GUILT(RAGSAN FF) : Ishq Mubarak

G 1.31

"How can she do this maa? Dont I have any rights to think about her happiness? I have not forgotten what and all she has done for me like a mother without a single complaint. But how will I let her spoil her life just because she loves that beast who is responsible for Vikrams death. I still dont understand how did she fell in love with him in the first place? said Swara sleeping in Sumis lap and sobbed. Sumi caressed her hair and smiled. She was all alone fighting Shona. She had nobody to share her pain. I was also not understanding her that time. Fate brought them together. Look at the destiny Sanskar understood her without her speaking. Thats the emotional connection they have bacha. And there is no reason to fall in love. You just start feeling for someone. And Sanskars love made her to start feeling for him. You only think how madly he loves her said Sumi looking at the distant. But that doesnt mean she is right maa. She is doing a stupidity and I cannot let her do so. She has to come back. Im sure my ignorance will surely bring her back. said Swara. She got up and headed to her room. You dont know about Lado; Shona. You may be like me who thinks ignorance will help but she is like her Dad who once decide something though she will suffer she will not back off. She thinks about everyone even if they are her enemies. I just hope you people get back together soon. You are Swaragini. Like Ragini cannot be without Swara; Swara also cannot be without Ragini. Im sorry Lado, I was not there with you in your biggest day of life though it was my only dream. I could not see you struggling to decide between your wedding vows and your promise to your Dad. I dont know why I feel Sanskar is the only person meant for you. But I could not stand by you as I know this marriage has no meaning until you accept him as your husband and move on. Until then I cannot be with you bacha. I cannot be said Sumi caressing Raginis face in their family portrait where Ragini was pouting and Swara and Vikram were fighting to feed her the cake.

I will not let her spoil her life bandar. I know you might be hell angry on me for hurting Ragu. But I cannot support her when I know she will suffer due to it. I cannot. You remember when she was small she never used to listen when we used to tell her to not to play in water when she was sick. But if I ignore her for sometime she used to run to me and used to promise that she will not play in water. I know now also she will come back. She has to come back. I wont let her spoil her life. I wont let her to suffer said Swara sobbing looking at star studded black sky. She wiped her tears and went to bed and tried dozing off.

How could you leave my chotu alone chipkali. How could you? She is right or wrong Im always with my bacha. Again she became alone. Why bhagvan ji why are you making her fight alone. I feel so helpless. I cant be with my bacha. She needs me. Again the same pain of loneliness my bacha has to go through. And like before I have to watch her helplessly. I want to just hug her once and console her. said Vikram and tears dropped from his eyes looking at Ragini who was trying to sleep.

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Ansh. Get up fast. said Ragini waking Ansh. Maa today is Sunday let me sleep na said Ansh in sleepy tone. Ragini sat beside him and caressed his hair and said Ansh bacha get up its 8 o clock. Dont you wanna go to park today? Ansh got up with a jerk hearing the word park. Good morning maa said Ansh and hugged Ragini who was watching him shocked. She hugged him back and smiled. Chalo now get ready fast. Shall I call your chachu to help you to bath? asked Ragini dragging Ansh out of bed. No no no chachu please said Ansh horrified. I can take bath on my own said Ansh. Ragini looked at him confused and asked What happened Ansh? Why are you getting so scared of your chachu? Dont tell me he beats you Ansh chukled and said Worst than that Ragini shrank her eyes confused. You know how chachu gives bath. He will pour one bucket of water on me then little shampoo on my head and then again one bucket of water. Uff said Ansh and sighed. Really? asked Ragini and burst out laughing imagining Sanskar and Anshs bathroom adventure. Maa. Is that funny cried Ansh. Okay bacha sorry. Now go take bath and come fast. I will prepare your dress said Ragini and sent Ansh to the bathroom. Ansh headed in with his towel. Ragini nodded her head and turned smiling. She saw Ananya was moving weakly. She neared her and caressed her hair. Ananya felt her touch and calmed down and opened her eyes and was pouting ready to cry. Alele. Ani bacha tho ut gayi said Ragini making faces at Ananya and picking her up in her arms. She checked her diaper was heavy. I have to give her bath soon or else she will catch cold said Ragini and headed down. Maa is there one more baby tub and some diaper for Ani. I have to give her bath soon or else she will catch cold. Ansh already went to take bath said Ragini standing at Anus room. Anu smiled at her concern. Even if she tried all her prayers also she couldnt have got a mom like Ragini for Ansh and Ananya. She thanked God one more time for sending Ragini as answer to her prayers of her life. Wait beta there is one bath tub in Sanskars room and Anis diaper also. I will get it for you. You give her bath here only said Anu. No maa thats ok. I will give her bath there only. You take rest. I will prepare breakfast after that said Ragini stopping her. Arrey beta. Dont take breakfast tension. Unless your Rasoi ritual finishes you should not light the stove, tomorrow is your Rasoi ritual so after that you can cook. said Anu caressing her cheek. Okay maa said Ragini and headed to Sanskars room. Ragini opened Sanskars room door slowly and peeped inside. She found Sanskar still sleeping facing other side. Ani chuckled and Ragini said Shhh. Your Kumbakaran chachu will get up Ani smiled at her. Ragini entered with Ananya. She looked around and found Ananyas stuff and headed inside his bathroom stepping slowly. Ragini gave Ananya bath and wrapped a towel around her and headed out of the bathroom. She saw Sanskar sleeping innocently with back facing the ceiling and his one hand was falling down. She placed Ananya on the other side of the bed and slowly moved to Sanskar and lifted his hand to place it on bed. Sanskar who turned at the same time pulled her with her hand and Ragini landed on his chest. Sanskar woke up finding somebodys presence. He half opened his eyes and saw Ragini was over him. He looked at her confused. Ani chuckled and clapped her hands looking at them. Ragini and Sanskar looked at her direction and in the process Ragini leaned more close to Sanskar. Sanskar opened his eyes annoyed. Now cant you let me sleep peacefully. Whats your problem? asked Sanskar annoyed. I was just said Ragini but before she could complete Sanskar continued Now get up Ms elephant. You are so heavy Ragini opened her mouth and said First thing Im Mrs. elephant not Ms. Elephant Sanskar looked at her confused and said Oh Ms. Sorry Mrs Vocabulary seriously you never use your brain to talk oh what? I mean I called you elephant that is okay but you are complaining that I did not address you as Mrs. How much more stupid you can be? and waved his hands in air. Ragini smirked and said Not more than you and folded her hands. Ahhh. Now get up said Sanskar annoyed. First say sorry said Ragini. For what? asked Sanskar. For pulling me over you said Ragini casually. Oh hello. Who told you to hold my hand asked Sanskar. Look at you. I felt pity that your hand was falling down and you will get shoulder pain and tried helping you and instead of saying thanks you are scolding me only said Ragini complaining. Sanskars heart started fluttering with joy due to Raginis care and he lost himself in her innocent face. He came to reality and said Now you are getting up or not Ragini nodded her head. Im saying for the last time said Sanskar. Ragini just twisted her lips. Sanskar held her waist and turned and pinned her both the hands holding her wrist. Ragini looked at him shocked. Her eyelids were moving nervously and heart beat was raising. Sanskar was looking into her eyes and he moved more and more close to her raising her heartbeat more. Maaa Ansh cried from his room bringing them out to the real world. Sanskar turned and got up from the bed and walked to bathroom controlling his heartbeat. He closed the door and leaned to it and said to himself I have to control myself. I have to