sad thoughts

hate.

i hate this
i hate you
i hate life
i hate them
i hate you
i hate writing
i hate myself
i hate talking about this
i hate being dramatic
i hate my overwhelming thoughts
i hate my insensitivity
i hate how insecure i am
i hate letting everyone down
i hate lying
i hate saying im okay
i hate having no friends
i hate how everyone judges me without knowing shit about me
i hate how i look
i hate my eyes especially
i hate how im so ungrateful
i hate being so negative
i hate how i always convince myself it will be better
i hate that it wont be better
i hate how everything ive said so far has been already said
i hate the word hate
i hate how disgusting i am
i hate how everyone uses me
i hate how everyone takes me for granted
i hate how im unappealing to talk to
i hate being ignored.
i hate crying
i hate how privileged i am to be crying over "tiny shit like this"
i hate how unprivileged i am compared to everyone i know
i hate my race
i hate my name
i hate being called a bitch
i hate being called useless
i hate being yelled at
i hate how unmotivated i am to do anything
i hate how i use being sad as an excuse
i hate how i cant take anything anymore
i hate my sense of humour
i hate how i cant fit in
i hate being tired all the day
i hate trying to be the best
i hate how underappreciated i am
i hate how i underappreciate others
i hate how i cant say how im feeling
i hate how all my friends dont know shit
i hate how all my friends only cry about not getting mcdonalds.
i hate being seen by others
i hate school
i hate the people at school
i hate homework
i hate thinking
i hate how i overthink
i hate how perfect i try to be
i hate how far from perfect i am
i hate being sad
i hate how i have no one to talk to so i write to nobody
i hate selfharming
i hate even thinking about death
i hate how im so negative lately
i hate how good i am at hiding feelings, you wouldnt even know shit if it wasnt for this
i hate how no one cares
i hate how i texted in a group chat 1 hour ago because of how upset i was but no one responded
i hate how i write big ass paragraphs no one gives a fuck about
i hate the amount of things i hate
i hate sitting on the ground
i hate not being able to sleep at night
i hate having panic attacks out of nowhere
i hate my past
i hate to think about what my future may look like if i fuck up
i hate people
i hate the look they give me when i talk to them
i hate being alive but yet,
i hate the concept of dying
i hate how my parents are so tired they're mentally insane
i hate how i treat others
i hate how i procrastinate
i hate how dumb i am
i hate it when people call me good at writing; im not, ive just been through some shit.
i hate swearing.
i hate how i swear a million times a day to be cool
i hate how small minded i am
i hate youtube
i hate editing
i hate the stress
i hate seeing others' editing, it just reminds me im not good enough
i hate seeing someone improve to be better than me
i hate when i cover up my feelings with sarcasm
i hate snapchat
i hate seeing other peoples' perfect lives
i hate the woman who lives downstairs
i hate how everyone i know probably shit talks me behind my back
i hate having these dark circles under my eyes
i hate having severe nearsightedness
i hate how im not good enough
i hate how i have to behave a certain way
i hate how uptight and.. wrong my family is.
i hate saying i hate my family but
i hate them
i hate them
i hate blaming my shit on others
i hate how others blame shit on me
i hate being mentally ill
i hate it all
i hate this writing this piece of shit

7/21/2017