so hollow, so vacant, so empty
until i met you.
you remind me of a busy coffee shop; mood constantly changing based on the atmosphere. i never thought i would say this but i want to be something stable in your life, or at least find you something if i cant be one myself. i wonder if you know that i want to fix you too, trading pieces until everything in us fits right. i know im probably the one who needs to fix myself but theres something so appealing about the thought of you. how do i figure out if im being naive and just caught up in the moment, signing myself up for something fleeting or if these are genuine feelings? thats something ive never been good at, figuring out what i really want but im trying. i sometimes think about what it would be like with you by my side for that. funny, i spent 7 months struggling to write a single thing down and then you came along and now here i am with a million words in my head, just waiting to be spewed out. youve been reminding me of a lot of songs lately. i have to admit your voice is my favourite one. i feel like ive been put back into elementary where i have to observe every move you make just to try to reassure myself im not crazy and maybe this isnt some one-sided think that im diving into headfirst. id like to hear you say im not insane, that im reading all the signs right but i dont want to ask because of fear of rejection but also hastening the pace because i really think slow is what i need and i think maybe you could give that to me.
