Jungkook's Dirty secret

hardest time ever.....

So after all that going through my mind I literally couldn't stop thinking about him I reallllyyy liked him I just couldn't get over him so at that point i was willing to to anything to get his attention like anything.
So I took matters into my own hands and started riding his bus even though I didn't know where it would take me but as long as I'm with him I'm perfectly fine. My friends called me crazy, and obsessed but to me its called being in love , at that point I didn't care what they told me I really loved the guy and he was just beautiful and amazing and so kind.

So I snuck in his bus with my friend and we were the first one's and I sat towards the middle back just hovering over so the bus driver wouldn't see me also to see if he was coming which he did but he ended up sitting by a random kid and I called him to come sit by me and this is how the conversation started:

"Oh I didn't see you sitting there, you ride my bus now?"

"Oh I saved this seat for you and no I rode this bus because my friend wanted too ( clearly I wanted to )"

"Oh alright where's your brother ?"

"He didn't come to school today
( obviously he did blind ass)"

"Oh alright"

By the time I knew it the bus was already at his stop and he got off in my mind I was thinking "hmmm should I follow him" but I told myself no because I had to get home with my friend so I decided not to and just stayed on.
Just watching his beautiful body and smell just get up off the seat had me wanting to get off that bus I couldn't so I just had to deal with it.

So weeks after that I constantly rode his bus because I really just wanted to be with him and just embrace the moments I had with him ugh he just got the key to my heart.

So when I got home automatically started texting him but I didn't text him all the time just time by time because I didn't want him to think I'm a weirdo or anything.
As I was texting him I couldn't help it but say one sexual comment because he was just so hot and I couldn't help it. He replied back:

"You should come over"

"What why..? (In my mind: omg he wants me to come over YES YES he likes me yay) "

"You know why.... "

At that point I didn't really understand what he was saying by that but I just ignored it and left it at that. Until I hear my phone vibrating from a message from him:

"So you coming or not

"..........."

After that I didn't know what to say I was in shock so I screenshotted the messages and sent it to my friend:

"*screenshots*"

"Omg woah umm I thinks he wants to....."

"Wants to what.... What do you mean by that.... Ummm hello....."

"*leaves me on"seen"..."

So not I was extremely confused so I just turned my phone and went to sleep because I just didn't know what was going on plus I wanted to see him at school the next day :).
I don't why but there was something so weird about me like every time I would like a guy think about them so much they would end up leaving the school and I wouldn't ever see them again it was crazy .
when I was in fifth grade there was this really cute white boy named Herbert and I reallyyy liked him a lot like I always thinked about him, always did things to get closer to him i just really had feelings for the kid and by the time I knew it he ended up leaving the school and I was so sad because I was just getting ready to tell him how I feel until he just up and left since then I always thought if I liked a guy so much and thought about him everyday he would end up leaving so tried not to think about the boy I liked to much so that was the hardest time ever because I couldn't stop thinking about him so much ugh I really liked him.