I feel like nobody loves me. It seems like everyone is out to get me. Sometimes I want to just kill my self. I have 2 fucked up parents. My favorite brother died. I be samned if I let another loved one leave my life. But I know that.....I have to st...
I woke up, and my eyes was all red, and puffy. I felt better that I let all that out. I signed, and sat up. I forgot I wasn't in my room. After me, and Jhene talk I fell asleep. I got up, and walked over to the window with pillows, and stuff on it. I sat in it, and looked out the window. I still remembered his smile every time we talked to each other. (Look Below)
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I remember his facial expression, every time we would talk about serious stuff. (Look Below)
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I remember everything. I remember the special park me, and him used to go to when we're bored. I looked back over at Aug who was smoking a blunt. (Look Below)
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I swear I find it so intertaining how he smokes. I kept looking at him, then lit another blunt, and sat right in front of him I kept looking at him then I copied him. The smoke was just flowing out. I liked the feeling of it. Very relaxing. I opened my eyes, and Aug was lookin at me smirking.
Mila: What I just copied you.
Aug:*lightly chuckles* I see. How ya feel.
Mila: Better. Hate crying ain't ma thang, I said shaking ma head, and putting the blunt out.
Aug: I see. It ain't ma' thang eitha.
I nodded. I've been thinking. Why, and the hell do Aug care about me so much. I just looked at him with my eyes squinted. He would randomly kiss me, and loves picking me up. To be honest wit y'all, ion think I'm that cute. I mean..I'm decent but yeh. Ion know why he like me💯. Ok yeah we got stuff in common but.....do he really want somebody like me. I can be a hand full. Like Drew said I'm hard headed, and I wont denie it. To be honest....I think im bad for him💯. I then looked back at him. He needs to stay away from me. I stood up quickly, bagging up from him. I rubbed my hands on my pants because, they got sweaty. I looked at him.
Mila: Y-You need to go.
Aug:*looks confused* What?
Mila: Bye. You need to leave, I said sternly.
Aug: Why?
Mila: Leave.
He still just sat there.
Mila: BYEE!!!!
He looked at me, and got up. He looked mad. He slipped his shoes on, and grabbed his bucket hat. He looked at me, then left. A few seconds later, I heard the front door slam shut witch caused me to jump. I rubbed my hands over my face. I slowly walked downstairs. Everyone stopped talking, and looked at me. I just continued to go to the kitchen. I grabbed a bottle of he Hennessey, and opened it. I drank it straight from the bottle. I shook my head with a smirk on my face. Then Kae came in the Kitchen. Her eye got wide.
Kae:*eyes gets big* Hood....gimmie that bottle.
Mila: Get the fuck out Kae, I said rubbing my forehead.
I walked past her, but she was still trailing behind me.
Kae: HOOD gimmie got damn bottle.
I looked back at her.
Mila: FUCK OFF KAE!!!
I yelled at her, and went up to my room. I closed, and locked my door. I turned on The Weeknd - Rolling Stone. I put it on repeat, then sat up against the wall taking big gulps of the Hennessey ignoring the burning. Ever since Tay died I felt like I'm no good for no boy because, Tay would always tell me if they're good or not. Most of them wasn't. It was only like 2 that was. Now I think August isn't good for me. Its like I'm bad for him or sum. Ion think he can handle me. I took another 3 big gulps, feeling the liquor take over. I leaned my head up against the wall, slowly closing my eyes. Felt like I was gonna pass out. A few seconds later, that's exactually what happened.
August pov
I was in ma' house, back up again da' wall, listening ta music, and drinking a big bottle of Patron. Ion know what's wrong wit Hood, but it offended me. Kae tried callin meh, and Jhene. I didn't anwser. Ion know why I'm so down. Ion know why she got like dat, outrage know wea'. I think I like Hood, I DONT FUCKIN KNOW!! My action speak for me. Ion know what I was doin when I hold ha, or kiss ha. Fuck dis. I set da bottle down. Not finna be drink. We all gotta go ta dat show tomorrow. I was looking forward to it but now....not really. I cut off the music, and went ta ma room. I flopped down inna bed. Felt weird asf because, I'm used to sleeping wit Hood. I signed, and rubbed my face. I then closed my eyes, and tried to get some sleep. Most likely wearing my dark glasses tomorrow.
