Stability

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Maybe you use to the losers

2 months later

Today is my birthday and I just came back from the cheese cake factor with quan , he surprised me popping up outta the blue Sway had me waiting for him for 2 whole hours , I just took quan invite after awhile

We were chilling in my house , he brought a bottle and some weed so we was finna get turnt. Of course I wanted to spend my special day with sway but he didn't pull through with his plans and its been like this for awhile

He'll promise to come spend sometime with me and never show , I know most time he be kassidy and be ducking me but wanna come over claiming he miss just to get some and then I probably won't see him for a few days and in honestly Fed up

"Thanks for making my day special quan I really apreciate it"

"You know I got you even though you be playing a nigga to the left and I just dont know why" he sparked the blunt he been tryna get with me for awhile

I'm just not sure how I feel about because I did grow to like him a lot but I like Sway more --- is that a crime ? I sipped on my cup of henny before responding

"Quan you know we went down this road before"

"We fucked , we ain't never been down the relationship road "

"True but you really think we could work ?"

He shook his head laughing

"You ain't got no faith in me , I'm really feeling you Monroe I'm not tryna just hit I did that already , I like spending time with you and hearing you talk about everything thats going through that big ass head you got "

I mugged him blushing

"How can you be so ignorant and sweet at the same time"

"I'm that guy "he popped his collar scooting close to me on the couch "I wanna take a chance with you though"

Apart of me wanted to take that chance but I just couldn't jump into something while I'm still tryna figure things out with Sway

"Look we ain't gotta rush , I'm not gon talk no more about it ima leave it up to you ..... But you mines without even knowing it"

He layed back  smirking at me

"We'll see" I smiled back

"I ain't giving ya a choice baby"

I laughed pouring me another drink , we drunk, smoked and talked the whole time he was here talking about any and everything , before he left he planted a soft kiss on my lips . I was so grateful my birthday ain't go to waste and I got to spend it with him

I took a shower before laying down in my bed , grabbing my phone off the nightstand I turned it back on , I had it off Since I went out with quan I was still very upset with away and he was not on my shit list right along with a couple of family members who didn't wish me a happy birthday

I mean nobody ever made my day special but they always acknowledged it , I didnt care for the gifts and going out I just want to feel like I'm not invisible --- I'm here

Soon as my phone cut fully on , missed calls and text messages popped up , some from my mom and Sway , I already knew what my mom message said -- working late like always so I opened sways

Sway🙈💦:

answer ya phone B
8

pm

Wya?
8:05pm

So you mad now
8:30pm

You got it
9:15pm

Yo Roe !
8:20pm

I didnt reply , I sat it on the charger and laid back down . I couldn't be put on the back burner no more , I felt like a side piece and I didnt like it that's not what I want

Its either sway give me all of him or I don't want him at all