My Suitor is a Murderer
He's been my suitor since November 2015 up to present. Yes it's been one year and he is still courting me. He is still waiting for my answer. But how can I say ""yes"" after I found out who he really is? I won't deny it. My suitor is handsome and crazy (not literally) which made me fall for him BUT! The thing is... my suitor is a murderer. How and when did I know? Simple. I just saw him kill someone last month. He stabbed her at the back. Yes, he killed a girl.
It was friday, around 6:45 pm. I'm one of those senior college students who is oblige to go home late for some academic reasons. I was walking home which is so unusual because TG (My suitor's name) is not with me. He used to bring me home after school but that day, I was alone. I am heading my way and I was about to turn left when I saw something that made me stop. A familiar figure of a boy. It was TG, following a girl. I noticed him glancing my way. I don't know but there was a part of me saying that I should hide. So I hid before he could see me. Then I had this urge to watch him. And so I did. I was so shocked when I saw what he did. At the same time, I felt pity for the innocent girl. I was crying while watching him stab her many times. The girl seems so helpless, and I got nothing to do with it because I was so very scared, thinking that he might kill me next. I ran away, hoping that he won't notice me.
At last! I finally got home! My mother asked me something when I entered the house. ""Oh nak, where's TG?"" I didn't answer. I walked straight to my room and locked up my self. That incident didn't let me sleep the whole night. My conscience is haunting me. I don't know what to do. Surrender him to the police? I don't have enough evidence. Kasi bago ako umalis dun sa kinaroroonan nila kanina, nakita ko s'yang ipinasok ang bangkay sa malaking sako. At hindi ko na alam kung saan n'ya 'yun dinala. There's so many questions in my mind.
""Why did he do that to her?""
""What if pinigilan ko s'ya bago n'ya pa man ginawa 'yun?""
""Pano kung hindi ako nagtago nung una? Baka nagbago pa isip n'ya na pumatay ng tao diba?""
I cried hardly. Para akong mababaliw sa nasaksihan ko. Sa nalaman ko, na ang mahal ko ay isa palang mamamatay tao. Yes, I love him. Naghahanap lang ako ng tyempo na sabihin sa kanya iyon but I guess hindi ko na masasabi 'yon sa kanya after what happened. The next day, he invited me to go out. But I refused. I could not afford to see his face again. I'm scared at him. HE IS A KILLER. At ayaw ko namang makipagdate sa killer noh. Like duh? -.- Hindi ako maarte. Ayaw ko lang mapahamak. I thought I'm safe with him because every time I'm with him, nagiging komportable ako. Pero akala lang pala. Wala pa rin palang forever. :( 'di joke lang. Seryoso na, so eto na nga. After three days, World War 3 begins. Ghost versus human (which is me). Sira-ulo talagang TG 'yun! Ako 'yung minumulto nung pinatay n'ya PASHNEA.
At first, it was only just a dream. I dreamt of a girl, crying and begging for help. Until I woke up and realized that I was also crying too. Hanggang sa 'yung mga napapanaginipan ko eh hindi na lang sa panaginip nangyayari kundi naging makatotohanan na. Hanggang dito na lang po muna ang maishishare ko. I know this is a serious stuff kaya pinag-isipan ko talaga ng maigi kung icoconfess ko ba 'to dito sa page n'yo but I badly needed your advice. Ano bang dapat kong gawin para mapatigil ko s'ya sa panliligaw sa'kin? Kasi baka 'pag binasted ko s'ya, tusukin din ako ng kutsilyo nun. -.- haish nakakastress!
-nerdylexie
