That's What This Is, A Dream (Lams Modern AU)

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TRIGGER WARNING!!!! GAY SLURS!!!!

John's POV

My mind is spinning, my heart is pounding, my head is reeling. I slowly felt Alexander kiss me back and my mind relaxed. He wrapped his arms around the my waist and pulled me closer. His lips are soft and supple. Like roses or silk.

I needed to pull away for air, but I didn't want to. I wanted our lips to remain interlocked. So what if this goes further? I want that at this point. Alas, Alexander breaks the kiss. We're both panting lightly and a strand of my hair fell in front of my eyes.

He tucked the strand behind my ear, and pressed his forehead against my own. His face flushed and he's staring at my lips. "Wow...You're a great kisser..." He mumbled and leaned in again.

Before our lips could touch, there was a knock at the door. Alexander grumbled and trudged towards the door. I sat down at the edge of my bed and lied back. I just kissed Alexander Hamilton. My life just flashed before my eyes.

I was just the biggest jerk a few hours ago. Alexander is so forgiving. I don't deserve that. I'm an ass hole, or as me dad would call it, "an ungrateful fag." I shuddered at the word, still used to being seen as unnatural. Alex makes me feel...natural.

Alexander came back and set the pizza box on my bed. He opened it and took out a slice. "What ya thinkin' about, John?" Alexander asked, taking a bite out of the slice. I shrugged and looked at him. "Is life a good answer?" Alexander let out a small laugh and nodded. "Then life it is." I mumbled and sat up

Alexander nodded and offered me a slice. I might as well take one, even though my appetite has already vanquished from the thoughts in my head. It would seem rude to decline since I made him pay. I took a slice and began to eat it quietly. Alexander looked at me and a small smile grew on his face. I rose a brow and he shook his head with a chuckle. He reached over and tucked a fallen strand of hair behind my ear with his free hand. He then cupped my jaw, causing my cheeks to flare up.

Alexander smiled and moved his hand. "You should calm down, John. I can barely see your freckles."  I blinked and rubbed my cheeks, looking down into my lap. This boy is going to be the death of me. Death by Alexander. That doesn't sound so bad.

"Hey Alex?" I piped up after a while and he looked up. "Yes?" He hummed and leaned back on his hands. I inhaled deeply before saying, "What are we?" He blinked and ran his fingers through his hair. "I didn't think that far....um...well Mr. Laurens, will you to be my boyfriend?" Alexander asked and extended his hand.

I looked down at his elevated hand and snickered before taking it. "You've neva asked anyone out before, have you?" Alexander blushed lightly and shook his head. "I've been asked, but I never do the asking." He said sheepishly.

I smiled and nodded. '"Well, I'm glad that I'm your first."