Maybe This Time

The Reason

A/N : MUST READ!!! Hello Guys. :) So, I would like to make some major changes. You know when I started writing this story, I haven't really thought of the cast and stuff. I just randomly described them. But then I decided that I would like to make an official cast for this story. So you could like imagine them as you read. Haha. Anyway, I know I have described Zoe as a hazel eyed girl, but I change my mind, She will have blue eyes, because she will be Britt Robertson. Then, Oliver wont have blue eyes, he will have hazel or dark brown. Cuz he will be DYLAN O'BRIEN! (I know! Good choice, eh? Hahaha.) Then Levi will be the same, blue eyes and messy hair and stuff. cuz he is CHACE CRAWFORD. :) 

Okay, so that's settled. I will edit the previous chapters and make the changes. But probably not now. Soon, perhaps. 

Anyways, here's your new chapter. HAPPY READING! :)

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You know that feeling when you are with someone you're supposed to hate, but that someone is just too awesome that you forget about the awkwardness and you just go with the flow? Well, I am currently having that moment right now. Sure, it was a little awkward at first, but once Oliver started talking, I felt more comfortable. I felt like he is just, well, Oli, and I was JJ. It felt great catching up with him and reminiscing old memories. Remembering our good old days together. 

For the first time in a long time, I was able to laugh. A real laugh. The kind where you just laugh so hard that your stomach starts to hurt, and your eyes become teary. That kinda laugh. And Oliver is responsible for it. Oliver.

After reminiscing memories, we shared a comfortable silence for awhile, just watching the stars. We have been on the roof for quite a while and we haven't really gotten to the serious talk yet. But I didn't wanna ruin the moment, so I decided to just wait for him to tell me. After all, he did say he was going to tell me. Though I still doubt and not fully trust Oliver, right now, my brain is telling me that he is telling he truth. That he will tell me the reason why he left. We are bestfriends, and somehow I wanna believe in that. I wanna listen to whatever he has to say for himself, because he is my bestfriend. I wanna understand, and I wanna forgive him. Mom was right, it wasn't Oliver's fault. I was a fool who fell inlove with my bestfriend. I ruined our friendship. And now I don't want that to happen again, because I have realized, I don't hate Oliver. I've missed him. So much. And I dont think I wanna lose him again. I decided to take all the feelings I still have for Oliver, and bury it deep deep down the ground. 

"Hey JJ?" He said softly.

"Yeah?" 

"Do you hate me?" He asked, still staring at the sky,

"I used to." I smiled, and I heard him let out a low chuckle.

"Does that mean you no longer hate me now?" He asked, smiling.

"Maybe. But that doesn't mean I forgive you." I teased.

He then turned his head to my direction, and looked at me. "Well, I will keep asking for forgiveness for as long as forever, until you forgive me. ANd dont worry, I will make up for the years that I was gone, even if it takes the rest of my life." He smiled, sincerely.

As expected, I was in loss of words. So I just gave him a small smile, and awkwardly stared at the sky again. Without looking at him, I said, "Well you could start by telling me the reason why you left."

 When he didn't respond, I turned to my side and watch him stare at the sky. I waited for him to start talking, but I got nothing but silence. He continued to stare at the sky, without looking at me, or saying another word.

"You know, the only thing that is more painful than being left by my bestfriend?" I asked. Without waiting for a respond, I continued, "is not even knowing the reason why."