Reputations

Chapter 13| I Don't Even Want To Ask

Edited.

(Continued from the last chapter)

"When we were running tests we noticed a few unusual things with your health so we ran some tests and we found out that you have a cancer in your blood," the nurse explains seriously.

"What's going to happen?" I dare to ask.

"Well for your cut, we don't know what caused it, but you'll fine. As for your newly discovered condition, we have talked to your father and we will start with radiation to get rid of it," she explains.

I don't even want to ask what type of blood cancer I got, I'm not ready for that much information. Especially if it means I could die.

"Now you should relax, radiation will start on Friday so in 2 days from now," she tells me leaving the room.

I sigh and close my eyes. Footsteps come into the room and I hear someone say my name. I open my eyes and see Alton still looking worried.

"Yeah?" I say quietly.

"What did the doctors find?" he asks almost in a whisper.

"I... They found a.. cancer," I whisper closing my eyes and leaning my head back into the pillow.

A tear slips from my left eye and I'm quick to wipe it off.

"Can I.. can I be alone for a bit?" I ask softly not opening my eyes.

"Y-yeah," he stutters and shuffles quickly exiting the room.

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A knock sounds on the door before footsteps enter the room. I keep my eyes closed pretending to be asleep.

Someone takes my hand and two chairs make small noises as they sit down. I open my eyes to see Leo, my brother, and my dad. Leo squeezes my hand and smiles weakly at me.

"You okay lil' sis'," he says trying to lighten the mood. I smile brightly and nod.

"I'm fine."

"You are one strong girl," my dad comments. "I learned from the best," I say happily.

We talk about everything except why I'm in the hospital. Nobody wanted to bring it up and I didn't want to either. After visiting hours were over they had to leave but they promised to visit as much as they could, which made me feel better.

I couldn't fall asleep until my eyes started drooping and I finally closed them succumbing myself to darkness.

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I wake up to a harsh bright light making it impossible to sleep. I open my eyes and look for the clock on my wall.

I squint my eyes since my vision is still blurry because I'm still waking up. 3:44pm.

I look around the room to see Alton facing the ground as his hands hold his head, with his elbows on his knees.

I study his messed up hair and how his outfit is all messed up and not as prepared looking as he usually is.

I close my eyes and try to fall asleep again. He is clearly not here to talk, and if he is, I don't want to talk.

I feel weak in this hospital. I feel useless and there's nothing I can do about it. Having him see me like this is not what I want. I want him to see me as the strong independent powerful girl I am. Not some sick girl in a hospital who is constantly receiving pity from others.

He sighs and I can almost imagine him covering his face with his hands considering all the noises coming from him are muffled.

"Why am I so scared?" I hear him whisper to himself. "Why couldn't I just tell her?" He continues.

"Why the fuck could I have just told her? Why am I such a coward? Now how do I tell her? Does she even feel the same?" he adds asking himself all these questions.

He sighs again before I hear his chair move and his footsteps leave and the door opens and closes.

What makes me so confused, is that he was definitely talking about me, so what did he wish he told me?

What the hell is he not telling me?

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A/N: So sorry this chapter is a little shorter than I wanted it to be. I wanted to quickly get something updated, but I don't have much time since I have my dance performance tonight and I don't have much time to get ready. I'm kind of freaking out right now.

Anyway, what do you think is going on? What kind of blood cancer do you think Sienna has? What do you think Alton wants to tell her? So many things!

Hope you enjoyed! <3

-Sarah