Shine a light| Fletchers fanfiction

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Edens POV
'MORNIN!' Buzz awoke me whilst crashing straight onto my bed and throwing my arms around me. The most ideal reaction to this would be to just complain about waking up and go back to bed but instead I found myself hugging Buzz back.
'Good morning little Bro!' I smiled at him whilst still in the softness of my bed. After quickly looking over at the small clock on my bedside table I realised that it was the very early time of 05:40. 'You not tired Buzz?' I joked whilst pushing back my duvet so that Buzz could come into the warmth of my bed.
'It's mornin!' He replied in his little coney accent whilst smiling widely in my face. Honestly how can someone be this awake in the morning?!
'Well how about you let me sleep a little bit more Buzz?' I tried to reason with the two year old, only to have him demand that I listen to him singing. So the next almost two hours of my life were spent listening to Buzz recite Mary Poppins tunes and McFLY songs over and over again, it's not personally how I like to spend the early hours of the morning but Buzz was being so cute that i just couldn't stop him.
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'There you are Buzz!' Tom smiled, pushing open my door to see Buzz tucked up in my bed whilst reciting air guitar over and over. 'We thought it was too quiet!'
'Dada!' My little brother leapt from my bed and ran immediately to Tom who picked him up and placed him straight on his hip.
'I hope he didn't wake you up too early!' Tom laughed as he gave his first son a hug.
'Only 5:40.' I yawned, I could see Toms face change  into an expression of shock as I told him all about how Buzz had put on a mini- concert for the past two hours.
'Think that's a new record!' Tom smiled. 'Sorry he woke you up, we'll have to get a lock fitted so he can't just run in here and wake you up!'
'It's fine,' I stretched my arms out quickly before hopping out of bed, wrapping my soft mint green dressing gown around me and following Tom and Buzz downstairs. My dressing gown was a little present from Tom and Gi, it matched Buzz's 'big brother' one which was a slightly darker shade of green and went well with Buddy's which is a light shade of blue.
'So, you sleep well?' Tom asked whilst placing a glass of orange juice in front of me, I had sat down at the table whilst Buzz climbed his way up to his little chair in the dining room.
'I did until I was woken up by Buzz.' I laughed, luckily Tom laughed too. In all honesty, I loved Buzz coming in so early, I feel like I haven't been able to spend a lot of time with Buzz so it was great to just be with him for a few hours- even if he was screeching the lyrics to lets go fly a kite in my ears at 6AM. 'I dreamt of Mr Trundle and William Trundle.'
'Ah you found it then!' Tom laughed, he was filling a cup with what I assumed was coffee. 'So what do you think? Honest opinions.'
'It's great!' I smiled widely. 'Really liked Williams story, it feels relatable.'
'Well I Hope you enjoy it thoroughly!' Tom smiled back. 'Fruit for breakfast?' I lightly nodded my head and a few minutes later I found myself tucking into my breakfast of different melons and a few berries, yum!
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We spent the rest of the day just chilling since tomorrow is a big day, Tom unfortunately had to go for meetings and McFLY rehearsals (A/N I'm changing the dates of the tour for the story, it will become some-what clear later on) so it was just Gi, Buzz, Buddy and I chilling all day. Mainly we just watched films whilst Buzz played with his toys along with Buddy and Gi got on with writing.
The day soon began to seem as though it had flown and in all truths, it was making me even more worried. The thing is; tomorrow I'm having surgery to straighten my leg and I'm so scared, I'm scared that once I get put to sleep that I'm never gonna wake up again, I'm worried that the surgery isn't gonna work properly and that my leg is gonna be wonky for the rest of my life. At least if I never do wake up I'll be with Mum and Dad again, Gi and Tom are amazing beyond words but nothing can ever make your parents leaving you any better, no one will ever be able to replace them, Tom and Gi are a very good substitute though.
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Dinner quickly came around and I didn't really want to eat, but I knew I wouldn't be able to eat tomorrow so I ended up eating my portion of chicken curry very slowly whilst the rest of the Fletchers wolfed it down.
'Not a fan of the Fletcher special?' Gi smiled at me as I began prodding at a piece of chicken on my plate with my fork. By now everyone else had finished and it was just me still eating, well I say eating; it was more just prodding food around the plate.
'No it's nice,' I reasoned, trying not to sound too rude or make me luck spoilt in any way, in all honesty the food was lovely, I just couldn't stomach it right now. 'Just not hungry.'
'You ok?' Gi asked, placing the back of her hand on my forehead. 'You look a Little pale.'
'I'm fine,' I smiled, 'not hungry, that's all.'
Gi looked back at me with a worried expression before walking off with all the plates and began stacking them into the dish washer.

Time continued to fly by and before I knew it, I found myself in bed trying to read The Christmasaurus , I couldn't read though because my whole mind seemed to be on what is to come tomorrow. Usually I'm the person who takes things day by day, I've always been this way but now I find myself in such a state over what is to come tomorrow. After what felt like hours I finally decided to put my book down and turn the light off. It was only then in the comfort of darkness that I began to cry, my eyes became overwhelmed with water and I found myself unable hold it in any longer.
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Tom's POV
'Gi, do think something's up with Eden?' I asked my wife as we sat, enjoying a cheeky glass of wine whilst watching TV, something which we very rarely get to do together.
'She's been quiet throughout the day. I don't know, she's only just moved in though, she'll still be settling in.' Gi replied, not taking her eyes off the screen, we weren't watching anything she particularly exciting but still we both seemed to find the TV very interesting. After watching the very entertaining TV show Gi and I went to go to bed, the whole house was silent but as we walked past Edens door the faint sound of crying could be heard. Giovanna didn't seem to notice so I carried on doing the things I usually do before bed.
'Gi, I think I'll just go check on the kids. Just check they are all alright.' I stated after changing into my pyjamas. Gi nodded her head before putting her head straight into one of her books so I set off to see if the kids were ok. After seeing that both Buzz and Buddy were fast asleep I made my way to Edens room. As I pushed the door open slightly I could see that Eden was laid in bed crying quietly. My new little girl didn't seem to notice I was there so I slowly made my way into her room before sitting on the end of her bed.
'Hey, what's up E?' I whispered silently, Eden slowly sat up and from the light casted onto her face from the landing I could see that she had been crying for some time. I quickly engulfed her in a hug before turning on her bedside light.
'I'll go make some hot chocolate yeah?' I suggested. 'Then we can talk.'
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'So, what's up E?' I quickly passed over a mug of hot chocolate to Eden before sitting next to her on her bed with my cup of hot chocolate too. Usually I would go for coffee but I actually want to be able to sleep tonight so coffee didn't seem like the most sensible of options.
'Nothing.' She sniffed.
'Nope, I know something's up!' I stated back. It suddenly dawns on me that poor Eden hasn't had anyone to talk to over the past few months, she's had to grow up fast and now she's suddenly placed in a situation when she can talk to people and go back to being a 10 year old with not as much responsibility resting on her shoulders. It's such a change that it must be frightening! 'You can talk to me and Gi, Eden.' I continued softly.
'It's tomorrow.' Poor Eden sounded close to tears as soon as she started her sentence.
'Aww, sweet girl.' I took my new daughter into a side hug as she began crying again. I'm not good with emotion, as many people know, but at this point I knew I couldn't just burst into tears as I would normally do. I have to stay strong, not for me, but for my daughter. 'There's nothing to be worried about.'
'But it's a hospital!' Eden stated. 'It's like mum and dad dying again. When I got taken to hospital the first time I knew that they were gone, I knew in my heart that they were dead. Then I just kept getting lied to, getting told that they were in the hospital too, then when I finally got told, the day when Clair came for the first time I remember that I didn't shed a single tear. I don't want to be in hospital again. I don't want anything to happen to you or Gi or Buzz and Buddy and I seem to be filled with so much bad luck. When I get put to sleep tomorrow, I'll might not ever wake up and that scares me, I've never been put to sleep before and the thought of being put to sleep scares me, I don't want all the pain.'
'Hey, hey, hey don't go saying that your not gonna wake up, of course you are.' I smile. 'You'll wake up tomorrow after having surgery and you'll be welcomed by the very worried face of Gi, then you'll come back here and be bombarded with kisses and cuddles from Buzz and Buddy. We're not giving up on you Eden. Yes, ok you might be in pain but nothing comes without pain, nothing worth while at least.'
'I can't deal with much more pain.' Eden stated simply. That one single comment made a stray tear flow from my eyes. The pain of loosing parents is something unfathomable to me, the only closest I've got to that form of pain is when I've been at my lowest and even then I wasn't experiencing the pain of loss like this small 10 year old is.
'The thing with pain is that it demands to be felt. Feeling something just means that it's important, you should never feel embarrassed for feeling pain, everyone does and no matter what form of pain you will ever be in you will have a big support group here behind you. Gi and I are always here and you have all of the Falcone's and all the other Fletchers AND Danny, Dougie and Harry along with all the McWags. You have so many people behind you, so you've just got to go, be as brave as possible and make us all proud.'
'Thanks Tom.'
'Is this what was worrying you at dinner too?'
'Yeah.'
'Well, I think, since you have to be up so early in the morning, that you should get to sleep.'
I stood up from where I was then grabbed the two mugs that were now empty.
'Night Tom.' She smiled.
'Night E, now sleep tight, and dream of William Trundle and the Christmasaurus.' I smiled, shutting the door lightly. 'Love you.'