As everyday goes by I miss that love we had more and more, I don't want to go school anymore I don't want to go anywhere he is. Alessia keeps on texting me, Shawn does too. I get phone calls and text messages every hour from Shawn and it is driving me crazy. I'am so close to throwing my phone at the wall. It's been a week of this mess and it feels like yesterday this all happened.I tend to pinch myself hoping i would wake up from this nightmare but it's all real.
It's Monday, today I walk down the stairs see mom isn't home I'm safe, I can have breakfast in peace. Since I found out that mom was paying Shawn I haven't talked to her and I don't plan to talk to her any time soon. I get my breakfast ready then walk over to the home phone and press play on the voice messages. "Hey, it's Shawn, Elena's friend, well used to be. Mrs Moorey can you tell Elena that I'm sorry and I love her, and that i need to talk her please! Thanks Bye". i heard sniffs through the message, he seems hurt too, I don't know what to think. I sit there at the table with my cereal and milk, crying. I try to accept the fact that he's gone, that he was fake, none of it was real but what i felt for him was real it was all real. "Hey, Elena it's Alessia I was wondering if we could meet up someplace for coffee or something, I'd really appreciate if we could chat but its ok if you don't want to, thanks bye". That voice message made me cry even more. I walked outside to get some air, I see the trees blowing in the wind, I sit down on a step and just drown in my tears. The silence is killing me and me crying is too. im so lost in this stupid little game that Shawn set up, what do I do? where do I go from here? i ask whispering to myself. i sit there for 30 minutes trying to think normally but i realised i'm not normal, i mean come on my dad is dead, i fell in love and then i found out that it was all fake, my life is way too far away from normal. So i just sit there trying to make my mind go blank about all this to find peace in myself. the wind blows through the trees and through my hair the peace finally comes to me as I sit there looking empty and used, all those love stories in the movies that isn't love that's fake, it's not real nor everyone live happily ever after in fact a lot of people don't and unfortunately I was one of them. Over time the feelings start to fade but the sadness doesn't. You can't change the past so I guess I'll have to keep going.
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Paid Love
RomanceElana is a young girl who never really fit into the school popularity leader board and if she was, she is always at the bottom. Elana has had her life ruined by many other girls in her year but especially when she was 5 her mom told her that her dad...
