What About Love [Austin Mahone/Jake Miller/Janoskians FF]

Chapter 12

After I had made a big fuss & the happy couple started making out, I headed back to my room to a shirtless Luke Brooks. Oh boy did he look hot as fuck! I know since Jake & I at technically still together, I can look but can't touch. Something about Luke made me want to just smile & be all girly. My heads up in the clouds with nothing but thoughts of pushing Luke on top of my bed, climbing on top of him, and kissing his body from top to bottom. Holy hormones, I need to cool it with the dirty thoughts. I guess Luke noticed me semi-staring because he smirked and winked at me. I couldn't help but blush & shake my head.

"So your 18th birthdays tomorrow," Luke smiled.

I threw my hands up,"Ugh I know!"

He laughed and I flipped him off. I hated my birthday, the same day my nonna died. Every year around this time I usually visit her grave until midnight, kiss her headstone, & sing to her. I know it may sound dumb but it's a tradition I've kept since I was 10. This year since I was fighting with Jake, I was hoping Luke wouldn't mind going with me. I tried to bring it up to Luke but the words wouldn't come out. Just as I found the courage to tell Luke my damn phone buzzed

Skip: Have you asked him yet?

Me: getting to it right now

Skip: love ya x

I faced Luke and bit my lip. My throat started to burn, my heart started to race & all I wanted to do was kiss the fuck out of Luke but I couldn't do that. I sighed. Luke looked fairly confused but then again that's my lamby!

"Can you come with me tonight at midnight to nonnas grave? It's a tradition I have been doing for now 8 years, and bring your guitar please."

Luke took my hand and placed it in his. Then his world famous smile that could save a third-world country appeared on his face & he nodded. I love him so much & I just gave into my temptations and kissed him. It was short, sweet, & perfect. I rested my head on his and giggled.

"I love you Jessica." Luke said, smiling

I let the tears escape," I love you too Luke, forever and always"

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It was almost midnight when I left a note on Skips side table explaining where Luke & I were. We drove about two hours to the cemetery and I navigated us to nonnas grave. I flicked on my flashlight so I could see where we were going. Once I found her headstone I couldn't help but collapse to my knees & start to cry. I started to sing,"Isn't she lovely" but I just couldn't find the energy to so Luke just strummed the melody on his guitar. I lit a candle next to her grave and when midnight came, I smiled faintly and sighed.

"Nonna" I started, "this is my best friend Luke. No he's not my boyfriend, I wish we were back together. You'd love him & I know I've said that before but I mean it. He's dedicated & devoted his time & love to me. thanks to him I try not to self harm."

I turned to face Luke,"I just want to be with you."