Skipping ahead to the new year, my feelings were all over the place. I found myself being more attracted to Jordan but couldn't pin point what these feelings are. I was still involved with another guy but I knew I was only hurting myself sticking around. I remember building up the courage to ask Jordan out on a date. I knew he was coming to work and I knew that I was going to ask him that day. I felt my heart accelerate when I saw him clock in and I didn't want to bombard him real quick so I waited until my heart rate went back to normal. We were both running the orders when I mentioned that there was a movie in theaters that showed the couple clapping at each other during an argument just like we did. I just let it slip that we should go see it together and my heart dropped when he actually agreed to go. As soon as I went home I started looking up times and picked a day where I knew we both didn't work.
I was so excited for us going out for the first time. We've never hung out outside of work and we've never been alone. I was in the back with a coworker and Kelly when she asked me about our "date." I told her that I asked him and she just gave me a look only Kelly would give me. My friend turned around and looked at me confused that I was going out with Jordan. "You know he has a girlfriend." Those words haunted me all week. Did Jordan really have a girlfriend? Why would he agree to go out with me if he had a girlfriend? To be fair, he says the first time we went out was just as friends and that he didn't know how to feel about me. I was five steps ahead, already having a school girl crush on the kid.
