only if he knew- (mgk fanfic)

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Ashton:

   After I got home last night I passed out hard. I was super fucking high and super warn out from all the walking kells and I did. I woke up around 12:30pm. I stood up and walked to the kitchen to see Tate sitting at the table eating and on his phone. "Morning tater tot." I said as I got some coffee. "Morning ash." He said with a mouth full of food. "Finish chewing." I sat next to him and looked at my phone. After I finished my coffee I went back to my room and got dressed and slipped on my all black converse. I went into the bathroom and just pulled up my hair, put on some mascara, lip gloss, and a small amount of eyeliner on. I wanted to hang out with kells today and take him around town. i told lia where I was going and told her to tell dad if he got home before I did. i grabbed my leather jacket and my phone and then made my way over to kells. As i started to walk up the driveway, I'm guessing, his aunt walked outside and looked at me. "oh hi honey." she smiled at me. she was always so nice to lia, Tate, and I. "hi, is uh kells up?" i asked her and she made her way down the front steps. "uhm i think Colson's still asleep yeah. If you want i was just getting ready to leave for work but you can go on in and wake him up." she said as she walked past me and to her beat up little car. "yeah. thank you!" i shouted at her as i walked inside and she got in her car and left. i closed the door quietly and made my way past the kitchen and down the hall quietly. I looked into the first bedroom and found a sleeping kells. i giggled softly not wanting to wake him up. he was sprawled out all over his little bed with his feet hanging off the end and his mouth ajar. I pulled out my phone and took a quick picture of him sleeping and giggled. As i slipped my phone into my back pocket he moved. i stopped and held still. he rolled over onto his back and threw his arms above himself. i giggled and slowly made my way to his bed. i jumped onto him and he groaned. "kells wake up." i straddled his lap and he groaned again. "no just five more minutes." he grabbed his pillow and pulled it over his face. God he was so hot. his morning voice, oh my god, i could wake up to that every morning. "kells no. get up, we have to go exploring." i jumped on him slightly and was pushed off and onto the floor. "ow kells get up." i groaned and rubbed my elbow that i hit on the floor really hard. "no. i don't wanna." he whined. i stood up and sat back down on his lap with my legs on either side of him. "please get up kells." i begged him. He pulled me into his chest so i was lying down on top of him. "cuddle me for like 5 minutes then we can go." i giggled. " fine." i gave in cause it was only five minutes. We got situated on his small bed. I ended up on the inside closest to the wall with kells arms around my waist and his head in my neck and our legs tangled up together. I'm pretty sure we laid there for longer than 5 minutes but i didn't care. I'm pretty sure kells didn't mind either cause he fell back asleep and started to softly snore. I smiled. on the outside kells acted all tough and shit but this was really how he was. He just need to be held and cared for. I felt my eyes start to get heavy and i closed them and fell asleep. 

When i woke up Kells was still fast asleep. i looked at my phone to see what time it was and we slept for two hours. "kells." I could feel him stretch his body. "ash." His breath was hot on my neck. "get dressed so we can go explore." I told him. "yeah, yeah okay." Kells sat up and untangled himself from me. I frowned a little, cause i didn't want kells to get up so fast. Kells threw his legs over the side of his bed and rubbed his eyes. i just laid there in his bed. Kells stood up and walked over to some of the boxes that where over by his closet. "what did you wear today?" Kells looked over at me and raised his eyebrow. I glared at him cause i didn't want to get up to show him. "really?" he shot a glare back at me. i giggled. "i don't wanna stand up kells." i whined at him and he rolled his eyes. "just tell me." i groaned. " uhm my Harvard law shirt, some shorts, my all black converses and my leather jacket." kells nodded his head and started to look for what he was gonna wear.  he pulled out a maroon shirt, a pair of his ripped skinny jeans, his all black chucks, and a leather jacket. "we are gonna match today." He said as he pulled on his shirt. Kells pulled off his pants, not minding i was there and pulled on his new ones. after that he slipped on his shoes and his jacket. "lets go." i sat up and rubbed my eyes and yawned. "okay." i stood up from kells's bed. i got super dizzy and started to grab the closest thing to me which ended up being kells. " whoa you okay ash?" he grabbed onto me and held me close to him. "yeah i just stood up to fast." I let go of him and he let go of me. I silently followed kells out of his house and down the street. honestly i didn't really feel like talking. " your really quiet today. you okay ash?" kells slowed down and walked next to me. "ya i just i don't know i don't fell like talking right now." kells nodded and watched his feet. I've only know him for 24 hours but i feel like I'v know kells my whole life. it was weird on how well him and i connected last night. "well when you wanna talk im down." he said as we got to the bus stop. i just nodded my head and leaned up against the stop sign. kells stood so close i could feel his breath fan my face when he talked or just took a simple breath. we waited for the bus for like 20 minutes. when it finally got here kells grabbed my hand and got on. he pulled me to the back of the bus and sat down. he pulled me down next to him and threw his arm around me. he leaned in close to my eye and whispered. "that guy up front, the really creepy guy that keeps looking back here, i don't think you want him hitting on you and shit so just go follow my lead and he wont come back here. now giggle like i said something cute to you in your ear." I went with it and giggled like kells told me to do. the whole ride to town the dude kept looking back here and kells kept doing what he was doing. Kells brushed his thumb over my cheek and smiled at me. i felt a blush start to creep on to my face so i looked away and smiled at my feet. i heard kells chuckle softly. "shut up kells." i pushed him jokingly and he looked offended. "ouch babe ouch." He said loud enough for the guy up front to hear. im pretty sure it earned him a glare from that dude. the bus stopped and we got off. right as the bus left kells and i started to laugh really hard. "oh god that was so funny." kells laughed out. "it was." i agreed with him and we started to walk. 

*skip their town adventure*

 it was about 5:30 by the time i finished showing kells around town. "okay kells, i have one more place to show you then we can go home." i told him as i started to walk down a road that lead to the abandon train station. i took us about 20 minutes to get there. "okay here we are." i said as we walked up the few steps it had in the front. we both stopped and looked at each other. i nodded to him and he smiled at me. " come on follow me." i lead kells to the side of the big building and crawled trough this window. i jumped down from the window and landed on the floor with a loud thump from my shoes. I turned around and saw kells crawl through the window. He also landed with a louder thump from his bigger shoes. I grabbed his hand and pulled him behind me as we made our way through the old station and to the loading zone. we sat on the edge of the platform and we let our legs dangled.  i leaned my head on his shoulder and we sat in silence. "whats your full name?" he asked me. I looked at him and gave him a confused look. "i'll tell you mine if you tell me yours." i rolled my eyes. " Ashton clay brooks." i told him and looked down cause i hated my name. "well that's probably better then mine." he said. i looked up at him, "what could be worse then that?" he sighed. " okay prepare yourself for this. my full name is Richard colson baker." i tried to hold my laughter but failed slightly. "see i told you it was bad." he laughed. "its not that bad." i lied to him cause it was bad. "it's bad dont lie to me ash." he pushed me softly. "okay im sorry." i laid my head back on his shoulder. we just sat there for an hour till my phone started to ring. i picked it up and pressed answer. "hello?" i was confused on why lia was calling me. "ash dad says you need to get home like now." she then hung up and didnt say bye or anything. "uhm kells i have to get home, like now." i said and stood up. We started for the window. Colson helped me out then pulled himself up. We walked kind of quickly back home since it was only a few blocks away. once we got to the end of colson's drive way he pulled me into a hug. "goodnight ash. i'll see you tomorrow." i hugged him back not wanting to let go of him but I had to. i let him go and turned around to see my dad standing at the top of the stairs with his arms crossed over his chest. i held my head down low as i passed him and went into the house. i looked over at the clock and it said 12:00 am. it was "late" to my dad. "go to your room and dont come out till tomorrow." he said as he slammed the front door shut. " why?" i looked at him and he glared harshly at me. "cause im your father and i said so." he shouted. "im not even late. i didnt do anything wrong dad." I wasn't gonna take his shit tonight. "its 12:00 in the fucking morning and you've been gone since you got up! So get you fucking ass to your room now!" he yelled but i just sat there and crossed my arms over my chest. "right fucking now ashton clay!" i still just sat there. next thing i knew was i was on the ground and there was a stinging sensation in my face. I felt the tears threaten to spill from my eyes. He just hit me. "i said to you room right this instant young lady and do not come out till tomorrow." he hd no regret, no sadness, no emotion in his face as he lowered his hand and walked away from where i sat on the floor holding my cheek. i slowly stood up and made my way to my room. i closed and locked my door. i went threw all my things till i found my small little bag of coke. i grabbed a card and went to a flat surface. i laid out some fine white powder and gathered it into a straight line. I made a little rolled up piece of rolled up paper then snorted the coke. i did two more lines then put everything away. it took about 20 minutes for it to start working and i walked into the bathroom. i looked into the mirror and saw and outline of my fathers hand and it was slowly starting to bruise. I whipped away my tears and made my way back to my room. my body felt good an i wanted, no need to go see kells. I just crawled out my widow and ran to his house. i looked through a few windows till i came to kells's window. i knocked on it a few times till i could see his face. he gave me a slightly confused look but opened his window anyways. "ash what are you doing here?" he asked me as i climbed into his room. All he had on was a pair of sweatpants and no shirt. "kells my dad... he... he..." i stuttered on my words then started to cry. kells took me wrapped me in his arms. " ash what did your dad do?" he whipped away my tears and he sat on his bead and pulled me into his lap. " kells my dad hit me." i cried and leaned my head on his chest. " are you shiting me? ash he hit you?!?" he pretty much shouted. i just nodded my head and bit at my lip. "ash its okay. i wont let him hurt you ever again. im right here for you." he whispered into my hair. we sat in his bed till i fell asleep in his lap. im pretty sure he took off my shoes and my jacket then laid me down in his bed. I also think he laid down with me and fell asleep.