First and Last 『Justin Bieber』

Prologue

As I sit here on my chair, holding my pencil and staring at a blank space on my diary. I couldn't help, but think of what to write.

What should I write?

"Dear Diary,

As you always know, I am all alone..."

I am all alone.

I have no one.

Nobody wants me.

They all turned their back on me. Who could blame them? It was my fault anyway...for choosing him. It's such a disappointment when you defend someone for so long thinking they are different and they turn out to be just like what everyone said. Shaking my head I stood up, leaving my diary on the table and went to lie down on my bed.

I knew he was doing those things to me. I just...I just refused to believe it. I know I'm stupid and I know I'm a fool. My heart hurts just thinking about it. Memories just came and barged into my mind, but I shook them away.

Memories...ouch.

Memories cause love.

And love kills.

But to be honest, I'm never going to forget him. I'm always going to love the colour of his eyes, and I'm always going to search for someone with the same contagious laugh. I'm never going to fully get over him. I'm going to have those nights when all the regrets and pain comes rushing back and I'm going to miss him with all of my heart, but let's hope that I'm going to be okay.

I slightly laughed at myself, I am a fool because even though I strongly hate him I still love him, but not like I used to love him. Maybe I love him, because of the fun and romantic memories we shared or maybe...no I used to love him that's it.