I haven't cried in a while
I forgot how good it feels to release all that emotion
To have the fresh beads of soul-infuse water rush down your cheeks
In a McFlurry of feeling
I cried tonight and it just felt
So Relaxing
To finally admit to myself everything that's been bothering me
It was like these huge flood gates were opened
I could give my self permission to
Cry a little
I cried about my Grandpa (how he's so tired and depressed)
And about my friends (how they're so magnificent but they're moving on)
And about Her (how I messed up but no, she messed up)
And about my sister (how our sisterly bond is fading away)
And about my dad (how he never gives himself time to hurt)
And about my mum (how she hurts too much)
And I also cried about that stupid death in Sherlock because I'm not sure why
I just
Couldn't let it out earlier
Oh, and also about boys because boys are a good thing to cry over
For the first time
In a long time
I gave myself permission to cry
And all my hurt
Was forgiven
