GUILT(RAGSAN FF) : Ishq Mubarak

G 1.44

"Sanskar I... I...." Ragini struggled to say when she was taken on stretcher and Sanskar was walking beside her holding her hand. He was not able to speak anything. His breath was stuck in the lung it self. "We will speak about it later please relax Ragini" he pleaded with difficulty. "I don't know Sanskar, I feel I will not survive" said Ragini and tear dropped from her eyes. Her hand slipped from his hand and she was taken inside the operation theater. As her stretcher disappeared he collapsed on the floor and looked at the direction with open eyes.

"She wants to talk to you" said the doctor coming out of the theater. Sanskar's hands started shivering. Pari's condition flashed in his mind and his vision became blank for a second. Doctor shook him bringing out of his trance. "I can understand Mr. Maheshwari but we could not do anything. She has very less time" said the doctor. "Please doctor please do something" said Sanskar falling on his feet folding his hands. The doctor jerked and made him to stand holding his shoulders. "I'm really sorry Mr. Maheshwari. But it is not in our hands anymore. Please talk to her. She has very less time left." said the doctor and it stopped his heart beat. He stumbled and stood with the support of the wall. He ran inside the operation theater and stood near her bed stumbling. Tears were uncontrollably flowing from his eyes

Betahasha dil ne......... tujhko hi chaha hai....................
Har dua me maine........... tujhko hi manga hai................
Tera jaana jaise koi baddua.......Tera jaana jaise koi baddua.......

Dur javoge jo tum............ Mar jayenge hum..................
Sanam teri kasam............. Sanam teri kasam...............................

Ragini was lying on the bed with a support of ventilator and her hands were pierced with needles. It looked like Sanskar was experiencing more pain than her. Her eyes were faintly open and tears dropped when she saw Sanskar approaching her.
Tumhe dekhte hi aankhe ho jati nam
He neared her and sat near her. Ragini moved her hand and her fingers touched his skin and Sanskar took a lump of breath as if he was holding his breath from a long time. And hot tears flew from his eyes as he felt life. Ragini removed the oxygen mask and signed him to come near her. He neared her face with difficulty. She lifted her head a bit and kissed his cheek and Sanskar's eyes shrank with pain and he sat on the chair with a thud and bent his head to the bed and cried bitterly. She stroked his hair and he lifted his head and neared her and placed his head near her bosom and started crying like a small kid. "San.... Sanki I have to go. Last hug" said Ragini breathing heavily. "No...no.... don't go please" said Sanskar pleading her and his voice cracked and throat pained. "I..... I have to.... Please let me go. See it happened like I said. I had told you na I will die before loving you. I did not know God will fulfil my this wish" said Ragini caressing his cheek. He tightened his grip on her shoulder and sobbed. "No...no.... I won't let you go..." said Sanskar. "Please sanki....don't make it difficult for me please let me go" she pleaded him in cracking voice. "No.... no..... Please listen to me once only once please. I can't.....

can't live without you"said Sanskar dragging her more close. Ragini started struggling to breath. He tightened his grip and closed his eyes tightly not letting her...
But how will you hold the soul. Ragini took a last breath and stopped breathing. And Sanskar's world stopped there. He looked up at her lifeless face which was filled with tears

Door javoge tum to mar jayenge hum
"Ragini........................." screamed Sanskar.
"Sanskar what happened?" asked Ragini who came running to the room as she heard his scream. Sanskar was sitting on his bed stretching his one hand and looking blankly and his face brimmed with tears and sweat.

"Sanskar" said Ragini shaking him as she was not able to see his state. She placed her left hand on his cheek and shook him. Sanskar took really long time to realize that he was dreaming. He turned and found Ragini looking at him painfully. His heart was thumping fast. He felt his life came back just then and held her hand and dragged her and placed his lips on her lips closing his eyes and tears flew from his eyes. Ragini who was looking at him worried jerked due to his sudden action and held his face. "Don't leave me... Don't please" said Sanskar pleading her after few seconds touching her forehead with his forehead and clutching her face tightly. Ragini was not able to understand his state. She was hell worried. "Please Ragini I can't live without you" said Sanskar crying bitterly. Ragini kissed him to stop his sobs. "I will not go anywhere Sanskar. I will not. Why are you saying like this?" she asked painfully looking at him. "I saw you are going away from me. It was so scary. I... I couldn't hold you" said Sanskar and looked at her painfully. "Shhhh" said Ragini stopping his sobs. She kissed his forehead closing her eyes.