Reputations

Chapter 19| Mistake

"So gossip is insane at school right now.. and it's all about you," Zander tells me when I arrive at school.

"What about?" I ask already getting annoyed.

"Apparently, someone saw you joining a cancer research company," Charlie explains and I shrug.

"I know it's true and all, but it's gonna make people think I've gone soft. Which I haven't," I say with no shock from my friends.

"Then let's stop the gossip," Brett suggests and I nod.

"Lunch," I say as the bell rings.

They nod and we go to our dreadful classes for the day.

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The bell rings signaling lunch and I rush over to the cafeteria to meet everyone.

Already finding Charlie, Zander and Brett there, I smirk and stand up on a table gaining everyone's attention immediately.

"Don't worry, it won't take long, as long as I get my answers quickly," I say loud enough for everyone to hear.

"Who the fuck is starting rumors about me?" I yell into the quiet cafeteria.

I notice a table in the far corner and I see them starting to whisper at one person. Must be them.

"Hey! Don't you see I'm talking?" I yell at the table and they look at me startled. Except for one person. The person they were arguing with.

Hopping off the table looking smug as I obviously found who started the rumors about me.

The room suffocates in the thick silence as I slowly walk towards the table, my black combat boots hitting the floor as the only sound.

I walk straight behind the person with their head down and turn their chair around to face me.

"Did you start the rumors about me?" I ask raising my eyebrows menacingly.

They look at me in fear before looking down and nodding.

"I can't hear you," I sing-song.

"Yes, I started the rumors, but I thought I saw you so I told my friends and then it passed on," she says fearfully and I smirk as a slap lands right on her face.

"Don't tell things you don't even know yourself!" I yell.

"If anyone can't already guess, these rumors aren't true!" I yell into the silent cafeteria and I hop up on another table.

"That's all," I say and it takes a while before chatter begins again and the cafeteria sounds like nothing had happened.

Charlie, Zander, Brett and I all walk to out own table and sit down for lunch. As I sit down I look up to see Alton entering the room and he smiles at me.

Shit. I still haven't talked to him since the kiss.

My eyes widen and my face drains of colour as I look down at the table. I avoid his eye contact getting strange looks from Zander causing Brett and Charlie to give me weird looks too.

Alton arrives at our table and sits down next to me and gives me a strange look as well.

"What is it? 'Give Sienna strange looks day'?" I ask sharply.

"What's up with you?" Alton asks and I continue to avoid eye contact.

Standing up from the table I grab the shoulder of Alton's jacket and pull him up from his chair.

"We need to talk," I say harshly before pulling him out of the cafeteria and into an empty hallway.

"What is it?" He asks me once I let go.

"It was a mistake," I lie.

"What?" He asks me confused and my heart aches when I say what I know I need to say.

"The kiss. It should've never happened. It was a mistake. I don't even like you," I lie coldly and I put a monotone face letting no emotions show.

His face falls as my heart breaks.

It has to be done. I can't hurt him. I can't let him get hurt because of me.

He quickly regains composure and puts his own monotone mask on.

"Fine, it meant nothing anyway," he says sounding emotionless, but I can see that his words don't meet his eyes.

"I'm sorry," I want to say, but I know I can't.

"Good, forget it ever happened," I say before walking away and turning a corner and continue walking until I reach the front doors of my school.

Fishing my keys from my pocket I lock myself in my car.

I curl into a ball in the trunk where nobody can see me and I finally let my emotions free.

Seconds later I'm bawling my eyes out. Tasting my salty tears and blowing my nose with millions of tissues I face the many emotions that came with letting go a chance at something amazing.

It had to be done. I couldn't let him care about me when I'm dying. That's cruel. I need him to hate me. Hate me more than anyone ever. He needs to hate me so I can't hurt him.

I know I did the right thing. I just have to live with it now.

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A/N: Sooo... please don't hate me..

So that was eventful, what did you guys think? Do you guys think that Sienna is doing the right thing? What do you think is gonna happen with Alton? Any predictions?

Please comment because I love to hear your thoughts.

Also, if I don't update my book in time, HAPPY NEW YEARS, Get your resolutions ready for 2017 xD

Hope you enjoyed (I'm sure you didn't like what happened..)

-Sarah <3