A/N: This story is going to be dark, so I'm just giving you a heads up.
Dear Diary,
I just hit 100k subscribers today! I know in a way I didn't get those subscribers, but my channel did. It doesn't matter that I'm nothing like I am on camera. It's not like I could change anything. I'm depressed. I can't remember a time I wasn't. I want to tell Mark and Tyler, but I can't. That is why I am starting you. To try and get everything out thats on my mind.
I feel as though as my YouTube career grows my personal life falls. I'm starting to split into two separate people. The one my fans and friends see, and who I really am. I can't let anyone in to see me. If I do I don't know what would happen. Being the way I am by myself isn't too bad. Today I only cried for an hour. That is so good for me, yet still I feel broken inside.
Its like I'm a machine missing a gear. I can't function properly. I always screw everything up. I can't help it. I'm just broken, and there is no way I can be fixed.
-Ethan
A/N: These are diary entries so keep in mind that they are going to be short. Also I might try and catch up on the dates with real life.
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Dear Diary- CrankGamePlays
FanfictionEthan is a gaming YouTuber who just reached 100k subscribers. His best friends Tyler and Mark know everything about him, or thats what they think. Ethan is the opposite of what he is in videos. Can Kole, a blue haired girl, fix him?
