My whole body is numb and frozen and shivering from the bitter sting of stress and sickness and self-loathing
How I have no friends any ire because you understand but you don't really care
And it doesn't matter because the people who have ruined my life will always end up so much happier than me
Because everything someone hurts me everyone sympathises with them
I care so much
It's not at all that I don't care I just do
The pain seeps into my pours as I sit by myself for the billionth time and the one time she is alone you go sit next to her because everyone wants to be friends with everyone except me everyone 'understands' what I'm going through but no-one ever once stopped to see my through
I am so lonely
I have been lonely for a year
And you are all too afraid to admit that I might need help because why on earth should someone be bothered to help me
I do not feel alive
I have the exams and the instrument and the classes and the weight of the world on my shoulders and never once had someone taken the time to
Give me a break
I don't care how ungrateful I'm being I should not have to be grateful for common decency no-one ever once thanked me and I don't care because I'm your friend meanwhile I spend everyday wondering through life alone
But it's ok because you understand
But everyone is always too busy hanging out with someone better to spend any time with me
I hate the way I repel people and I don't even know how or why you all seem so kind and then disappear because there is something better because everything is better than me and no-body ever wants to just be with me because you fight over each other when I am
Right here
For goodness sake notice me I am
Right here
