The Shadow (One Direction/Harry Styles)

The Shadow (Chapter 3)

        Carina's POV

"Taylor ?" I heard him ask, watching the colour draining from his face.

She turned around, paling when she saw so us.

"Harry ?"

"Y..es." he suttered

It was such a beautiful sight to see them together. They were looking into each other eyes, staring into their souls. It was like we weren't even existing. They were alone. Alone in this  restaurant, alone in the world. She was tired. She was so tired that I could see the bags under her eyes. She was just as tired as Harry was. They were broken withput each other. They were like the missing pieces of a puzzle. As soon as they saw each other their faces lit up, and I could see them starting to heal. It was a magical view. To see this two destoyed on the inside people heal. They weren't even talking. Just starin' into each other eyes was enough for them.

But of course Louis had to ruin their moment.

"Okay guys, I know that you missed each other but can we please go eat. I am famished !"

"Oh my God, Louis ! Shut the fuck up ! Can't you see they are having a moment ?"

This seemed to burst their bubble, as they both started talking in the same time.

" Oh sorry, I am so rude. Hi guys, long time no see, huh ?" Taylor joked

" I am going to commit a murder, please tell mom I loved her, yeah? Oh, by the way Taylor, don't you want to have dinner with us ?"

"It would be a pleasure !"

"Well, then it's settled.  Let's go eat."

You know, I am a really romantic person, but when I saw the food, I totally lost it. The waitress was looking at me like I was an alien, while I kept ordering and ordering. At least I wasn't the only one. Me and Niall. As usual.

"Seriously, are you done now ? I mean, there are people waiting, you know ?"

"Oh yeah, like who ? You ? Don't make me laugh, I will order as much as I want. Clear ?" I snapped clearly pissed of.

"Hei Carina, do you want to maybe.. come out side for a bit?" Taylor asked shyly

"Of course girl ! Just let me finish my order. It won't take long." I assured her.

"So, I want fish and chips and another hamburger and maybe 3 or 4 hot wings. As for a drink I want a diet coke." I said wincking at Taylor. "I'm done we can go now."

We both stood up and got out. Shit, it was freackin' cold outside. I was actually shivering. It was in the middle of the summer, it wasn't supposed to be cold. Fucking London weather.

"So, you wanted to tell me something ?"

She hugged me tightly whispering in my ear. "I can't do it anymore Carina ! I feel uncomplete, I feel like a part of me is always missing."

"Why do you say that?"

"You know,it' like I am on the stage singing, and I look into the crowd and I see him there, mouthing the lyrics to my songs. Or I will burst into tears while singing All Too Well ( A/N this song it's not about Harry). And my fans are so carrying, but I still get so much hate, and it's not fair !"

"You still get hate ? What the actual fuck ? Are they stupid or something ? Wait.. of course they are, if they still send you hateful messages. How do you handle it ? I mean, I know it'n not easy

, but you are a bit used to it, yeah ? I mean, you are a fucking world wide known singer, you shouldn't let them affect you. You know better then that. Well, maybe I shouldn't tell you but Harry is taking it really hard."

"What do you mean ? Is he okay ? Does he need help ?" she asked rushing the words as if they were hurting her.

She's not his god damn mother. She worries to much. Way too much. The worst part ? Harry likes it. I could never understand them. Their relationship, anyway. They were so in love. They are so in love. You know, it's not that I don't believe in love. Believe me, I do. I want my Ron, or my Sir Knightly, but that is not very likely, is it ? I mean, I don't like to depend on someone. I hate to feel caged. Being in a relationship is exactly like that.You are chaining yourself to someone. You give them the power to control you, and I could never do something like that. I could never risk getting hurt like that.

There is another flaw of mine. I am afraid of getting hurt. I am afraid of the pain. Phisic pain ? Nothing too worry about. Heart ache ? Well, that is another story. You know, I fell in this trap once and I ended up broken. Everything that falls gets broken, right ? But I will admit it was my fault. I was suchna child back then. I like to think that my brain was not functioning in those months. Otherways, I wouldn't have done what I did.

"Carina, I am NOT joking. Wake up right now and tell me if Harry IS FINE !" 

"Geez woman, I was not sleeping. I was just thinking. He's fine, stop worring so much, you will get wrinckles." I said laughing.

"I don't give a damn if I get wrinckles, I just wanted an answer. Sorry I screamed." she blushed. She looked so embarassed thay I almost wanted to laugh again. Almost.

"'S okay, stay chill. Look, I don't know how to help you, so I will just give you an advice, okay ? Don't rush things. Take it slow, be patient. Everything will be okay in the end. But let him crave for you a bit, yeah ?"

"I'll try." she said embarassed again. She had the same reaction as him.

"That's all I'm asking."

I linked our arms together obvlious to the eyes  which were following my every move from the shadows.

-Sonia xx