Stability

7

Lend me your heart let me borrow ya love

Its been two days since Sway kissed me and we haven't talked , I would text him and he don't reply Iont know what I did , not like I did something anyway cause he the one that kissed me

After that kiss my feelings for him grew stronger I admit it I've been feeling sway alil bit and us spending time together didn't make it no better neither the late night phone calls , texting throughout the day and even random times he would call out the blue to see if I was good . I mean who wouldn't catch feelings . I've never experienced nothing like this before

I was use to boys getting what they want and dipping out He introduced me into something new and I like it

But now he was avoiding me and I'm feeling some type of way that familiar of loneliness came again , he's my only friend and If that kiss broke us it would definitely crush my soul .

I was going through it to go to talking to someone everyday to not at all it can drive you crazy especially if you ain't got nothing or nobody to occupy yourself with . my mom was at the hospital as usual and my only friend want nothing to do with me

What If I disgusted him , remember all them guys I been with he probably felt dirty I mean what the Fuck am I thinking a nigga like him can never love or wife a girl like , ima fucking whore half the neighborhood been inside me

I'm washed up and ain't no fucking soap involved

Grabbing my phone I deleted his number I guess it was good while it lasted, this was my biggest fear , it's crazy how you can latch into someone so quickly I wiped my face with the back of my hand I'm done crying about it I should have known better

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I was sitting on my couch eating leftover spaghetti my mom cooked when my phone vibrated with an text from an unknown number

2675677890: hey Monroe 😏

New phone who dis?

2675677890: Damn you ain't save a nigga number , I see how it is

✌ stop playing on my phone

2675677890: Damn shawty chill , it's Quan

I rolled my eyes I am not for the games

What you want ?

2675677890: Leme take you out

I am not with the fucking gimmicks bruh

This shit is fishy I already know Quan is Sway bestfriend , he stopped talking to me then he start texting me I smell game

2675677890: ain't no gimmicks I'm dead ass

No , thanks 😭

Exiting out of my text messages not before I put both of their numbers on the block list I continued on watching how to get away with murder

Next Day

I was woken outta my sleep from someone banging on my front door jumping up I glanced at the clock it was close to 4 in the afternoon , how the Hell did I let myself sleep that long

Wiping the sleep out of my eyes I went to go answer the door and low and behold he stood , he pushed past me Coming into my house

"I did not invite you in" I snapped

"Why you put me on the block list ?"

"The same reason why you been ignoring me and then had your friend text me "

He has a dumb look on his face

"Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking , tell em he's on the block list too"

"Look I honestly don't know what you talking bout I came over here to apologize , we crossed lines we shouldn't have , it was a mistake I'm sorry"

Glass shattering that's what it sound like when my heart hit the ground

"I still wanna be friends 38th you of that's still cool ?"

Friend Zoned , girl you knew

"S-sure" I didn't have anything else to say

"I'll hit you up later" he walked passed me out the door. So many times I heard that

It happened again ....