Last December (VictUri)

Chapter 6: Take Me and Break Me

((Author's Note: Gee guys, calm your tits. I'm only five chapters in, did you really think I'd kill someone that fast or kill someone at all? It's sweet ol' ViktUri. Stay hopeful and chill with the death and harm threats towards me :) Without further ado, here is an extra early chapter to soothe your cliffhanger syndrome. Much love <3))

Usually I'd share a flashback. One that would show how horrible my own life was back then and how much brighter it is now with Viktor in it. Well, it isn't. Nothing can compare to this moment really. I lost my mother in this same situation and after all the mourning, I finally felt okay. But now being crammed back in the same place, it seems like I am reliving it all.

Every single second feels like days and the longer I sit here, the more I feel like I'm rotting away. This really couldn't be the end of it all. All of our work, the competitions, all of it. This wasn't possible and I most certainly did not want to lose another so close to me. There was so much hope for the future....So much.

Silly me. I caused this emotional trauma.

Hope is for suckers.

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Viktor lay peacefully on the bed, his ocean eyes staring up at nothing but the ceiling. He had awoken only an hour ago and originally, he was really talkative but the moment he seen me walk into the hospital room, shame rose in those eyes and his voice went mute.

What happened to you, Viktor? Why won't you tell me anything?

Before I could say anything, there was a knock on the door. I expected it to be the nurse but getting up and opening the door, I seen none other than...Yurio. Why was here at all times?

"Get out of my way, pig." He grumbled, shoving past me. The male had a brown paper bag in his hand and a serious look on his face.

I watched him go over to Viktor and they exchanged a few words I couldn't make out before they both turned their gazes to me.

"Yuri, I'm gonna have to ask you to step out for a moment..." Viktor finally spoke. Just great. The only words he has for me is to get out.

With a sigh, I did as told and left the room, going out and sitting in the hall, sinking down to the floor. Yes there were chairs, I just didn't feel the urge to sit in one. Sitting on the cold tile floors, I slowly felt the body heat being pulled from my skin, shivers began down my spine

It felt like eternities sitting out here before I seen the large oak door open again and Yurio stepped out with a bit of a pained expression on his face. That was one of the only times I had seen him this way. I hated him at times but seeing this hurt fairly bad.

"He needs to talk to you..." Yurio said, not that usual sass lacing his voice. This was big...

I got up and went back into the room, seeing Viktor sitting up with a smile. Not his usual smile. Just that smile that meant he had something bad to say and wanted to soften the blow.

"Yuri...Sit..." He mumbled, looking at me as I walked in and over to the edge of the bed.

I did as I was told but curiosity kept eating me alive. What did he want to tell me and why did it seem like it was so important.

"I knew this was gonna happen actually, just not so soon..." Viktor finally said after moment of silence. "Yuri..."

"Yes, Viktor? Please...Let me know something. I'm so scared and being left in the dark is not helping it.." I intrjected.

The man's smile faded and he looked out the window. "I'm dying..." He said his voice barely a whisper. At first the words didn't set in but...I felt my eyes begin to burn. My heart felt like it just kinda crumbled completely. Two words. That's it.

A skater's heart is as fragile as glass like you always said it was Viktor. Why'd you have to go and break it?

"W-What? Isn't there treatment for these types of things or something?!" I asked, my voice cracking. I didn't want to show him how I was breaking down but there was no way I could hide this.

"Yuri....I denied all the treatment.." He whispered, unable to make eye contact.

"That's bullshit! You can't walk into my life and make me fall for you only to leave. That's selfish as hell!-"

"Yuri, please calm down.." He tried to interrupt.

"No! Forget that! Fuck you, Viktor. I hope however long you have left are filled with regret for destroying a person who only wanted to have a happiness." I spat.

Before he could say anything else, I left the room. Left the hospital too. The moment my face hit the cold wind outside, I sunk down to the pavement.

When my mother died, Minami once asked me how bad I felt on a scale from one to ten. Usually people would say a straight ten because y'know...It is your birthgiver. But me? I said a nine. I said a nine in a ten situation because Viktor...I was saving that ten. For something so much worse. And I think losing you will be my ten.

Please don't go....I'm not ready to lose another...

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I went straight home after my hospital trip. Surprisingly, Makkachin met me at the door. I greeted her with a smile before heading back into my bedroom. The dog followed and crawled up with me. It's times like this when I can't help but remember how Viktor laid with me. That side of the bed lingers a cold aura now.

Will he ever be able to lay with me again? Will I ever be able to skate with him again? What about my feelings, will I ever be able to express them?

Hold him, hug him, kiss him...Are those ever gonna be possibilities for me?