only if he knew- (mgk fanfic)

7:

Ashton::

It was about 4:30am when I woke up and found myself tangled up with colson in his bed. As I climbed away from him my head started to pound as hard as it could. I was scared honestly cause I had to force myself and hold the urges of climbing back into be with him never getting out ever again. I couldn't, well I could but I shouldn't, I can't. I sat down on the floor and slipped my shoes on. I looked back at colson right before I closed the door and left. He smiled in his sleep and reached for where my body used to lay but I wasn't there. I knew he would wake up and look for me once he subconsciously found out I was gone. I closed his door and quietly left the house and made my way home. I crawled up the shed and in my window and took off my boots. I crawled in bed and closed my eyes.

*7:00am*

There was a super loud pounding on my door. "Wake up ash. Its time for school." My dad said as he opened my door. "I don't feel good." I mumbled from under my mound of pillows and blankets. "Come ashton rose. Get out of bed and get ready for school." I felt like throwing up and crawling in a ball. "I told you. I. Do. Not. Feel. Good." I sat up to fast and regretted it badly. I stood up and ran to the bathroom. Well its gross so I'm not gonna tell you what happened next, you should know what happenes. I held my hair back and sat on my knees. My head was spinning and I truly did want to die at this point. "Just get back in bed. Your not leaving today. That boy can come over here if he wants to hang out after school. I think I should met him." My dad said as he closed my bedroom door and left. I groaned and crawled back into bed. There was a soft knock on my window then it opened. I frowned and pulled my blankets off my body to see kells standing at my window. "Go away colson." I pulled my blankets back onto my body and closed my eyes. "Awe what's the matter?" I heard his shoes touch the ground with a soft tap. He sat down next to me and rubbed my back. "I threw up and I'm not going to school and you can't make me." I mumbled. "Fine I won't make you get up. But let me take care of you ash." He said as he rubbed my back. "No you have school." I said softly. I wanted him to stay and lay in bed with me but he has to go to school.
"I don't care about school. My best friend is sick and I wanna help." You could hear the smile in his voice. "Fine. But when my dad gets home you have to leave. And if you come back use the front door and not my window." I told him as I held my blankets up for him to crawl under. He smiled and slipped of his shoes and coat. Colson crawled under my covers and laid down. He pulled me on top of him and pulled the blankets over us. I smiled and closed my eyes. I feel asleep to colson humming softly in my ear and him rubbing my back.

*2 hours later*

I woke up to the soft snores coming from under me. I slowly opened my eyes to find a sleeping colson. He had his hand over his face and his other one resting on my back. His mouth hung open slightly and his hair was a mess. I smiled. I laid there for what seemed like a long time just admiring my best friend. He was perfect in every way. "Ya know its weird to watch people when they sleep." He smiled and started to play with my hair. "I was just admiring you." I told him and looked away. "You like what you see?" Colson joked. "Maybe just a little." I chuckled and closed my eyes again. "Awe shit girl I knew it." He laughed. "Colson fuck off." I pushed myself off of him and stood up to change out of my jeans. "Where you goin?" Colsin rubbed his eyes and sat up on his elbows. "To change out of these pants and see if my dad left for work." I dug through my closet and found a crop top and leggings. "Colson don't look." I told him. "Why not? You watch me get dressed all the time." He whined. "Don't care close your eyes." Colson did as I told him and I quickly changed. "Okay. You can look now." I told him as I pulled my hair up into a messy bun. Colson whistled at me as I opened my door. I glared at him then made my way down the hall to see that everyone was gone. "Colson!" I yelled for him as I opened the fridge. He came walking down the hall and smiled at me. "Could you see me owning a big house ash?" He asked. "Why?" I looked at him and closed the fridge. He leaned against the wall and frowned. "Well before I left, To come live here. I got into this fight with my dad and he said some shit ya know. I just was thinking about What he said." Colson bit at his lip. "Colson baker, whatever your dad said is not true. If he said you're not talented, you are in whatever way you want to be. If he said you're just a shitty person, he was wrong. You're so strong and you're and amazing friend Colson." I leaned up against him and looked up at him. He smiled. "If he said you're a shitty son, you're not. Colson when I met you I had no idea how much you would mean to me by the time the summer was over." He brushed some of his hair back and smiled some more. "Ashton thank you for being my best friend and not giving up on me like everyone else." He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer to him. "I bet by the time your 26 you'll be the most famous person ever." I told him. "Yeah. And guess who's gonna be by my side the whole time?" Colson brushed some of my hair back. "Who?" He smiled down at me. "You are ashton. You'll always be my best friend." I blushed and looked down. "Colson, you'll always be my best friend."