Jungkook's Dirty secret

shattered.....

I didn't know how to feel anymore I started hating myself feeling ugly and insecure like I just felt like trash the things he said mentally broke me it was the worst feeling and having to just sit around acting happy when inside I'm crushed to pieces having to see him around school with multiple girls calling them his "best friend" and hugging them just completely shut me down...

Sometimes I always wanted to know how it feels to die alone with no one. Everyday I just couldn't get what he said to me out my head it was just that mean. I literally hated my life and thought no guy will ever like me and I know people are thinking "wow he's just a boy stop crying over him" like bitch I'm not crying over a "guy" I'm crying over my true love someone I had deep feelings for. Ugh { Molina }

So after all that happened and all the drama I just couldn't let him go that easy so me and my other friend decided to mess with him so after the bell rang everyone went to the bus loop to wait for their buses and while we we're heading there I realized I had some glue sticks so I just thought to myself: "hmmm I'm gonna try them at him" and I told my friend what I wanted to do and she agreed.
While we were walking we seen him so we hid behind people because the bus loop was always filled with kids so he hid and when passed by I started throwing at his big ass head with all that beautiful hair um... Anyways so yeah I threw it at him and he didn't see who threw it tho until I threw more he realized and threw them back hitting my head so I ran up and hit his ass and he just ignored and got madder but obviously I didn't give a dawn because he broke my heart by the time I knew it my bus came and I scattered in.

As I was getting in the bus to take a seat I see all the kids come in and my brother and booom! Look who rides MY bus..... HIM I was in shock because he wouldn't normally ride my bus so I'm just shook like shook but then again happy.

As he gets in he sits next to my brother and trys to have a fake ass conversation like nigga I'm dumb fuck ass but as they talk.... And talk.... We get to the first stop and my brother gets off with his friends to go to his friends house as usual and Mr.heart breaker stays on like what the fuck but me and my friend got off our stop and he gets off to.

We were actually planning to kiss and get to know each other but things happened differently.

As we were walking as fast as we could he managed to catch up. My friends house is closer to the stop so she left me and I continued to walk as I was walking he catches up and I say hi to him and we began making out but I could feel him trying to get in my pants I can feel him getting closer to me.
I told him I only got wanted to kiss but he took things to far:

Us: (making out)

Me: I'm glad your here I've always wanted to get to know you.....

Him: ignores what I have to say and kisses me.

I felt him sliding his hands into my pants to get in me but I immediately stop him.

Him: FUCK!

Me: what?

Him: what the hell do you want then!

Me: to get to know you and kiss!

Him: I didn't come here to get to know you

Me: what..?

Him: are we gonna fuck or nah?

Me: no what the fuck! I'm leaving!

and boom he grabs me by my hair and says:

"Why do you wanna leave! Your not going anywhere!"

"Because your a bitch!!!!!
( striking him in the dick )

"AH SHIT you little bitch" ( pushes me behind a house )

"Get the fuck off me!"

"You wanted my attention right and you wanna hit my shit! "

"Please.......your hurting me!!!!!! "

"Shut up stay still" ( unzips pants )

"Nooo!!!!! "

"( gropes my hair and puts hand over my mouth )"

"( squirms around trying to get him off )"

" I promise it won't hurt ( rips my shirt )"

"Please...... ( cryies out )

" (*chokes me*)

"( *kicks his area as hard as I could* )"
"FUCKKKK AHH!!!!! "

I ran as fast as I could by the time I knew it I was at home safe and sound ugh I was so glad I got away from him at that point I didn't know if I was raped or if he likes me my mind was going multiple ways at that point I just wanted to forget about everything!

Hours pass by I'm in my pretty pink girly room just sitting down on my iPad sad/confused and in tears watching Justin bieber interviews I don't know why I just love hearing JB talk ugh just so sexy sometimes but anyways after I just listen to " broken hearted .

After that i heard noise I'm the type of person once I hear noise I look in the window so my brother goes outside look like he went to go meet someone outside and look who it is Mr.J ( Mr.heart breaker ) but yeah he's outside hanging out and their just hanging so I just ignored and tried to act like he wasn't there but it was hard. Ugh i just took a hot bath and went the bed to clear my head for school tomorrow.