Not So Alone . . . (Loki Love Story/ Avengers)

Truth in memories. .

           I have to admit it was amazing to be out in the world and seeing what this beautiful city has become. I stared out the tinted windows as we made our way to the famous Avengers Tower.  I was nervous and frankly just wanted to go to my room and sleep off my stress that weighed down my shoulders.  I looked at my hands as they started to turn blue and unique designs covered them. The car got really cold and I shook my hands ridding myself of the coldness I knew so well. My door was opened and I noticed we had made it. I stepped out and into the building and I knew there was no turning back now.

"Pepper can't wait to meet you, she thinks ur sweet and she doesn't even know you. Honestly I can't believe she was right. You'll love her." Tony said sounding jittery as we went up the many levels through the elevator. That is when I realized it was just us and no one else.

"Where is everyone else, Mr. Stark?" I asked and he laughed.

"Just-t . . . call . . . m-me Tony. They are at . . . .work, kid" he said in between laughs.

"Oh"

"Hey, sorry kid just no one has ever called me that. It was funny. Lighten up sweetheart I'm not Fury, I won't bite." He said as the elevator opened and there stood a tall red headed woman.

"You must be Nicole, it's good to have a new face and thank god it's a girl." She said as we walked into the living room area connected with the bar.

"Guess you got tired of all the manly stupidity?" I asked with a small smirk.

"I love her already." She said to Tony as she laughed.

"Alright, Pepper can you show her to her room I have a meeting to get to, see you later kid." Tony said giving Pepper a kiss and with a wave he was gone.

"Alright, this way Nicole." She said

          We went down a hall and my room was the third on the right. She led me in and left me be, telling me to call her if I needed anything.  I nodded and sat on the medium sized bed.  There was a bathroom and it was a very big room compared to the one back at base. I laid on the bed and fell asleep, my stress getting the best of me.

. . . .

"YOU DID THIS YOU  DISEASED FLOWER!"  The voice screamed at me.

"No . . .no I I'm s so sorry, please Don't go. . . . Please I didn't do it!" I yelled but the voice didn't listen and left me in the cold to die.

          I shivered and tried to warm myself with my flames but it was too cold. A part of me knew this cold well but the other was freezing to death. I got up my small form could barely move through the cold but soon enough I bumped into someone.  He was a little taller than me and a little older but no one, not even I  could forget his jet black hair and piercing green eyes that held worry as he looked into mine.

"Brother, we need to get this girl to Mother." He yelled to the blonde that ran over and nodded.

"Here you go your freezing,  do you have a name?" The boy had taken off his cloak and placed it on me, I looked up at him and nodded.

"My name is Nicole Flower. . . . . but I don't know if that's right or not? What is yours?" I asked in my childish manner and snuggled up to him.

"Loki" he said with a smile and hugged me close.

Everything went white and a golden city was in my view.

"Welcome to Asgard Flower". . .

. . . . .

         I awoke with a start and put my back to the wall I was covered in my own cold sweat. I put my head in my hands and sighed.

"How could this even be?" I questioned myself.

         I went to the bathroom and looked into the mirror to see my reflection.  I gasped and saw for the first time the Monster I truly was. My skin was blue and I was covered with weird markings,  but worst of all my eyes had become this crimson red. I held onto the sink but my knees gave out. I hit the floor and I cried for the first time in years. I was not who I thought I was, and I just knew that dream of mine was a memory I wasn't supposed to see. Whatever held my memories from me couldn't hold them back anymore and I wanted the truth.  I stood up and I saw myself and not the Monster that hid behind my face.

        I laughed and just stared at myself for a while before I went back to my bed. I sat there feeling empty and alone like I did every time I tried to fix myself and everyone that surrounded me. I knew something was wrong with me, maybe it was just my heart that was so empty that there was no possible way it could still be there. So I did the one thing I did best,

I slept. . . .

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She knows the truth yet she doesn't know how to confront it. She's so use to being let down, that she's just willing to forget about it rather than to know the whole truth.  She rather be a shadow of her heroes than to be the hero herself.

Thanks for reading

~Shadow Out~