Moment for Life (Not Edited)

Chapter 9

We were on our way and he started asking questions again

"Are you gonna tell me that long story now? It's quite a long drive to your place"

"Uh... I'd rather not if thats okay with you, but it's sort of personal"

"Oh" Is all he says

I give him a questioning look although he can't see me, and stay quiet

About 20 minutes later we pull up to the house and he closes his eyes and leans over like he's gonna kiss me. My heart beats outside of my chest as I move back, trying to weave it to ignore the unbearable stinch of his breath, or is it his rough kisses that I want nothing to do with. Either way I don't want to even think about fazing the aftermath of this.

I move back , really far until ive almost bumped into the window. I hurt my back with something behind me, but I pay no mind to it .

"You're farther than I thought" Carter's stinch hits me and i literally gag trying to make no noise because as much as I want to tell him that his breath smells like a Bar's drink dumpster, I'd rather not.

He opens his I must say, beautiful brown eyes that always seem to catch my attention, and they aren't closed like you intend an Asian's eyes to be (Not trying to be stereotypical btw)

"There's nothing to be afraid of, I'm not going to rape you." That was it for me, I was scared as hell. You can't just tell me yiur not gonna rape me out of no where.

"Don't be afraid princess" He says in a deep, controlling voice and I can't help but let my instincts take over, I elbow him in the face and try to get out, but he's too fast for me. He grabs me by my hair and pulls me back to my seat and I let out a small almost inaudible whimper. I'm used to this type of abuse but it came out of nowhere

"I was trying to fucking kiss you, you little shit. you've left me no choice but to force you, worthless trash" He says in a low stern harsh voice resembling those mad people on those commercials who say "Its my money and I need it now!" But without the yelling which made it sound way more intimidating.

He presses his lips on me hard, and slaps me until I kiss back. I couldn't take it anymore. I decided to silently cry during the harsh forceful kiss which I wanted nothing to do with. I knew all my makeup was running and my almost faded scars from before were now visible. He deepens the kiss and I sob, merely audible.

Once he finishes he gives me a apology and a sympathy look but I dont think much of it, because I know he doesn't even mean it. But my mind isn't even focused on that, im focused on the fact the fact I obviously can't sleep with Aiden today, and now, I have to sleep in my actual bed, and everynight I didn't sleep with him since I came, I had nightmares. But, I guess I'll have to deal with that right now.

I walk in greeted by the farmiliar smell of Lavander which I've grew to love, everytime he gets frustrated, anxious or pissed he cleans, or goes up to the roof. Most guys break things or fight, but I guess his mother taught him right. I wish I'd have any parents to care for me. But, not everybody has the luck. The luck to know that you'll wake up, no matter what mood you're in, your parents would care for you. Living in this perfect world where everything just works out, that's the life I wish I had. But, atleast I can handle it. The few times I went to public school. That's how I know how some kids feel, When everyone stares at you like you dont even belong on planet earth, a unknown alien. Bumping into you when they pass by like they didn't see you. But, I got used to it, being the outcast, it hurts but I'm not sure if I even feel  pain anymore, I'm just numb. Numb and tired.Too tired to fight back, too numb to feel it or even care. the tears that accumulate in my body, were used to much that there aren't any. The most I can go is glossy eyes, because my body can't even gather tears for me to shed anymore.

I walk in with my head low, making sure to not to be noticable considering it looks like I was punched in the face, repeatedly. Then, my eyeliner makes it look like I was crying, and although I was, I would rather people not know that I have been. I decide to just run upstairs which almost lead to my death considering I almost fell down the stairs, but right now, it wouldn't even matter, I know Carter is going to make me do terrible things and I'm not prepared for that. 

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