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Blue

"I wannna sex yooooou, til you fall fast asleep in the bedroom! Listen to the head board beat……..I ain’t stopping till I hear you scream aahhhhahahahhh", Chresanto dramatically sung into Brianna’s ear causing her to chuckle pulling his waist closer towards her.  "You so stupid!"It was about 11:30 a.m and the sun was well up, one of those days were it was really cold. Chresanto had made breakfast and they had already ate already. Just playing around, Bri sat up on top of the counter feeding Chres strawberries as he sung sweetly. It was no way to stop the redness that appeared on her cheeks.

"Baaby", I couldn’t help smiling at his teasing as he kissed up and around my ear, pecking. Sweet yet small, he drug his lips across my neck. "I love you Brianna", his warm breath traveled flowing onto my skin. Just as I was to began, he continued, "I know what I do is wrong and I’m so sorry you know I love you", his face lifted and his dark brown sparkling eyes shot up, directly burning into mine. My fingers swept against his cheek as my lips flew to his as a magnet. I knew a moment like this wouldn’t last very long. With that Nicki entered, mouth wide, yawning. Chresanto snatched his lips back flashing a warm smile to her.

"I’m sorry was I interrupting something", she says. Chres scratches the back of his neck offering her breakfast, "Naah you want some breakfast"?

"Sure! You know Bri you got a good ass cook", says Nicki. I could read right through Chresanto. He had that "bitch get the fuck out" look in his eyes. I couldn’t help but to giggle and thank her for the complement. My palms jolted me up to jump me off the counter. Rings went off, so that all eyes focused on the phone. I got to it first pressing my thumb down on the little green colored phone picture.

"Hello August residents", I waited for a response on the other line. I was so happy saying that. I was so happy to be called Mrs. August, it send world pools into my stomach. It was Jonnie, one of  Chresanto’s old friends from back in South Central. Exhaling, my eyes rolled handing Chres the phone. "Its Jonnie".

Chres grabbed the phone pressing it against his ear. Zoning him out, I began to spark up a short convo with Nicki.

"Is it goood boo damn sloow dooownn", I slurried jokingly. Watching her stuffing bacon down her throat. She then slipped her finger out her month making a "pop" sound. "Girl this food is bomb", she says with a giggle.

"It ain’t going no where either! Slow down before you choke", I warned propping my elbows up onto the table. "I heard you two last night", she splats. My cheek bones appear even more visible. "Really", I say.

"Yeah that's why I woke up late, I couldn’t go to sleep", she explained. I shook my head, "I’m so sorry girl". She nodded slipping in another piece of bacon.

"Baby come on we gotta go", our eyes shot at Chresanto. His eyes were glistening..... watery, his face full of worry. "What happen", concerned I rushed over towards him.

No words, dashing up stairs he went into our closet. “Baby tell me what happen”, I followed after him. He wrestled around looking for his shoes. “Just fucking come on Bri I’ll tell you when we get there”!

Huffing, I went to go get my tan uggs, and light green hoodie. I hated when he wouldn’t just tell me something. “Here, come on”, he threw me my coat heading downstairs.

Before heading off to wherever, I informed Nicki we’d be back. We soon ended up parking right aside the hospital.

"Jahaad Wheeler, I’m his brother. I need to see him", Chres questioned at front desk. The elder lady pushed her glasses up facing the computer screen. I couldn’t help but to stare at her tiny mole that sat above her lip and her crazy lip liner. "He just arrived I’ll have to ask you to wait in the waiting room with the rest of his family. Its the room down the hall to the left". Chresanto didn’t hesitate to rush there, dragging me along with him. We entered the room seeing many familiar faces. They began to greet Chres than me. "Aahhhh whaaaaaa my babaay didn’t do notinnng", I was guessing that’d been Jahaad’s mother. Tears streamed down everyone’s face as some sat shaking. We spotted  only one empty seat, so I sat on his lap. I could tell Chres was dying inside. Even though they werent real brothers him and Jahaad were extremely close, closer than green on sweet peas. Informed on the phone that he was shot, Chresanto was soon to burst. He held my waist as my fingers messaged his head. I kissed his forehead repeatedly.  The room sounds filled of hollering and crying . I always hated this type of saddened energy, this dark energy.

The last time I partook in this type of environment was when Chresanto’s mother died. He was kicked out of the hospital! Punching the wall, he was mad they didn’t let him see his mother. I tried my best to calm him down. However,  this time Chres was completely mute. Since our faces kissed each others I could feel his warm tears stream down. I broke the kiss of our face, only to actually kiss him.

"The Wheeler family, for Jahaad Wheeler", everyone’s head snapped up to the male doctor holding his clip board.

"I’m so sad and sorry to say, but we lost him", the doctor waited for the roaring and saddened reactions. Chres couldn’t even stay, he picked me up putting me down heading out. I gave Jahaads mother a hug, pecking her cheek. "May your son rest in peace".

With that, we left.

Chresanto didn’t talk for the rest of the day. He stayed in bed staring at the ceiling letting time tick away. Nicki had left a note saying that she went job hunting. So as for now it was just me and Chres. I snuggled up under the covers laying beside him.

"Why does he have to take the closest people away from me Brianna", he says "he" referring to God. In all honesty I didn’t have a real answer. There had to be a reason why Jahaad and Chresanto mother died, but I didn't have the answers. I figured , "Maybe its God’s way of telling you something".

"I have a meeting in the morning, I was wondering if we could go out later in the day, I don’t want to think about this shit anymore", he says ignoring my response.

"Yeah I don’t have any plans anyway" , giving him a passionate kiss, our heads moved from side to side. His wet thick tongue slipped inside, licking all over mine. I felt him push my body closer to his as he moved me to be on top of him. I pulled away, noticing his movements stopped. "What"?, I questioned.

"Promise you’ll never leave me", he says.

There was no guarantee that I’d stay with him forever. God could take me this very second, but I promised to make him feel secure.

"I promise", a smile crept up on my face.

"Sing to me baby", I laid on him with my head on his chest.

He chuckled, “Sing what”?

"Anything I just want to hear you", I exclaimed. Chresanto cleared his throat and began, " Its so much darkness in the woorld, but I see beautiful left in you girrrl. What you give me let’s me know that I’ll be alriiigght. Cause if your loove was all I haad, in this liife. That would be enouugh until the end of time. So bless your weary heart, and relax your mind. Cause I’m gonna love you girl, until the tiiime! You got me sayin ahhhh ohwoohwo ahh yahh owwowow yeaaah he", he kissed my forehead. My eyes were teary and he noticed.

"Yo body my body is burnin up my boooody, yo body", he sung the lyrics from my favorite Pretty Ricky song changing up the mood.

I couldn’t help but to burst out laughing, “Shut up”. I hit his chest.

“We bout to take a nap ight”, he turned to his side snuggling up all in my face.

"Gimme kiss", he puckered his lips kissing air until I kissed him.