Admire

Part 3

   I'm lost.

   My heart flutter.

   His warm eyes make me feel like I'm nearly fall in love with those eyes again.

   Both of use just stare and a cough from his friend suddenly make us sudden realize and I step back create a normal gap between us.

  He cracked a sweet smile. And mumble an apologize.

  "Well the apology should be on me. Hmm I'm sorry we're in a hurry." I don't know why I just couldn't stop staring at him.

    "Ah we're really sorry about that but we need to get back to our class." Nia snap and drag me along the hallways.

  I can see his eyes watching me and to my surprise so do I.

   We entered our class and a sigh of relief came knowing that the teacher not come yet.

  I take a seat.

   "Nia don't you think it's rude leaving them like that."

  "What.. You has said your apology and that is  more than enough okay."

"But.."

  "No but the teacher is coming end of discussion. "
 

  The whole class went boring plus I couldn't stop thinking about him.

What is his name?

Does he has a girlfriend?

  A part of me hope he's still single. Suddenly I came to my sense back.

  No.

I shouldn't think of him.

I don't want the past happen again.

  I should stay away.

    School end I give Nia an excuse to not accompany her to the library. She seems okay with that.

   I take a long walk and found a playground. I don't know why I'm here but for sure I don't want to talk with anyone I just want to be alone right now. I sit on a wooden bench and close my eyes. The memory flood in my mind.

  I try to hold my tears. Yet I'm afraid of being in love again. It's like a nightmare and I couldn't move on to that.

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Flashback..

I'm just a plain girl. But he is the most handsome guy I've ever met.

  He chose me. Instead of other girl he want me and I can't denied the fact that I also have a feeling for him.

    His smile... his laugh make my heart melt and I consumed that I'm the most lucky person in the world to has him as my boyfriend.

   Yup he's my boyfriend.

  Kim Woo Bin.

   Everything seems normal at the beginning until that moment. A new girl came to my school and got stuck with me. We became a best friend.

  Mostly if we spend our time together Woo Bin were there too. We go on a vacation,went shopping even she's there when I've a date with Woo Bin. At first I thought it would be a bad idea to bring her along but we're so close that I want her to be there with me. It's a happy moment we spend back there. But yet she betrayed me in front of the whole school.
 

   I saw him kissing my best friend in front of the whole  school near my locker. At first I was shocked but then I realized something. They meant to do that so I would know.

   It's kind of sad thinking that he actually betrayed me and turn out to be with my best friend. We have known for about four years and have a relationship three years ago. I still remember how hard he's tried  to get my attention.

   The moment they realize my appearance they stop their love making and turn to me.

     I can a see a bit of regret in his eyes but I ignore them. I walk past them without giving a second glanced but he had broke my heart into pieces. God knows how hurt I'm feeling that moment.

    That night he sent me a sms saying that our relationship is over. I know he will say that. I just hope that he will say it in a proper way. I need an explanation.

   Why? Is that because I'm not pretty?

  I hold my tears. He don't deserve it. I will never cry over our broken relationship I just accepted the fact that we're not meant together.
  

    Somehow I feel relief he just sent a massage cause I think I can't handle my feelings when I'm seeing him. It hurts like hell.
Starting from that incident everyone keep talking about our broken relationship.

   They spread rumors that I'm the one who betrayed him. And I don't have any urge to fought them back. I keep receiving stares from them.

    The stares that is judging me for who I am even the one who didn't even know me.

  So I make a decision.

  To moved here and stay with my mom. I give my sister an excuse  that I want to spend more time with mom. Instead I can feel an awkward situation since my sister is married to someone.

End of flashback. ..

   

   So here I am trying to push away the nightmare. All I want is to end my high school without any distraction.

   I take a walk home when the sky seems turning to a dark one. The journey feels long and I didn't realize when I got home and turned out to be on my bed trying to fall asleep.

    A lot of pictures keep running in my head. My ex best friend, my ex boyfriend and him.

   I couldn't stop thinking. I just stare at my ceiling and not remember the time I actually fall asleep.

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Hello.... Guys sorry for the short chapter.

   I will do it better for the next chapter okay. Btw thank you so much for supporting my first story. I will do my best.

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