Alpha Wolfe

**17**

We sat in a circle in the living room. I sat on the couch, not wanting to be here another second. Roman stood in the middle he was the wise guy or what ever because he hasn't been doing anything wrong. "If I throw the ball to you then you have to confess something...There will be no more secrets in this group of friends ight? This is some bullshit....yall ruining my summer and shit" He said. Everybody nodded and he threw the ball to Isaiah. He kissed his teeth before looking at me, then at Corbin. "I-I love Corbin...We been together for a little while now, and I didn't know how to tell you guys" He said. Everyone looked happy except for Jayla.

He threw the ball to Corbin. "I love you to Isaiah....I'm sorry Jayla, I didn't m-" "You didn't mean to what? Fuck my ex, what kind of friend are you" Jayla said. "Get over it already!" We all said at the same time. She rolled her eyes before Corbin passed the ball to Logan. He looked down at Dani, who was wrapped in his secure embrace. "Dani's pregnant" We all gasped before Dani hit his arm. "I thought we were gonna wait to tell them!" He shrugged. "Why not now baby?" He leaned down and kissed her, and they started getting hot right there. "Yo! Stop man...that's weird" Isaiah said, covering his eyes. Logan passed the ball to me and I instantly looked at Angie. "Pass" I said. Everybody kissed there teeth. 

I threw the ball to Maya and she put her head down. She whispered something that no one could hear. "What?" we asked. She did it again. "Speak up" Roman said. "I HAVE CHLAMYDIA!!" She screamed. Ew! "For how long?" Roman asked. "A week, that's all- but it goes away with medicine-" Roman wiped the imaginary sweat off his forehead before laughing to his self. "We haven't fucked in a couple weeks so I'm good!" He beamed. The ball was passed to Angie and my breath hitched. "I've been pregnant four times" She said. I sighed loudly. Why the fuck would she tell them that? Roman put his hands around his eyes, as if were a pair of  binoculars. "Were the kids at, I haven't seen one yet" He said. He plays way to much. "I don't know, ask Blue" The ball was passed back to me, and I knew I couldn't skip my turn again. "I made Angie get an abortion" They all gasped and Dani covered her eyes. They are so dramatic. "Look I-I'm sorry Angie..." She shook her head.

"It's to late to be sorry" She whispered. I felt bad. Super bad. "I passed the ball to Tyler and he smiled. "I wish she here right now but...I'm in love with Megan. She has me whipped and I can admit that. That ass sits just right I mean Damn the pussy is-" "Woah that's enough!" Roman said, grabbing the ball from him. Tyler kissed his teeth. "Hater" he whispered. "Zoe's pregnant, by me. And I told Angie I was gonna give her my virginity in high school but I lied. Zoe took it instead" Her eyes watered, and I felt sick with my self. "I'm sorry" I whispered. Everyone was silent. "Listen guys, it's pretty late so lets get drunk, and high on the beach. I got some condoms in my car so lets just forget about everything okay and enjoy are selves" Roman said. Everyone got up and walked to the bar. I couldn't bare to look her in the eyes. I've caused her so much pain. I skipped the party and instead walked up the stairs. No one said anything to me. The probably all hate me now. But it's okay, cause I hate myself just as much.

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I stared up at the ceiling. The warm, salty ocean air blew quietly threw the open window. The loud music that played downstairs wasn't the thing that was keeping me awake the entire time. I couldn't stop thinking of her. I felt disgusting. I wished we could go back to how things were, when I was just an average kid. My door opened and Angie stood there. She had on a long dress thingie. She loved to sleep in those. I sat up and she crawled into bed with me. "What are you doing here?" I whispered. It was evident she had been crying. "I couldn't sleep" The moonlight shined on her doe like features. She was so beautiful. "Remember on my birthday-" "You've had a lot of birthdays sweet heart" I mumbled, brushing the stray hairs away from her face. "No this birthday was special to me. You gave me flowers and a Tiara. I felt like a queen" She mumbled. She was wrapped in my arms and it felt right. "You are a queen" She smiled shyly. "Then why do you treat me like I'm not. You treat me like I was the one who hurt you, when in reality you were the one who fucked everything up" I sighed because it was true.

"Don't I always fuck everything up. I'm just a fuck up in general, we both no I was a mistake-" She pulled away with sorrow in her eyes. "Don't say that Blue. Your mom and dad both love you and you know it. Just because your mother couldn't survive doesn't mean you weren't meant to be here" I looked deep into her eyes and saw how sincere she was. "Have you moved on?" She asked and I nodded. Miro was my new girl. I wanted to be with her. "I have a new girl Angie, and I know this hurts you but..." I couldn't even explain to her how I was feeling at the moment.

"The only thing that hurts me Blue, is the fact that you told me that I was your girl and now I'm not. When father would get done beating me and you would come to comfort me and tell me that you'll be there next time to stop him, I was your girl. But you were never there. When I would bleed for weeks on after abortions, I was your girl. When you would cheat, lie and hurt me all the time...you would kiss me and tell me I was your girl and that I would always be your girl Blue" I felt like Forrest Gump. "You'll always be my girl Baby and you know this" My heart started beating overtime and I couldn't breath. It felt like the first time. "I love you Angelica" I whispered.

"I love you too" She looked up at me with sad features. "Make love to me again Blue...just like the first time- when you told me you loved me and meant it" I meant it now but I didn't need sex to prove it. "Why do you need sex to prove that I love you?" "It's not like that. I just wanna feel you one more time. I wanna feel you deep inside me...wanna hear you whispering you love me over and over again in my ear" "You have any condoms?" She shook her head before smiling. "We don't use condoms remember, I'm on the pill for sure this time, I promise" I remember Zoe saying the exact same thing. "Don't say that ever again" I muttered and she nodded.

I looked into her eyes before she nodded, reading my mind. I slowly lifted her dress over her head. I sighed lowly. I felt nervous all over again. Beads of sweat formed on my brow. I got up and locked the door. Never again will someone walk in on us. She reached behind her and unclasped her bra. She bit her lip as she saw how I looked at her. I leaned in and kissed her passionately. She moaned and I deepened it. I hooked my thumbs on her panties, and slowly pulled them off. "Are you sure?" I whispered when I pulled away. "This is not the first time anymore Blue, I'm positive" I nodded before spreading her legs. I stripped from my boxers and she gasped. She gasped every time.

She relaxed and breathed in and out, calming her self. I slid one finger inside her and she was wet. "Mhh Blue...please" She moaned, and I felt weak. I rubbed her clit with the pad of my thumb. "Shh sweet heart, I'm gonna give you what you need" I mumbled. I put two fingers inside her and pumped slowly, getting her nice and wet. After she was wet enough, I positioned myself and slid inside her. Fuck. She felt the same. Me and Angie fucked all the time...but It hadn't felt like this in a while. She hung on too me for dear life. "Blue" she moaned, as I grind into her slowly. Fuck this felt good. I held her body close to mine and she wrapped her arms around my neck. "Shit, baby..." She felt so good. I wanted to speed up, but if I did this would turn into fucking. I looked down at her and her head was buried in the pillow and her eyes were closed. "Open your eyes baby" I whispered. She complied and her eyes sent shivers down my spine. I looked deep into her eyes as my fingers played with one of her sensitive nipples.

Her back arched and she hooked her legs round me. I leaned down next to her ear, giving her deep long strokes of pleasure. "I love you baby, I love you so much" I felt her tears on my shoulder as she scratched at my back in attempt to get me deeper. "Blue I-I'm gonna cum" she moaned. Her voice was shaky and it was evident the love was there. Fuck it felt so familiar, we were in the same position the first time. I was gonna cum to, fuck. "Show me how much you love me and cum for me Angie" I whispered.

Her lips parted and her grip on me tighten. I knew I wouldn't be able to pull out. Are moans collided as I rocked into her. I loved being like this with her. At least I knew she wasn't hurting. "I love you Blue" was the last thing I heard before we both came. It felt so good to be with her again. I pulled out of her and wiped the tears from her cheeks. "I love you too...and you'll always and forever be my girl" I laid next to her, and pulled the covers over us and pulled her body to me. I never wanted to forget the last time we had sex. So I will never forget this.

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