First and Last 『Justin Bieber』

Chapter Fourteen

      Poker faced, speechless and completely dumbfounded, mentally that is. I could not believe the words that she said.

That's what she said. I giggled mentally, now is not the time to make jokes, Siane. Ariana Grande, one of the most popular pop star in this planet is telling you that Justin Bieber, another one of the most popular likes you!

"Wait, what?" Yeah, a common reply. It's nice, I guess. "He likes me?" Ariana nodded. "Justin likes me?" I said while pointing to myself. Ariana nodded once again.

"Why?" Yeah, why?

Ariana shrugged then smirked. Uh-oh, I think I know what is she going to say.

"Ask him yourself."

I immediately grabbed my phone and called Justin. One, two, three, four rings still nothing. I walked, and walked. Left my house in the cold night, without saying a thing to Ariana. Is Bretman even with us? Did they shouted my name and asked where am I going? I'm sorry, I could not hear anything.

My mind is clouded with thoughts of him liking me. I started running, but I do not know where I am going. One, two, three rings and still nothing and then on the fifth one.

"Hello?" My heart stopped.

"...hey, uhm..." Fool! Say something! But, I do not know the right words. What to say? How to tell?

"Siane?" His voice, damn it all! "Is there something wrong?" I started to shiver. Yes, there is. I couldn't stop thinking about you and it is starting to hurt.

"Meet me at the park near my neighbourhood." With that, I turned off my phone.

I don't even know, if he is coming, but my voice is enough to tell that I am serious. I waited, I walked around the park. Head down, and then decided to look up. The moon is so pretty tonight and there are stars up at the sky.

What am I thinking? This is too fast paced, but I think this is for the better. So, I know where will I stand. God, this is so nerve blasting! The night is cold, but I am not.

Is he coming? It's been like 10 minutes, there is no traffic at this hour. I'm getting my hopes up. He's bu-

"Siane." He's here. He came, and my heart is racing. I didn't realize I was still looking up at the moon until his hands cupped my face.

I blinked a couple of times and stepped back. I smiled, that was the first thing that I did. I smiled and he did too, and he is so handsome.

We were just gazing at each other and he broke it. "Why didn't you bring your jacket? It's cold and you'll get sick again" He said, shrugging of his jacket, ready to let me wear it. I stopped him and said that I didn't mind the cold.

"I like you." I said. Looking at his widened eyes. Shit, shit, shit. Too blunt, too straightforward. I know, I know that I might get hurt, but it's now or never. I've said it.

Silence, he just broke it and I started it again, but I am not backing down. I continued to look at him. I started to lower my head, and then he kissed me.

He kissed me! And in instinct I kissed him back. I'm kissing him, oh my. He pulled away, rather quickly. Even I don't know what expression I'm wearing. Heart pumping, and warmness all over. Indescribable, that is what I'm gonna say.

He pulled away. The more I think about it, the more my face started to drop. The bliss lasted for a very short while. I mean, yeah he has the right to pull away. I closed my eyes, never in my whole entire life, up until now, I have never felt this way before. I held my breath, I can feel my heart pumping, pounding, I can also feel it dropping. Wow, I never thought I would feel this way for a guy. This...it hurts, more than the news that my parents are getting a divorce.

Getting rejected by a guy I liked, yeah. Now, I know my feelings for him. I do like him. In just a short amount of time we've been together, is it really that possible? I don't know him that much, but I have all the time in the world for me to get to know him. I have time.

"I'm sorry." I said after, for what it seems like an achingly short while. I looked up at him and smiled. "I like you, Justin." I looked into his eyes, and through his eyes, he asked me 'why?' and I smiled. "I like you, not because you're a star." I looked up and pointed up at the night sky then dropped my head again and smiled. "I like you, because you make me laugh and smile and blush." He laughed at me, because I unconsciously did what I have said and I beamed at him.

"I..." He started, but abruptly stopped. I put my hand to his cheek and made him look at me, urging for him to continue and that it's okay, it's okay for whatever words that would come out of his beautiful mouth, it's okay. And that is what I told him.

"Justin." He looked up at me and to my eyes. "It's okay." He put his hand above mine and he closed his eyes and I loved it. I love the way his eyes were slowly closing, at the warmth I'm providing in a cold night.

"I'm a mess, Siane." He said. "I'm a mess, a screw up and I don't know anymore!" His breathing increased, he dropped both of our hands from his but he was not letting my hand go. He's shaking his head, must be a memory. And I let him, I watched him unravel in front of me.

"All those rumors, stories about me going in the news, the media, about me sleeping and hooking up with different girls, it's true, Siane. I don't know why, but to me that's the only way for me to conceal the pain. The pain I've felt from...from her. I gotta admit it to you, you were supposed to be one of them. You were supposed to be one of them and I don't know why, Siane. Those girls they like me because I am the Justin Bieber, the famous media trained- mega star, but when I'm around you, I am me. I'm just Justin. The guy who grew up in Toronto, and it feels amazing. I thought that I'm going to hurt you. Why? Siane, why?" He finally looked up as his grip on my hand tightened.

"You didn't let me finish. I like you, because you are you." I sadly smiled. Yes, sadly. Sadly because even though I don't know him that much, this is a side of him that I have just met and that's what I like. He is not afraid to open up to me, he's letting he's guard down for me. And seeing him like this, it's sad.

And at that said, he was feeling alone. He thought he was alone, even when he's not.

"After admitting to you that I intended to hurt you, after I told you that I'm a fuck up, that still didn't changed the way you feel for me? Why?" He rasped, head shaking, confusion and a bit of utter disbelief on his face.

"It's because you're not." I hugged him. "You didn't hurt me, right? So you're not." I hugged him tighter "You need someone, and I'll be that person for you, Justin." I pulled away so I can his cheek and stepped back.

      "I am here for you, so don't think that you are alone, because you're not."  For the last time tonight, I smiled at him and he hugged me so tight. I closed my eyes and hugged him back, but what made me shocked and opened my eyes so wide, was the words I never expected him to say tonight.

      "I like you, Siane, so much." And just like that my...our night ended to what it seems to be a period for today's chapter of our story. 

      This is beautiful.