Better Than Words

Chapter 62 - Lifeline

Jesy's POV

After I woke up I asked a nurse if Jade was still in surgery, "Yes they are still working on her." She said and I nodded sadly.

The rest of the girls were still sleeping, I couldn't keep my tears in any longer. I know that I'm always the strong one, I'm always the one that kept it together but I can no longer hold it in.

These past few days have just been a whirlwind. I don't even know what's happened. Niall and I have been fighting, I was ignoring Leigh-Anne for no reason, and Perrie...

I didn't know this much drama could ever happen in real life. I can't believe that I'm actually living through it.

Niall and I haven't really talked through what happened, but knowing that our lives could have ended back in the warehouse, I couldn't go without knowing we weren't okay.

I've fallen so hard for him that it literally tore my heart apart when I thought he cheated on me with Leigh-Anne. It still hurt to know that he did kiss another girl, even if it wasn't Leigh-Anne.

Once they're back I really need to talk to him. I want to know the whole story and we need to talk about our relationship. I've forgiven him but it's going to take sometime before I trust him again.

Perrie started to stir and she woke up and looked at me hopeful but I shook my head, "She's still in there Pez." I sighed.

"This is my fault Jes... If I didn't let her go, if I held on tighter..." She began but I shook her.

"No Perrie, none of this is your fault. This is Toby's damn fault, I hope he stays in prison for the rest of his life!" I heard myself say.

I didn't know the guy but what he did to us was sickening. I don't understand what could make a person do such vile things.

Leigh-Anne woke up from me yelling. "Hey, what's going on?" She asked with a yawn. We were all exhausted, all the adrenaline was finally wearing out of our systems.

"Nothing Lee-lee, Jade's still in surgery." I told her, I really needed to apologize to her but I feel like nothing can be done until we know Jade is safe.

El and Sophia were leaning on each other and were still very much asleep when all the boys came back.

They all looked so worried, which meant one thing, something bad happened to Harry. "What is it?" Perrie asked Zayn when they all took a seat.

"They found out that Harry was bleeding internally and he had a head trauma. He needs surgery. They just took him in." Niall explained and he broke down and started crying. I grabbed him and made him lean onto me.

"Baby, it's alright. He'll get through this, he's strong." I whispered to him. I looked around and the boys looked beat.

Liam had his head in his hands; he was shaking and sobbing quietly. Louis just had this blank look on his face and Zayn couldn't sit still, he didn't know what to do.

"All we can do is wait this out. They will both get through this. They're both strong and if we all pray hard, they'll be safe." I managed to say after awhile.

Everyone needed someone to be strong and I guess it had to be me. I need to get everyone through this; Jade and Harry will be okay. As much as I want to break down, I can't right now.

"Jesy, I want to talk to you alone." Niall said after he had calmed down. Everyone was still sulking, so we got up and moved to a more secluded area.

"Jes, I really am sorry about what happened. I missed you so much when I was away in Ireland. I shouldn't have drank that much. I don't know what took over me. I know it's going to take awhile to get you to trust me again but I will work my ass off." Niall said and held onto my cheek.