Learning the right love

10

Willow's P.O.V

I herd a honk coming from outside. I got up and walked over to it to see Cody. I motion for him to come in. He walked in to see me....crying. It wasn't even crying it was balling...along with a mental breakdown. He dried my tears and pulled me in for a hug. "I brought you something" he says I look at him waiting for him to explain. He pulled out the letter journal.
"Nuh uh"I exclaimed.
"uhuh" he copied.
"no way" I said.
"way" he responded.
I took it and held it to my chest. He started leaning in. Our lips were just about to meet when my least favorite person on the earth makes himself noticeable. I kiss him. I kiss Cody. I ignore that mother fucking asshole. I kiss Cody. And I like it. I like him. I am going to play that asshole. Know him and his secrets and drown him in them. He fucked with the wrong chick. I broke the kiss but kept my arms around his neck.
"We have school today" I said looking at Tyler.
"well this is interesting" said the asshole who just showed up.
"Cody I'm dating him so I can't kiss you anymore now both of you out" I say motioning to the door.
They both walk out. When I got a text

What's your plan?

It was Cody ha he so gets me

He'll drown in the air he breathes he fucked with the wrong bitch.

He may play hard but I'll play harder.

With that I got dressed and went to school as soon as I walked in the principle was there "guidance or gym your choice" he told me. Seriously fuck you. "Gym it is" I say and walk to my favorite place. (besides my bed of course)

I didn't feel like fighting my body was still weak and aching so I went to the girls yoga section. The school thought that if it was more realistic like the forest it would be easier to relax. So u went in and sat on the bench. I pulled out the book Cody gave me and my phone and headphones I put on Pink Floyd Comfortably Numb. And I started writing

My name is Willow this journal originally belongs to Cody but he's letting me borrow it. Anyway I'm gonna write down my story soooo here it goes

I am 16 years old and when I was 15 my dad got killed, ever since my mom has been whoring it up with everyone from my dads work. One night one of them tried to rape me...I fought back but in the end Kyle had to save me.....the next day Cody and his AssHat of a brother, Tyler, came to town. I started getting made fun of at school too...the past few days have been hectic and I just need to talk about it Tyler and Cody were at my house...then Tyler asked to go to the bathroom, ended up in my room, and asked me out... he spiked my drink then tried to rape me in the car. Cody saved me. Then he kidnapped me from Cody and made me choose between 2 options 1) rape 5 times a day for a week...or 2) rape once and I have to date him. Problem is... I love Cody I love him so much it hurts. And I can't be with him....
I paused a minute to wipe my tears...a slight breeze flipped the page and there was the page I wrote my number on... only there was a note from Cody
Willow,
What he did to you was terrible and I'm sorry I couldn't prevent it from happening... but I will prevent it from happening again.... Ever since I seen you on the news the first day we got here I knew I was in love with you. I love how you don't have a filter. I love how you start asking questions when your just about to fall asleep. I love how you cuddle into me and act like its nothing, when it's everything. I love how you kiss. I love the fact you kissed me first. I love you. I love your choice of music I love how I can almost hear what song you are listening to right now. I love how you steal my clothes. I love how when you shower at my house you use my shampoo out off all the kinds I have and smell like me afterwards. I love you for everything you are and stand for I love you so much it hurts. I hate I can't be with you but I WILL fight for you. Remember "This one's for you and me, living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
With my arms out wide I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters"

I love you to the moon and back--------Cody

He was right that's the song that's playing right now that letter had me in tears. I went back to writing.

I have always been different I've never like guys... for a while my life depended on Kyle. Now on Cody. But I'm tired of depending on people I just wanna be me again... The last three or four days I've been more depressed. So here is my plan I'll be scared of Tyler, I'll be depressed. I'll make him open up to me. And make me act like I'm getting better and better then chop his dick off and shove it up his ass.... Wait oops sorry off track back to reality I will make a book of everything that makes him tick and ruin his life tick by tick and all he will have left is his sloppy little whores because let's face it I have heels higher than his standards and guess what? I hate heels. I lost my virginity to him by force I will NEVER FORGIVE HIM.