Various x reader ||One-shots||

Happy New Year? || Saiki Kusuo

A/N: Well, I'm not really that excited for the new year. And the only character that I think is the least excited as well is Saiki, cause, well, it's Saiki we're talking about here lololol-
and personally, I love how I can relate to his trouble in expressing emotions and joy, so..
To the ones who doesn't feel the New Year Spirit, let us enjoy hanging out with Saiki the unfeeling, troubled teenage boy nyahaha~

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You're not really amused by the fact that you don't enjoy holidays that much now that you've grown into an emotionally unstable, mentally ill teenager.

But you know what? Instead of thinking about the despair and suffer a night's sleep, feeling the remorse, regret, guilt and loneliness-

-you just wanted to flip everything off and be like, ".. Fuck it, 2016 is gonna end soon, might as well do what I want."

So far, it has been a horrid year that stripped you of your ability to feel correctly and think positively, because everything just did not go your way.

You started as a hopeful child equipped with willpower from the end of 2015, thinking that 2016 will be a good year, you must try your best!

In the end, though, you suffered from never-ending hatred that has put you in a tight spot, no matter how much you struggled, you couldn't break free from its hands.

You hated the way you handled things. You hated the way you thought. You hated the way you hated. It was like, spending a day surrounded by things that should enlighten you and guide your soul-

But no, you continue to hate them, reject them just because you can't let yourself be happy. You'd self-destruct when things finally went your way, getting anxious about what could possibly destroy your happiness as of the moment.

Yes, you, you were the one at fault of why things didn't go your way.

Nevertheless, now that those days were over, now that you're leaning over the edge of the rails that seperated you from the freezing rooftop to the crushing fall you could take below, now that you were feeling the breeze and staring at the lack of stars of the ocean of a sky, you were certain of one thing as the peaceful, silent night washed over your being.

You were sick of this. You were sick and tired of hating yourself.

With sleepy eyes gazing at the view above, you let yourself relax at the opportunity that let you forget about all the horrible things, the sort of haven you have been seeking for so long....

Finally, you surrender yourself to the solemn, serene night of silence and complete peace.

2017, you only had one resolution.

-That is, to accept and love your whole being. To stop thinking of yourself as a bother, as an insignificant individual that the world doesn't need. You wanted to change and stop pitying yourself, to be stronger than ever before.

And it is all for the sake of being a hero to yourself when no one else wanted to be.

For now, that was all you thought about. Maybe it'll go away the next day. Maybe, once you wake up to another day, the will you've gathered today will disappear without a moment's thought. Maybe the world will try to bring you back down to your feet once more, or hammer down and crush your glassy heart.

But now, after experiencing  one hell of a year, you won't let that happen.

And Saiki Kusuo, your one and only friend, heard every single contemplation and reflection with an expression in awe.