Stability

13

Is it too late to tell you im sorry cause you been patient yeah you been patient

"Why you keep calling my fucking phone !" Monroe yelled out

I been blowing her up for the last few days , tryna apologize I didn't mean the things I said to kassidy at all -- iont even know Why I said it I was just tryna spare her feelings. I've been tryna fight it but its clear as day that the only person I want is Monroe

I hate to say it , thought I never see the day but kassidy just dont do it for me anymore. People fall outta love and its okay -- even if I didn't meet Monroe we still would of ended up here , we was fading way before Roe.

"Bab-"

She cut me off saying "don't call me that , just stop calling me please I'm done sway"

"Just let me explain" I said getting fustrated "I didn't mean those things I was just tryna -"

"Tryna save your own ass ! I'm not some fucking charity case , dont pity me--"

"I don't , shut up and listen to me Roe"

The line went quiet but she was still there so I continued

"I wasn't lying when I said you got me , I'm sorry for saying that bullshit I shoulda just told her the truth instead I hurt you and that's the last thing I wanted to do baby I swear"

"You had me looking a fool to all those people , You let her bring that drama to my house and now I'm homeless !"

"Wait what ?" this shit hit me like a ton of bricks

"My momma kicked me out over that , and I got my ass whooped again I don't know why I let you get in my fucking head I shoulda just walked away"

"Dont say that Roe , I'm sorry where are you at ? You can come stay with me I'll take care of you ma"

"I don't need you to take care of me ! I want you to leave me alone sway you caused enough problems already" she cried

If I was feeling bad before now I felt worse. Hearing her say she don't want nothing to do with me is not sitting right with me at all. She needs me right now and I'm gon be there for her like i promised

"Tell me where your at and ima come get you " there's was a pause of silence before she sighed

"I'm at quans been here for the last few days"

I sucked my teeth "here I come ma"

I hung up and grabbed my keys off my dresser. Iont know what quan was tryna pull but he needed to back the Fuck off , that's my man's and all but he know me and her got something going on

Walking out the door. kassidy was there standing at my car , I sighed , I really wasn't up for the shit today

"Move away from my car " I said walking towards my car

"I just wanna talk Sway you atleast owe me that "

"We talked already kass , I'm not understanding " I was growing irriated

She was blowing up my phone while I was blowing up Monroe's

"What she got that I don't !?" she yelled out causing attention

Everything , cause she ain't you

I wanted to say but I knew it would come out harsh even though I don't mean it that way , they are two different people kass is superficial something all the boys want and yea it was cool for awhile having the pretty foreign chick on ya arm and yea kass did a lot for me but I wanted more feel

Monroe gives me that and by feel I mean feelings , feeling something real. First phone conversation I felt connected to her like i knew her all my life , I can be myself when I'm around her -- my true self . I'm drawn to her and I can't help it

"I love you sway" she cried out

Monroe

I had all my stuff packed up ready to go. I'm so grateful for quan letting me stay here but I over stayed my welcome and I was beginning to feel like me staying her was giving him vibes of something I didn't want with him

But he was the only one I could turn to cause i was ignoring sway. I believed him when he said he didn't mean those things . I know how it feels to get caught up and lie to spare ones feelings but unlike sway I learned that's not the way to go. I know he done lied to that girl plenty of times since the beginning of our friendship

Quan walked in the room and seen the lil bit of stuff that I did have , confusion laced his face "you leaving ?" he asks

"Yea , didn't wanna over stay my welcome"

"C'mon with that shit , you know you always welcome girl. I'm glad ya mom over the mess though"

"I'm not going to my moms" I said "I'm going to sways"

He chuckled shaking his head at me "seriously"

"Yea we talked it out"

"Iont get you , You won't give me a chance but you go back to sway"

"Quan I told you I don't feel the same way you do . you are a Good friend that's all I see you as"

This is not what I wanted which is why its time for me to go , mixed signals was appearing and things were getting complicated

"That's bullshit , you know it , you just won't let yourself feel the same way I do but I understand I'm not mad atcha" he sat on the bed pulling out his phone

"Iont know what you want me to say or how clear I can make it to you. I'm not gon lie I did at first but farther down it faded away"

"Whatever makes you sleep at night , one day you gon wish you gave me a chance though"

"I remember giving you one but you fucked that up !"

"Yea and I apologized for that , you just won't look past that , ya past ain't pretty either"

"I'm hoe ! I know that already --

"I'm looking past that though cause its the past , I'm looking for the same shit you looking for"

"You don't know what I need"

"Yes I do " he stood up walking towards me "you need stability I can give that Monroe" he grabbed my hand pulling me towards him

"Ya past gon be a problem with him , it always is. I know him roe , you need somebody that's gon be there even when going gets tough, I gotchu just give me a chance. And I'm not talking bout right now you can go head and learn from ya mistake but when you ready I'll be right here waiting for you"

My mistake ?

"Quan i-i ---

"You ain't even gotta say nothing Monroe , just remember what I said "

He leaned forward placing his lips on mine , they were so soft and his touch was gentle as he slid his fingers through my hair gently gripping my head back, I lost myself and started to kiss back. I thought of the possibility of taking a chance with him and what would come of us of I did. Eyes closed fighting for dominace my legs began to get weak.

The kiss made me second guess everything

Was I making the right choice ?

The End