Unbroken

Chapter 31; Trust

Juliet’s p.o.v

I sat in Justin’s arms…the feeling that came along was indescribable. I loved him. The only thing that I could really think of right now was; could I trust him? Could I really? I loved him, that was something that would never change. I believe he has changed…I know that I have changed as well.

“I want to be with you” He said pulling me back into reality.

“Justin, I love you and I want to be with you too…I just need to think about this. I just don’t really know if I can trust you. I know that isn’t fair. I am just struggling with that area.” I admitted.

“I understand and I respect that. I love you and I want you be with you. I love you so much, I promise things will be different.” He said kissing the crook of my neck.

“I believe you and I also believe in you.” I said hugging him tightly.

“Can you ever grow too trust me again?” He asked

“I don’t know Justin…I want to, I just need some more time.” I said

“I will wait forever if that means I can have you back.” He said kissing the top of my hand.

After a while of talking we decided to go for a walk. It was nice to be outside again. Justin spent most of the walk telling me jokes. I realized how hard it would be for me to try and not fall in love with him. He was so sweet and genuine, something that was hard to find in a guy.

“Oh, I almost forgot. Fredo is going to come by tonight to eat and watch some movies…I wanted to make sure that was okay with you.”

“Yeah, that is fine.” I smiled.

“Cool, we should probably head back now. I need to start on dinner and you need to take your pills again.” He said before grabbing my hand and pulling me closer to him. He hocked his arm around my waist and we began walking back to the house. Honestly, it was hard to distance myself from him. Everything in me craved to be around him.

“What are you making for dinner?” I asked trying to get away from my thoughts.

“I am not sure yet…but something good for sure.” He laughed.

“When we get back I am going to get a shower” I said.

“Okay, just let me know if you need help. We can put more of the cream on once you get out of the shower.”

“That stuff really is helping with the healing.” I said.

“That’s good” He smiled. “Have you had any urges?” He asked looking away from my eyes.

“For what?” I asked usure of what he meant.

“Urges to cut again?” He asked looking at me.

“No, not really. The pills make me think about the past and all but they don’t make me that depressed.” I said. It was the truth being on the pills, I had not cut since I started them.

I walked upstairs and got ready for my shower. Justin came up and checked on me to make sure that I had everything I need.

“I think that I can do this by myself…” I said once I was in the bathroom.

“Are you sure?” He asked looking unsure.

“I can do it” I said.

“Okay, well keep the door unlocked and I will stay and wait out here in case you need me.” He said.

“Okay, but you don’t have too” I said before shutting the door.

I guess one of the reasons I didn’t need his help. I also didn’t want him to see me naked…again. He saw me naked yesterday…I just am not fond of the way my body looks right now. I could lose some more weight…plus my scars pretty much take over my whole body making me look ugly.

I got my shower…although it burned being under the hot water. I knew it was good for the scars, it just didn’t feel good. I hurried and washed my body and my hair and got out of the shower. I wrapped myself in my robe and walked out of the bathroom. Justin was still standing in the same spot he was when I had shut the door.

“I can help you put the cream on” He said following me to my room.

“I can put it on myself” I said walking into the bedroom.

“I want to do it.” He said holding the cream in his hand.

“Justin,” I sighed.

“What’s wrong babe?” He said walking towards me.

“I would just you rather not see me naked.” I said trying not to look him in the eyes.

“And why is that?” He pressed.

“Because, I don’t look good naked!” I almost screamed.

“Juliet, don’t be like that. Why do you think I want to put the cream on you in the first place? I like the way you look naked.”

“Justin! You are a perv!” I smacked his arm.

“Yeah…I am a perv.” He said like it wasn’t news to him.

“Sorry babe” He chuckled lightly. "Trust me when I say, you have nothing to worry about. You look amazing naked.” He smiled.

“You really are a perv” I crossed my arms.

“That isn’t really news to me” He laughed again.

“When is Fredo coming over?” I asked walking towards my closet.

“Don’t try and change the subject.” He said following behind me, He snaked his arms around my waist.

“Justin,” I moaned.

“I love you” He whispered back.

I grabbed a fresh pair of jeans and an old tank top. I then grabbed a pair of underwear and bra out of my drawers before walking back into my room. Of course Justin wouldn’t leave the room so I had to get dressed in front of him. I put my underwear and bra on, then I let him put the cream on me. I put my jeans and shirt on and then did my hair.

“You look so sexy babe”

“You need to calm yourself down.” I said cock blocking him from even thinking that something would happen.

“What? I can’t complement my favorite girl?” He smiled from ear-to-ear.

After we walked downstairs there was a knock on the door. Justin answered it and in walked Fredo.

“Hey Juliet!” He said walking to me he gave me a hug.

“Hey” I said softly.

“Sorry about earlier…you know how your dad gets.” He said shrugging his shoulders.

“It’s fine. Glad you came back” I smiled.

After Justin made dinner and we all ate we at in the living room and talked. Fredo was telling us random stories of wen Justin was on tour. Fredo was going to stay with us for the rest of the weekend.

“So, did Justin tell you he was writing again?” Fredo asked when Justin went to the kitchen.

“No…he didn’t” I said. I am not really surprised, music was always a part of his life.

“Yeah…he started writing just recently.”

“Have you heard any of it?” I asked.

“Heard any of what?” Justin asked walking back into the living room.

“Nothing” Fredo said changing the subject.

“Fredo told me you started writing” I said standing up.

“Of course he told you that” Justin said glaring at Fredo.

“I would love to hear it” I said grabbing his arm.

“No” he snapped walking out of the room.

“I’m sorry…” Fredo said after Justin left. “He told me not to say anything.”

“Its fine…I’ll show you to the guest room” I said walking Fredo to his room.

“There is a TV and some movies you can watch if you want.” I said before walking upstairs to find Justin.