sad thoughts

clingy

i like to hold onto things for as long as i can
stickers i've never used, that i got when i was 5
toxic friends i can't seem to separate myself from
and memories i can never seem to move on with

i have a lot of saved texts - once in a while, i'll scroll up and relive all the memories i had when i was a dumb, stupid, naive kid.. not that i'm still not.
i can't believe how people put up with my shit - i didnt fucking care about anyone but myself, and that was so evident in the way i texted. here, my friend is fucking going to relapse into depression, and I can only bring up my own problems..

clingy, selfish, and dumb.
but at the back of my mind, i think otherwise; i deserved a friend, i deserved someone to talk to, because my life was falling apart piece by piece, and no one cared enough to cling to me.
but holy fuck, why would someone anyway?

on the other hand, i can't stand anyone who clings onto another person for their own emotional release, because it fucking sucks;; doesn't that make me a huge fucking hypocrite? or is it okay because they did the same to me?