Big Bang - Shout Out To The World! (English Translation) [2009]

[~ Pt.Three~]

‘Why I had been so strict towards my members back to the days…’ [~ Pt.Three~]

‘I don’t think that you can ever be successful if you keep doing things of this standard. Even if you have tried many times, you are still doomed to fail.’ ‘Okay, I see, you are scared of pain so you have not even tried at all. I think you should really try to spin when you are dancing, it is a shame that if you don’t want to do it just because you are fear of getting hurt.’ ‘Are you sure this is the best that you can show when you are facing the evaluation tomorrow? Are you really a sleepyhead like this?’

You can hear all of these when you are watching our debut documentary. People said I was so strict to my fellow members so I was named as ‘ aggressive Kwon Jiyong’. ‘stone-hearted Kwon Jiyong’ after this.

In June, 2006, we were given a chance to perform in Se7en’s concert. Depending on how well we performed in it, the president would decide which of us would be able to stay. Therefore, we were determined to bring out all that we had been learning and accumulating for this rare chance. Even Se7en hyung worried so much about us.

The rehearsal finally started and we were so concentrated that we wanted every part of it well prepared. However, Youngbae was hurt very seriously when he was doing a flip, not only was he fainted at the spot, his hands were also bleeding so much. We were so worried about his wounds as well as whether we would have to prepare something different from what we had kept on doing.

I was glad that Yongbae, the one who bore so much pain consoled us, ‘I am okay.’ There were no doubts that he was very painful at that moment but he was so determined to complete the task with us. We were all strengthened by him and finished the rehearsal smoothly.

However, after the rehearsal had finished, I immediately talked to the members very seriously, ‘why were you all seemed like, ‘the whole world has fallen down’ when you saw Yongbae’s hands were hurt? What if we were doing it in the middle of the live performances? I am wondering what’s wrong with all of you…’

I know I should have been tolerant to them; however, what was in my mind at that moment was, ‘I really don’t want any of them to be eliminated at all.’

What kinds of person I am? [~ Pt.Four~]

I was taken to the various auditions by my mum when I was a kid. I was granted the chance to be the trainee of YGE after the president seeing my participation in the MV of Roora senior. I was so used to appearing in this kind of auditions, I did not feel embarrassed when I was in front of the seniors of my families. They thought that I was a naughty kid but I was just doing what I wanted to do. I love performing in front of a crowd people and my parents support it by actions.

I think I am the person who is 100% optimistic, there is not even a trace of pessimistic that you can find in me. Even if I fail, I will keep trying hard next time. I will not lose my heart in doing the things that I love.

I love being with friends so much. Although I do not keep close contact with many of my friends, we are still close to each other. I am that kind of person whom treasured his friends a lot. However, it was still weird that when the friends of my age were playing happily under the sun, I was busy writing my songs and lyrics. This was my entertainment at that time. Of course there were times that I did feel tired and annoyed too and in times like these, I would always go watch the performances of my seniors, I wanted to learn from them and be enlightened by them.

After talking about my entertainment, let’s also talk about what my homework is. I was asked by the president to hand in 1 song per week. During those 6 trainee years, I had kept on doing so. I really like this homework since I

do not like singing others’ songs without adding my own thinking, I adapted the songs and rewrote the lyrics. That was what I enjoyed doing most at that time.