Jungkook's Dirty secret

mental break down......

I went home and just layed down and played some dua lipa- blow your mind because it was just the right song to listen to right now.

So I listened to it for a while and then received a text from Angelo saying.

Him: "Hey text me ok... You wanna meet up....?? I know I fucked up but lemme talk to you real quick. "

Him: "babe..."

Him: " can you answer"

I decided to ignore all this calls and text because I just wasn't in the mood to talk and I just felt like punching him ughhh right now all I needed was some fucking music and YouTube.

After a while my friend texted me saying that Angelo texted her.

Friend: "hey Angelo texted me saying you didn't want to text him back what's going on !"

Friend: " hello.... Text me back"

Friend: " please answer me "

Friend: " I'll call you.... "

I ignored all her calls and texts because I honestly wasn't in the mood and just wanted a break from this phone ... Minutes later I receive a text from my friend G.

G: " hey what's Going on with you, your not texting anyone, your off social media, you and Angelo? Are you ok please text me so we can talk. "

G: " I'm gonna call you ok answer when I do. "

I also I ignored her texts and calls to. I just didn't want to text anyone and they just couldn't understand that!

That day when I went to school looking basic ,ripped jeans, cropped top, big jacket ,hightop black vans, messy bun, no makeup and today i got my period so different mood swings just kept happening. that morning I tried to find a quiet place to sit because I honestly didn't want to see any of their faces. All I could think of was my crush from last year even though he hurt me I really loved him a lot but I lost contact of him so that pissed me off even more ugh!

While I was sitting in my quiet corner I see my friends walking towards me.

Friend: " why were you ignoring my text what happened??"

Friends: " she doesn't seem to ok "

G: ( came running ) " hey how come you didn't call me back are you ok omg your crying! "

Friends: " oh my god come with us let's talk I hate seeing you like this"

Me: " I honestly don't want to talk to anyone right now "

The bell rings I ran to class with headphones up and music loud. When I got to class I kept my headphones and went straight to working. I'm just 14 with all this stress ugh!

After 4th period it was already time for lunch so I walked alone with my head phones on and my music loud ignoring everyone that tried to talk to me. While I was in lunch I didn't eat lunch I just stayed outside on the bench until G comes and just annoys the hell out of me.

G: " please if its something your going through you can tell me you can trust me I really hate seeing you like this "

My headphones was on and my music was loud so I could barely hear what she was saying. I walked away going to the bathroom and guess who comes out to class..... Angelo!

Angelo: " ayee come here talk to me"
( shouts )

I ran to the girls bathroom hiding from him. A minute pass and he runs in the girl bathroom!

Him: " fucking talk to me I didn't do shit to you wassup!! "

Me: " leave me alone!!!! Go find some other girl you can play around with! GET AWAY FROM ME!
( screams and Cry's out )

As I said that he pushes me onto the mirror leaving my head leaking with blood and he continuously hits me as he's a high schoolers comes in the bathroom and pulls him offered if me and tells me:

Her: " omg your BLEEDING!! are you ok come with me!"

I pushed her away from me and Just went to one of the upstairs bathrooms and hid there the whole day until the bell rang. Before the bell rang I was already at the bus area , my bus always come early so I was glad because now I wouldn't have to hear anyone. As I got in the bus my bus driver asked me what was wrong since I had bruises all over my face and my head was bloody I told her I was fine and went all the way in the back of the bus and sat there.

As I was in the bus I couldn't do nothing else by cry my soul out I just couldn't believe he punched me, I just couldn't believe that was the guy I gave my virginity to. I cried so badly in that bus and while walking home from the bus. When I got home I went straight to my bed and took a pillow and put it over my head and screamed my heart out. At that moment I starting thinking about how it would feel to die like I always wondered. I see why people commit suicide.

As I was laying down I received a text from G and my other friends:

G: " omg I heard you got into a fight with angelo! Are you ok ??? Do you want me to come over?? "

Friend: " where were you today???!??"

Friend: " I heard you got in a fight with angelo!!! Did he hit you??"

G: " please text me I've been trying to talk to you but you kept ignoring"

G: " please don't do this to me"

Angelo's friend: " they this is Angelo's friend are you ok I heard he punched you. Please text me back ight"

Angelo's friend: " what he did was fucked up and I'm gonna get him for that! "

I just didn't feel like texting anyone at the moment I was so hurt from what happened. Since I was on my period I had an urge for food like all I wanted to do was eat, food was literally my best friend at the moment. I search my bag to see if I had any snacks and apparently there wasn't shit. But I remembered I had a cabinet of snacks so I searched that and jackpot! I found my babies , there was snickers, kit Kat's, twix's , watermelon sour patch, berries sour patch, Oreo cookies, hot chips, and everything else a girl would crave on their period.

All I did was sit there and eat while on my laptop on YouTube listening to something that would get in the mood so I listened to alessia Cara - how far I'll go.

Tbh I was kinda in the mood to have sex I don't know why but I was on my period so obviously I couldn't. Right after I thought about that his friend texted me:

Angelo's friend: " you and Angelo had sex at the party? "

I was completely shook now I didn't know what angelo was telling people I wondered if he told the whole school at that point I didn't know what to think I instantly had a mental breakdown and cried myself to sleep.