Ok so I zoned the fuck out and this happened. I totally wasn't crying while I wrote this out.
My iPod dinged with a Skype message from a friend.
'Hello?'
'Hai! Wassup?'
'Is this Roger?'
'Lol yesh how is u?"
'This is Iaavst's mom'
'Oh! Hello! Nice to meet you!'
'Nice to meet you too. Listen, I need to tell you something'
'What is it?'
'Iaavsts... she's dead...'
'What?!'
'She... a rope...'
I get off skype and go to my Maps App. Her address is already entered in. I run out of my room, out of my house. I follow the map.
Some random fast forwarding and I'm at her house in her room.
Her mom is standing in the doorway, Iaavst's iPod still in her hands. I look past her. A rope is hanging off the ceiling lamp, and at the end of it was...
More fast forwarding to funeral.
They allowed me to come up and say a few words. I didn't dare look at the coffin. I didn't want to see her like that. "She... she was... I... She saved my life... changed it... I... I couldn't return the..." I couldn't go on. I ran off, tears threatening to fall.
Last bit of fast forwarding to after the funeral.
The room was empty when I walked back in. I walked up to the coffin. I finally look at it. She's lying in it, arms crossed into her chest. I'll never see her again...
Tears stream down, and I let them. "I'm so sorry... I couldn't save you. I'm so sorry... you saved me from this, and I could do the same to you... I'm so sorry..." I turn to leave, but something catches my eye, it stops me. I see a tiny slip of paper, hidden in her small palm. I pick it out of her palm. I open it up.
'It's not your fault. I've planned this for months. Thanks for everything. Keep fighting, ok! Stay strong! I love you!
-I"
I returned to reality sobbing
YOU ARE READING
My Dream Book
Random"Should I make a dream book?" "No I shouldn't." "Why shouldn't I?" "Because it's gonna be fucking embarrassing!" "Your fucking embarrassing." "Fuck you!" "What time" "..." "..." "..." "Bitch I'm making that dream book."
