinking, I received a text.

Hey you :)

A slight smile appeared on my face.

Wanna hang out?

My thumb tipped the send-button. Right after the message was sent I began to panic. What if she didn't want to. What if she was still weird because that thing she couldn't tell me.

I would, but I'm sick...:(

I knew that nobody would take care of her. Since her friend Pepper moved out Elise lived alone. Her parents were back home and most of her friends were probably working at some restaurants on a Saturday.

I didn't text back. I grabbed some things and left the apartment with Charlie. I arrived a few minutes later at Elises building, unsure if she wanted to see me. I decided yes, because I would appreciate if someone did for me what I was going to do and went inside as a resident left the apartment block, letting the front door openly are. Three floors higher, Elise opened the door. Both surprised and slightly happy she let me get inside.

„I didn't know what illness you're suffering with, but I brought you tea." Elise smiled. She still looked beautiful. Actually not that sick.

„Thank you!" The blonde took the box of tea and went into the room to the right. I was unsure about the exact room specification, because it was a kitchen on the left and a living room on the right sight. As I was following her she told me that I didn't have to come.

„Of course I had to come. What kind of a friend would I be if I didn't make sure that you're alright?" Elise was slightly amazed by how much I cared. I could tell by the face she was making.

„Well you're a little late Natasha. I'm already doing better."

„How am I supposed to know if I don't even know what you have ore had... whatever." I grinned.

„I just had a little cold and I still feel weak. I guess my immune system is still not recovered." Actually she seemed to be fine.

„And that's really the reason why you couldn't hang out today?" I was trying to say that as less suspicious as possible. Well I guess I was wondering why Elise would reject meeting me. I was suggesting that it was for the same reason like last time.

„Yes it is." She wasn't facing me. Elise was getting herself a mug for some tea. ‚Okay Natasha you can do it.' I encouraged myself. I got a step closer to that small girl and laid my hands on her hips. With one short movement turned Elise around. Her big brown eyes were staring right into mine, surprised and still calm.

„Natasha" Elise's hands touched mine. They met on her hips. Her fingers ran up my arms, softly tickling my skin. I was just standing there. Not able to move or to do anything. At some point, her hands arrived at my upper arms, my shoulders, the back of my neck. We got closer and her eyes were alternating staring at my eyes and at my mouth. Goosebumps were all over my body when her lips, her soft beautiful lips, met mine. In the next moment, Elise was in a distance, that made me sad. My lips were craving for hers.

„I'm so sorry!" Before I could realize anything, Elise had left. Footsteps, a door slamming, silence.

„Elise!" I found myself, beating against the door of her bedroom, shouting her name for an eternity. She didn't answer. At some point, I was sitting with my back leaned against that door. My dog, cuddling into my side. My heart was beating like never before, my skin was warm like never before.

„Look." I was hoping that Elise was still awake so that I wouldn't totally embarrass myself. Or even worse that she couldn't hear me.

„I don't know what that was. Or how it happened. We don't have to make a big thing out of it. It is in no way something that can get between us. We are friends. And Elise believe me, you are my best friend and I wouldn't let anything come between us." I stopped for a moment, as I felt something move behind my back. I suggested that Elise sat down on the other side the door. Or perhaps she had been sitting there for a while and had just moved little. I smiled at the thought of her being close to me.

„Those last days have felt like hell without you. I love you Elise and I never want to lose you. I can't imagine my life without you and I don't want to." It got quite. I was thinking about what to say as I heard a soft „I'm sorry" from the other side.

„You don't have to be sorry."

„I don't mean that kiss."

„What do you mean?"

„That I didn't knew how you felt for all that time." Silence. Again.

„How I felt?"

„You told me that night, after..."

„After what?"

„After we kissed a little to long." ‚Wait a minute...' I thought. I remembered us kissing in the club, but I didn't tell her anything about my feelings. At least not in the club. It hit me. I remembered sitting on Kaitlyn's bed, giggling, drinking, talking with Elise. Our lips getting closer. But it wasn't me. Elise initiated the kiss. And that's all I remembered.

„She kissed me." I mumbled. Totally unaware that Elise was hearing me.

„I did."

„But... why?"

„If only I knew!"

„And I told you..?"

„That you like me more than a friend." All I could hear was Charlie's breath. He seemed like nothing had happened. As if his Saturday was just about to get awesome. And boy he was right. Suddenly the girl behind the door said with a loud voice „Oh fuck it!". Footsteps, I stood up. The door knob went down. The door was standing wide open and Elise came out, tears on her face. I was standing right in front of her, but she didn't stop to get closer until our lips connected.