i feel like im emitting some sort of green-purple hue. like a dead but lively blue grey glowing off my body. all dark and unsure and heavy. all complex and not so easy to pinpoint. all clouds and rain with a dark forest base. all confused and not making sense. im not making sense. let me start over.
ever since you explained to me, my brain went all mushy. some sort of viscous stew sloshing around in my skull. like my brains still there but its different and i cant put it back together, like how melted icecream will never freeze like it did before it got all liquidy. do you get me? i doubt it.
youve been killing me all slow and soft and romantic-like. the type of death thats blooming right behind my eyelids but yet i am oblivious to it. some sort of wicked red or remarkably dark purple flower shooting up from its stem and encasing my body till my lungs are coated in pollen. but see thats too easy. like now youre throwing me into rivers to help clear out my system and when you do youre telling me dont worry honey you know how to swim and ill be here to help! but you do it without me realizing that you hollowed out some of my insides and replaced it all with rocks and now im sinking. but its neon aqua water with sunlight dancing across the surface, lapsing in and out of my vision and its breathtaking. like im right where i want to be, but im still sinking. im still not breathing. youre killing me softly. smothering me in thick honey but it is oh. so. sweet. and im begging for more right at your feet. youre killing me softly, shoving flowers down my throat all while trying to feed me my own heart.
youre killing my slowly, softly, quietly, bewitchingly.
A/N: i know this doesnt make sense i just do not know how to say what i am trying to express and this is all i got so
