Amy's Big Book of Bitching

January 5, 2016

AHHHH I MISS UPDATING AT NIGHT (I say after not updating at night for two days)

THIS WAY I DON'T FORGET OR LEAVE OUT ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED

UHMMMM

So we had drumline rehearsals today and basically I learned two things:

1) two new warmups

2) jesus christ I can't play my scales to save my life

like I've got C, D, E, F, G, A, E flat, A flat, and B flat perfectly fine

but the rest of them are just

NOPE

I think it's because when I practice at home I never actually practice my scales.

I know all of them but I can't play them off the top of my head.

Give me ten minutes and a sheet of paper with a staff on it (music staff not Gandalf staff) and I can write down all my scales, including the three types of minor scales.

also if anybody wants to buy me a huge-ass box of Royce chocolates (preferably Hazelnut or Champagne) and ship it to me I will love you forever.

onto a slightly (and by slightly I mean not very slightly at all) more depressing topic

the friends I used to live my life for almost always feel like strangers now.

just like...the way I talk to them. When I talk to adults and people I don't know very well I always feel really awkward and my voice goes up about twenty million octaves.

when I talk to my friends...everything seems off...

most of them never really notice me anymore.

they'll be in a group with they're new friends and I'll walk up next to them and be like, "HI THERE FRIEND." and I'll end up ignored. I then proceed to feel extremely awkward and walk away and talk to the people I don't know that well about stupid things like not doing my Japanese homework (again. I've actually done my Japanese homework at home maybe twice this year at the beginning. I only really do my kanji homework now cuz they're easy since I can already read Chinese characters and I can finish a page in a minute.)

hmmmmm what else happened today.....

oh yeah ERIC the little shit pushed me over earlier at school while I was trying to update this (I gave up), and I fell over and my head landed on my other (not very close, but very sweet) friend's ass.

so yeah eric thanks for that.

AHSUJHBGYSDUJAHYUIKDWS I FORGOT TO SAY THIS BUT ON TUESDAY OR SOMETHING MY BROTHER WENT TO HARRY POTTER WORLD AND HE GOT ME A SCARF AND A JOURNAL AND THE ELDER WAND AND IT LOOKS SO FUCKING COOOOOOOLLLLLL.

heh I have 420 words written right now PIZZA (blaze).

I think I had biology homework but I'm not sure so I guess I'll just ask a classmate tomorrow morning and hope he tells me the truth.

I'm really confused about how some of my teachers feel about me.

Like my bio teachers seems to like me and my skills teachers likes me (I think. maybe? she doesn't really matter tho cuz it's honestly a useless class). My algebra teacher absolutely loves me, my band director probably likes me more than most of the other freshman, my Japanese teacher probably is really confused about me cuz I never do my homework but I'm always really polite and stuff and I have really nice hiragana and kanji (according to her) and I offered to play my flute for the Hanno exchange students coming next week. My GITA instructor kinda jokes around with me sometimes but I'm pretty sure he low-key doesn't like me cuz I haven't turned in like two projects (oops). But like my Lit. Comp. teacher is just like ??? Sometimes I feel like he hates me but other times he's like really nice and sometimes I'll stay after class with my friends to chat and stuff and the way he comments on my project rubrics he's really chill and stuff and he always compliments my essay writing style (not the actual essay cuz I never really focus on theme.) but other times he's really strict and awkward and stuff and idk....

this is like....the longest entry I've written I think.

Emphasis on I think.

I'm pretty sure it's also the only entry I've used italics in too. 

I think I'm going to start something to publish on the 12th but like it'll be one chapter (at least that's what I'm planning) and I'm not sure how the plot will go cuz it's really short and dufficult to develop characters...I'm probably going to write it today and edit it over a course of the next couple days so when I publish it it'll be at least decent.

if that's how I'm supposed to do my writing anyway then WHOOPS CUZ I JUST PUT MY HANDS ON MY LAPTOP AND TYPE. THEN PUBLISH. WHICH IS PROBABLY WHY I'M SO BAD AT THIS.

also I read this short story on here titled "How to Make a Bed" by @HARaynes and like oh my god it's so good if you're one of the few people who actually reads my entries GO READ THAT AND THEN COME BACK AND TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT IT CUZ IT WAS SO GOOD.

alrighty I'm done for today I think

BAISIES

NITEY NITE OR GOOD MORNINGS/AFTERNOONINGS/EVENINGS TO YOU WHENEVER AND WHEREVER YOU ARE AS YOU READ THIS

HAVE A NICE DAY AND BE SAFE

I LOVE YOU

SEE YOU TOMORROW!!