The Shadow (One Direction/Harry Styles)

The Shadow (Chapter 4)

      Carina's POV

Dedication to my lovely friend ~ Carina. Hope you like it, sweetie  xx

We entered the restaurant and went straight to our table. Of course they were whispering.

"Done gossiping, boys ? Or do you need more time ?"

"We weren't-" Harry started to say.

"Of course we were, ladies. And no, we weren't done. Tkank you for asking though." Louis butted in.

"Get lost, loser."

"Me ?! Loser ?! I hope you realize how deep my feelings have been hurt. I do not know if I can forgive. I shall try, though." he said in a posh accent

"I shall try to ingore you. You are more annoying than ussualy. I did not think this was possible."

"That's it. I am leaving !" he said standing up.

"Enough already ! Louis sit down ! Carina, stop talking. You two are giving me a headache !"

"But that's boring Liam ! You are mean, right Harry ?"

I looked towards Harry just to find him and Taylor lost in each others eyes again. Well, this is embarrising. I looked away, trying to hide my blush. This seems like such a private moment.

They are like Emma and Sir Knightly or Catherine and Mr Darcy. They have that special kind of love. To be honest, I crave and despise this feeling in the same time. To be honest, I am scared too. How can you have the guts to be so open to a person ? How can you be so weak ? How can you give them the gun, knowing that they can kill you ? How can you trust someone so much ? How can you dedicate yourself to someone like that ? It is a mistery to me. This is the dark for me. I am not afraid of the darkness.  'Cause my home is in the darkness. But this ? This is  such a dark place for me. Darker than the night, darker than the pain.

To express your feelings so freely should be art. The most precious kind of art. Because the words are not from your mouth. No.. You are speaking with your heart, with your soul. It must be a special kind of paradies. A dark paradise. No one can compare your love. Because each kind of love is different in her own way. Love can be pure but it can also be dirty and tough.

Love helps you breathe but it's killing you in the same tims. You can not understand this feeling. Trying to understand it it's like trying to count every single particle of dust. It's like trying to embrace the sea in your arms. It's like trying to understand death. It is impossible !

But do not worry my friend. You can just feel it. You don't have to think of it, you can just let the wave take you. You can just swim. You can escape from this cruel world into your own paradise.

But no, you will  not be free. You can jump, but you will fall. You can love, but you'll be crushed. It is the dance of life. The most simple. yet the most complicated dance. There are no bounds, no specifically moves. You can just try and survive. You can just hope you will acomplish this task and meet your Creator.

Because light is everywhere. You just have to turn it on. You just have to know where to look for it. But, until you find it, it seems it's a mistery. A bedtime story. Well, whoever told you that it's a liar. Because love and light do exist. Even if at first sight it seems dark, there is always hope. Hope you can be better, hope you can do better. 

That's why I do everything I do. Becausr I want to feel this. I want to feel the rapture thourgh my blood stream, I want to feel marvelous I want to feel over the moon. I want to fall in love ! But until I do, I will just continue to hope and to wait. Even if sometimes it'is borin-

"Carina, your food is here." I was woke up from my daze by the delicious smell of meat. Mm, I really am nuts.

        ~ 30 minutes later ~

"Are you done yet ? We really have to go home, we have an interview tomorrow."

"Cariina, I really want to go home. Meredith is probably hungry. She's going to kill me when I got home !"

"Hold your horses guys, I am almost done. " I said licking my fingers. "We can go now !" I said standing up

"Oh, finally !"

"Louis, you are annoying again. Shut up and let's go. I am really tired. "

"Oh ?! You want to go home, now ? Well, what if I don't want to go home, huh ?"

"We will leave without you." I snapped leaving the boys to pay the check. I am the girl, duh.

"Okay, okay kids. Stop arguing you are atracting atention." Zayn said tiredly

"I am the kid ?! I ? I bet you set up a team against me called "The team against Louis !"

"Very mature, Lou. Really, enough with the drama."

" 'kay Hazz, just because I love you. I am ready to go now."

Finally !

"Hey, Taylor ? Meet me tomorrow, after the interview ?" I asked her

"Well, I have a gig at 6, but sure. 2 o'clock at my place?"

"Sure, see you there. " I kissed her on the cheek and entered the car. Thankfully the car rode was silent leaving me alone with my thoughts. Well, until a certain curly haired boy hugged me, whispering in my ear.

"Sleep with me tonight ?"

His breath tickled my ear, making me giggle.

"Sure thing." I assured him

After we made it to our flats, I  immediatly entered his bedroom undressing milyself in the process. I threw one of his T-shirts on me and got under the pillow. A few moments later I heard him joining me his body heat warming me.

"Goodnight, beautiful." he kissed my forehead and closed his eyes.

" 'Night Hazza." I fell asleep listening to his steady heartbeats.

A/N Hey guuys. I know it seems like is to much Taylor but she is very important. Hoped you like the Harry-Carina moment. What should I call them ? Like, the couple name. I have no idea.

-Sonia xx