Maybe This Time

GAZING & a Facebook Status

I could hear Cody snoaring from the other side of the room. How can Mr Powell still continue reading that book to us. Can't he see, it is doing nothin but put us all to sleep. I yawned and checked my watch. 

9:15. Oh Thank God! 5 more minutes, until Cody wakes up. Is it weird that I am more interested about what Cody dreamt about than the story our teacher is reading us? I looked at Mr Powell then my eyes scanned the room. Nobody was paying attention. I looked at the other side, and I saw Levi, seated next to me, also fast asleep. He looks so adorable. He has this little smile on his face. He is probably having a really happy dream. I took the time to just stare at his face. His hair was messy like always, his eyes were perfect even if it was closed, his nose, and those lips... 

"Stop staring."

I jumped a little, startled. I snapped my head back and forth to look for the one who said it. He or she might tell Levi that I was staring at him while he was sleeping, and Levi will surely be creeped out, and will think that I'm just another psycho stalker.

I looked to my left, Brittany was too busy texting, so it couldnt be her. I looked behind me, and Justin was asleep just like most of my classmates. I sighed. Maybe I was just imagining things.

I gave Levi a last glance, and I my heart stopped when I saw him staring back at me. His eyes still looked tired, but he was smiling. Oh dear Lord. Was it him?

"Why were you staring at me?" He asked in a low voice. 

I opened my mouth, not so sure what excuse I'll say. Come one Zoe. Think! Think! Fast!

"I wasn't." I defended. "I was uhmm. gazing."

Stupid! Thats the same thing! How stupid can I be.? This boy is driving me crazy. My heart is beating so fast, that I think I am going to die. Now he's going to hate me, and think that I'm a freak. This time, it's for sure.

He sat up lazily and faced the teacher without saying anything or even looking at me. I mirrored him, and looked at Mr Powell. I bit my lip. What should I do? This is so freakin awkward. Can the earth just swallow me whole now?

The bell rang, and everybody was out of their seats. Even Cody. Wow. Was he really sleeping the entire time.?

Levi was out of his seat too, and I sighed. Oh well, I'm a loser, he's the star. I dont think we were even meant to be friends. 

I grabbed my stuff, and headed for the door. To my surprised, Levi was still there, leaning against the wall near the door, with his hands inside this pocket. Can you imagine how hot he looked? 

"Hey" he smiled. Oh. So I guess I didn't freak him out that much. 

"Hey. Waiting for someone?" I asked hesistantly and looked at the empty room. Maybe he's waiting for someone from the other room, I looked there too. But it was also empty. Huh. Maybe he likes standing here like this after class. Or maybe he likes walking alone in the hallway because it makes him look like a badass. 

Gosh. I have such weird trail of thoughts.

"I was waiting for you." He simply said and gave me a smile. 

You probably know what my heart did after hearing that. I did my best to ignore it, and we started walking. I immediately took the chance to explain myself about earlier. 

"Hey Levi?" I started..

"Hmm?" He answered, looking at me.

"I'm really sorry if I creeped you out earlier." I said, carefully watching his face. 

He scrunched his eyebrows, as if confuse. "You mean, when you gazed at me?" He asked.

I squeezed my eyes shut, wanting to kick my self. I dont even know why I said that. Seriously? GAZING? That's even creepier if you ask me. 

"Ugh. I will totally understand if you decide to stop talking to me now. I am such a creep. I'm sorry. I know what I did was creepy." I said apologetically. 

He let out a low chuckle. Hands inside his hoody pockets, he shrugged. "Nah, I think its romantic." He flashed a sincere smile and I melted. Why Levi? Why do you always say the right words? Why do you always make the butterflies in my stomach do the harlem shake?

Looking like a tomato, I was speechless. So I just smiled at him. Like an idiot.

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My first day in school went pretty well. I wasn't bullied exept for that incident with Slutty Aimee. It was even better when I saw and talked to Levi. He hasn't been this nice and sweet to me, and we've been together in English class since freshman year. Though I have been crushing on him since, it is still quite odd that he's doing this. Sure, we've talked before. Hugged me a couple times. But there was always a reason. 

I am not complaining though. Because I like it. I am just really having a hard time trusting boys. All because of Oliver. I know I shouldn't  stereotype boys. But sometimes, once you've been hurt by someone, you will always have that fear of being wounded again after such a long time of healing. 

Oliver.

I wonder how he's doing. After giving me my first heartbreak, I know I must hate him. But I couldn't just make myself do it. Because deep deeeeep deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep inside my heart, he is still my bestfriend. My first love. And as cliche as it may sound, I know for a fact that first love never dies.

I was sitting infront of my laptop, in my PJs, about to go to bed. I decided to visit Oliver's facebook profile first before I doze off. I typed in his name on the search bar, and I was brought to his page.

My heart flew out of my mouth when I saw his latest post. 

Oliver Williams : Childhood memories are always the best. Somehow, there was a point when I ruined it. But, MAYBE THIS TIME, I could fix it. Hello, Little Elm! I've missed you. #HomeSweetHome

Updated Just Now.

I gulped.