After we took a big long family nap I woke up and let the two of them sleep, I started to make dinner and get ready. Me and Narvel had a long talk after Bailey fell asleep about what happened and we were back to our happy selves
When Narvel woke up he smiled down at Bailey and kissed her cheek
She was sprawled out and she was snoring, she was in the middle of us but once I moved she moved over and sprawled out even more.
"I love you so much baby girl." He smiled and came downstairs. "Hey." I smiled
"Hey beautiful, should I bring Bailey downstairs and put her in her bouncer or not try to wake her and leave her sprawled out on the bed?" He asked
"She's gonna be grumpy if we wake her up." I said
"So I'll just let her sleep, she was exhausted." He said, he came over and tasted some of the sauce I was making with his finger.
"How is it?" I asked him
"It could use just a little bit more salt" he kissed my cheek
"You got it." I smiled and pecked his lips
He kissed me and smiled as he walked away he smacked me in the butt
I jumped a bit and giggled
He smiled and the door bell Rang. I looked at him nervously and he gave me a reassuring nod. He went and got the door and I smiled hearing her voice, it always just sounded like comfort, like my best friend was there. They came into the kitchen and I smiled, I was stirring the sauce and Carol gasped and covered her mouth. "Hi!" I smiled excitedly
"Carol!!!" I smiled big and ran over to her. I hugged her tight
She hugged me tightly and she was crying. "Your awake?! Why didn't you call?!" She held on tightly to me
"I missed you so much." I hugged her tight
"Do you want to meet your niece?" She smiled
"I would love too!" I smiled bug
She smiled and took the car seat from her husband. She sat it on the counter and she was looking all around taking everything in that was going on, she was so beautiful! "This is Isabella..... we call her Izzie" she smiled taking her out and then putting a blanket over her.
"Well hello beautiful!" I cooed
She looked over at me and smiled big. "So she's about 8 months old, she's doing really well! She weighs about as much as a 3 month old baby would weight, she's having a hard time packing on the pounds, but she's doing so good. She's learning to crawl and she loves to smile, she's just a genuinely happy sweet baby." She smiled
"Aww look at you go little one." I smiled and kissed her cheek. I heard Bailey start to wake up and Narvel went to her her
"I'm so happy you are awake and moving around.... have you guys started to try for another baby yet? Too soon?" She asked
I smiled and took her hand. I put hand on my stomach and smiled big
"Wait.... are you pregnant?!" She freaked out, she was so happy for us. Narvel walked in and Bailey was rubbing her eyes but she had on a cute little shirt that said on the front "I have a secret to secret to share with youuu" and there was an hour on it and on the back it said "I'm going to be a big sister!"
"I think miss Bailey wants to answer that one." I cooed and smiled
Bailey whimpered and wrapped her arms around Narvels neck. She was cranky and was still trying to wake up. Carol read her shirt and hugged me tightly again. "Oh I'm so so happy for you guys! This makes me want to cry! I can't believe you are awake and that you're pregnant!" She started to get emotional, she covered her mouth and fanned her eyes.
I hugged her tight and rubbed her back. I missed her so much
She held me tight. "Hi miss Bailey! Do you remember me?" Carol asked her, she had Izzie back in her arms and she was swaying her while rubbing her back.
She giggled and smiled big
I smiled at them and we all went into the living room to talk and catch up. Carol put Izzie on the ground and she was sitting in front of Bailey and they were just staring at each other.
"Who'a that baby?' I smiled sitting down on the floor with thwm
She grabbed the toy out of Izzies hand and Izzie started crying
"Bailey give it back to her please.' I said
"No!" She sasses
"Bailey yes." i said
"No!" She said again holding onto the toy. Izzie kept crying and she reached for Carol. Carol picked her up and rubbed her back. "It's okay baby, here do you want this one?" She asked, she calmed right down and took the plastic doll, she was such a good baby. Carol sat her back down in front of Bailey and Izzie tried to show Bailey the doll but Bailey just took it from her again, but instead of keeping it she threw it at Izzie. Izzie started screaming and Carol picked her right up again.
"Bailey you don't throw toys!" Narrcel said sternly. I picked her up and sat her down on the naughty step
"Reba it's okay, really.... I shouldn't have sat her back down infront of Bailey after I gave her a new toy, it was my fault. It's all new to Bailey. It's okay." She soothed, Izzie was bleeding on her forehead and she had a big goose egg on the scratch.
"No its not okay, she needs to learn how to share nicely. Narvel disciplined her while i got stuff to fix up izzies forehead. i felt so bad
Carol sighed and looked down. "Are you telling me I don't know how to discipline my child?" She looked at me a little hurt because I snapped at her before and I hurt her feelings. "Because I know exactly how to discipline my child." She said. "Bailey didn't do anything wrong." She said
"No no no, im saying that i don't know how to discipline Bailey. You guys are fine." I siad
She looked down at Izzie and sighed. "I'm sorry.... it's just been hard becoming a parent, people judge you 24/7 on how you are parenting and I just don't need it coming from my best friend" she said grabbing my hand to try and calm me down
"I've never judged you." I told her
"I know, and I know you never would.... I guess it's just become an instinct when ever I think someone I judging my parenting, they usually are. I'm sorry." She said, I started to fix up Izzie and she was whimpering. "I get it. I love you" I smiled. She said it back and I looked at Izzie. "Does that hurt baby?" I pouted
She whimpered a little bit. Bailey over to us and sat on my lap
Izzie reached out to her, even after she hit her.... she still wanted to play with her.
Bai smiled big and reached her hand out
I smiled at them and so did Carol. "Who's ready to eat?!" Narvel smiled. We all smiled and we sat down to eat. I looked at Carol "how do you think it's going to be once there are three little girls to play with?" I asked smiling
"Three little girls? Your having a girl?!" She smiled big
"Yeah, we found out this afternoon" I smiled
"This is so exciting!" She smiled
"I know!" I smiled. We had a great dinner and a few days passed, today was Baileys 1st birthday! I was so excited but I was also having a lot of morning sickness and I hadn't moved out of bed all morning except to get sick. I was so nervous that I wouldn't be there for the party.
"Mommy!!" Bailey called for me. Narvel was out getting her big cake and her individual one
I groaned and I knew I had to get up and get her because Narvel was out. I slowly got up and out of bed and walked to her room. "Good morning beautiful, happy birthday" I said
She giggled and smiled big. She reached out for me
I picked her up and kissed her cheek
She hugged me tight
I held her and took her back to bed with me
She laid on her head on my belly
"Do you love your baby sister?" I smiled
She giggled and smiled big
I smiled and Narvel came home
"Who's hone?" I smiled
"DADDY!" She yelled excitedly
"Lets go get him." I smiled
"Mommy!" She giggled and smiled
I smiled and brought her downstairs. The room was spinning and I felt so nauseous. I looked at Narvel and grabbed onto the counter with Bailey on my hip.
"Baby you okay?" He asked.
"No. This baby is killing me." I said putting a hand on my belly
"Im sorry honey." He rubbed my back
"What time is everyone coming over?" I asked
"one." IS aid
"I'm so stressed out.... when are we going to have the whole family together again to be able to announce the pregnancy? Not until the 4th of July and then I'll really being showing.... people will catch on." I said starting to pave. "I can't ruin today." I said
"Baby shh it's all okay. Everything is going to be fine." He soothed
"No it's not! Everyone will just find out and then this pregnancy won't be as special" I was so beyond stressed out.
"Babe you need to stay come for the baby." He said
"I can't. I'm so stressed out about everything. And look how big I am! Even wearing a loose shirt my belly shows right through." I whimpered
He pulled me close and rubbed my back soothingly
I looked at the time and it was quarter of 12. "No no no! I haven't even taken a shower!" I started freaking out.
"You go shower and I'll get e everything down here ready." He said
"Babe.... thank you" I said
"Your welcome." He kissed me
I kissed him back and I took a shower and got dressed. I came downstairs and my stomach was showing so much out of my shirt.
"Mommy!!!! Bailey crawled over to me excitedly
"Hi pretty girl!" I smiled
She reached up for me to pick her up
I picked her up and kissed her cheek
She smiled big
The door bell rang and I got the door with Bailey on my hip.
It was my parents
"Who's that?!" I smiled big at her
"Andma!! Andpa!!" She smiled
I giggled and smiled at her. "Hi mom, dad" I smiled hugging both of them
"Hi baby." I smiled
They
"Come in!" I smiled
They come inside
I felt our baby girl kick for the first time right then and there! I put my hand on my belly where she kicked and I smiled big
"Babe!!! Come here!!" I said
He came in. "Babe? What's wrong?" He asked, my parents were looking at me funny.
"She just kicked!" i cooed
"No way! Really?!" He smiled placing his hand on my belly
The baby kicked his hand
He smiled big and we looked at each other. "That's our baby" I smiled
He smiled big and kissed me
I kissed him and my parents were so confused. "What's wrong?" They asked
We both knew we had to the them now.
"You wanna tell them?" He asked
"Your getting a another grand baby." i smiled big
"Your pregnant?" My mother sounded disappointed
"I am." I smiled
"You really think your ready for another? You were just asleep for 7 months and your daughter grew up without a mother." She said
"Mama?" I said hurt
"You don't need another baby. I will not stand here and support you having another baby and risk going away again." She said. "I will not stand by it." She said
"Well I'm having her no matter what." I said
"We won't stand by you and watch you ruin your babies lives." She said
I looked at her hurt and with tears in my eyedc
"You are an awful mother to Bailey and I can't imagine you could be any better with two. That's one more for Narvel to look after when you leave.... again." She said
I had tears streaming down my face. "Get out." I said
"Gladly." She said throwing Baileys gift on the floor and stepping on it.
Bailey started crying because of the fighting
"Oh honey, shhhh shhh, mommy is right here" I soothed wiping my tears away.
She cried into me and I held her close
"I love you baby doll" I said
"Wove mommy." She whimpered and held me close. She was so scared
"Today is going to be a great day" I smiled trying to cheer her up
She hugged my neck out
The door bell rang again and I got the door
It was carol and her family
"Oh thank god" I said looking at her, I was going to break down/
"What's wrong?" She asked concerned
"My mother.... she doesn't want me to have this baby and she said I'm not a good mother." I said biting my lip
"Mommy est mommy." Bailey smiled
"Oh sweetheart, you so sweet and nice to mommy" I said holding her close
She giggled and smiled big
I kissed her cheek and rubbed her back
"Ove mommy." She said
"And I love you" I smiled. About an hour passed and everyone was having a good time, I snuck away to the back room and I started to pace. I was so stressed out and nothing I was doing was helping. I was taking medication but I couldn't take it being pregnant. I had so much on my mind.
"Reba it's your daughters first birthday. Get it together." I told my self
I closed my eyes and took deep breath trying to calm myself down. "No. No you will not pass out. No one will find you back here and you could die. You hear me? You pull yourself together and get back out there. Your daughter needs you today." I said fanning myself
I was able to collect myself enough to calm down. I walks back down stairs
Carol was coming up the stairs. "Come up here with me." She said grabbing my hand knowing that something was up with me just by my Face
"I need get back to the party." I said
"Reba what you need to do is sit down, take a few deep breaths and calm down." She said
"I'm trying to." I said
She just looked at me. "Reba you are going to kill that baby inside of you. You are always stressed out and when me and Narvel try to help all you care about is not trying to calm down. You don't want to have a baby at 7 months pregnant. Trust me, it's happened to me before. But if that's what you want, you want to sit in a NICU for 5 months waiting to hold your baby, waiting to feed your baby like a normal mother.... if that's what you want, then be my guest. Go back to that party, work yourself till you can't even see straight. I give up on trying to help you." She said letting go of my hand and walking back down the stairs.
"Carol.....I need help...please...." I said and she saw the look in my eyes. "Get my husband too." I pleaded
She ran down the stairs and she got Narvel. They both helped me upstairs into our bed room and they helped me into the rocking chair. Carol stepped back a little bit and Narvel kneeled in front of me. "Baby? Honey tell me what's wrong." He said
"I need help calming down. Im gonna go back if I don't." I whimpered
"Okay okay, Carol run a warm bath not to hot not to cold, if the water is to hot it could harm the baby." He said, she nodded and she drew a warm bath. She pouted in some bubbles and lit a lot of candles to help keep me calm. "Now baby I want you to breath just like me okay?" He said, I nodded and I followed his pattern, he breathed in and then he breathed out, once I got the hang of it I closed my eyes and continued.
"Baby stay with me." He said panicked then my eyes closed.
